Holiday yet so called on duty (2)....side dish

Memorable time with my family.......

Miri Trip

Fortunately got chance to walk around with d "lao yi bei" church senior and together with my youngest sister in Miri this coming bak. This is my 3rd time going to Miri after my primary school. It's change lots od compared 2 Sibu. Due to nothing can be developed in Sibu while Miri has its rich petroleum... No wonder... already heard that Sibu will become a city since 2008 yet now still haven't turn to be... but i still very much enjoy the easy life and slower paces in Sibu. Back to Miri, I enjoy the beach scenery there very much. 1st time i try so many "ye wei" all 1 2gether- turtle meat, bat, "4 leg snake", wild boar,..... n of course it had costed us almost RM30 each person leh... N Thanks to the evelyn, han chiong for their hospitality to guide us those days.
At the petroleum muzeum

Durian time with my family....
This coming back so gd can eat durian 2gether with my family after 2 yrs i think although i oso gt enjoy durian at PB n taiping there 2... But the feeling will never the same when u enjoy with family as compared to frens.. It's so memorable that we all having the "longgokan" durian during that time..




Three happily smiled sisters with smelly durian ^.^

This coming back noticed that all my sister really grow up already. They are quite understanding as compared to the teens now probably due to the need of relying on themselves. They will try to consider family at very 1st. They will try to save money for my mom and wouldn't ask to buy this and that like other kids..

Hair cutting....
Like: the funniest thing is that when i go to a hair saloon with my mum and sister that christmas afternoon from 1pm till 3pm++, all three of us were having hair cutting... My youngest sister complained to me that she never ever wanna go to hair saloon again due to the expensiveness.(Because my elder sister used to cut for her for free de..). Feel quite proud to have her as my sister.. Haha..

Compared to the daughters for the saloon " tau ke nio", they spent their mom just taking for granted as they buy RM150++ just for a white school shoes. Back to the hair cutting, wee had paid RM 49 during that time but it stated that RM5-7 for school or college students and RM8-12 for adults yet....... I never have a such an expensive hair cut before.. Feel being cheated... i told myself that i never go to that saloon again, Kimarie..
"Dan Zhang" of that saloon...

The Christmas Gift
My funny mom so excited to tell me that she get the 1st prize for the lucky draw at a supermarket near my home while she only buying a RM2++ dried mee that nite got "evangelistic night" outside the super there...
Our very 1st Christmas gift at the Christmas eve i told them...
See... she happily holding her hamper... ^.^

During free time this coming back...
Hehe... i managed to make some desserts for them 2...
Red bean soup...

Tan Yuan with peanut inside

Layer kuih....

and my favourite Batik Kek

The christmas time at Sanyan....







And at the end... Flying back to USM...
that time..still feel like dun wan to leave .. a bit down at that time cox knowing many more challenges in my services and studies wait for me... Hope that I can hold tightly Lord and through it...
Good bye my lovely hometown with sweet memories...
Will come back soon for CNY.....

Holiday yet so called on duty (1)....main course

Let me refresh back what have i done in this hometown's Holiday....
Busy yet still very much enjoying in HIS duty...

Children camp, youth camps, Qin Shao Nian sunday service, fellowships, then flight delay, stay 1 more week in hometown with my lovely family, cancelling S'pore trip, Christmas nite then finally Steamboat gathering...

Firstly, Thanks Lord 4 delaying my flight then i spend 1 more week celebrating Christmas 2gether with my family after 2 years...

My hometown church life ^.^

Children camp
Soon after the trip, we have 3 days children camp. I'm been asked to help out as to lead a group for the camp. The title is "When Jesus coming back again..." We keep stressing to the children what will happen when Jesus 2nd time coming back and what they need and do that time. We keep asking them this question:[When Jesus ask :"Why should I letting you come into the gate of Heaven?"]How would u answer? “Because Jesus said:"I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6

Managed to have fun with the children in my SIB church. The children really naive, i still feel sweet when i thought of those memorable pictures --They all so good and close when they score high marks due to their team work in game, and yet "nao pi qi" and blaming each other when loss in a game" No wonder Jesus said let the children come to the front of HIM. Hopefully this camp can have impacts in them and me 2.. The title also refresh me lots that... How i can face Jesus at that time? Have i work hard enough for HIM? Will i regret? Confident enough?
Briefing...
Game time with hoop.. my tiny group... They r so exciting that time^.^
here's group pic....^.^

Qin Shao Nian Sunday Service“基督品牌”
Pastor Lau and Pastor Wong from the left side
I only involved in the choir part for the service. The pastor Lau telling us that our youth nowadays no longer as our forefather age. They doesn't have the words "青少年人" in the past and the word is invented this lately because they only call youth or teens as “青年人” wherelse a teens at around 1900 will know how to navigate a ship to rescue work, a teen at those years becoming a nurse better than an adult and becoming the chief of nurse at teens age, and another 1 able drawing out the map using his topo knowledges. While in this ages, parents seems doesn't have high expectation from their children as long as they score high marks and helping to do some house chores, their parent will be satisfy. This teens nowadays chasing for their nike, addidas latest hair styles, mobile .... He challenged us that what we can bring out as a Christ Brand, What we can show if not that materialistic stuffs only but through inner self as a christian? What the attitudes should we have towards this era？

Youth camp “别小看我” Esther：1-10

After that, following by a 3 days bible study camp more likely. This camp i incharge as a helper in group again, accomodation, and also in the daily meals. And we have the excellent camp leader - pastor Wu, speaker Pastor Wong, game master Jian Xiang, helpers-Xiu Zhi, Mei Qi, Allen n including me.. Hehe^.^

In this camp, i feel more exhausted because of incharging of too many things gua.. Most of the time i rushing here n there to ensure drinking water enough, cooking rice, preparing drinks for meals then rush back to my incharged group when i free. So, really unable to stick with them much.. The 1st day, i almost cry out with the half-cooked rice. N after all, pastor Wong teach the technique in cooking such a huge pot of rice then rice cooked smoothly the next day

(That is the SURELY COOKED RICE = SAME LEVEL OF RICE + SAME LEVEL OF POURING WATER...hehe).

At night, i sleep like a pig probably 2 tired without paying much attention to the gals in the room although i'm d "ah tao"..

Although i have read the Esther almost 4-5, i still not dare to say that i can memorise every elements inside already, so same things to the teens as some maybe only read 1 time. But i'm amazed by my younger sis on how she can memorise quite easily and can be considered good already.

If got chance, i wish i could also join as a camper in such a bible study camp to upgrade my bible knowledge..Saw lots of inadequate for my bible knowledges in this camp.. Regret that unable to equip myself well during my teen's time.... Yet, thanks Lord as 4 me 2 see it as to keep moving on more n more...
Pastor 吴秋梅 ... she's really geng lol.. i reli like bible study conducted by her lol...^.^
Pastor黄光开 A never old hearted pastor, he always join madly even in games with us...

Game master 建翔
秀枝
Youth group- sharing session with them
Game time 数豆豆
Game time- 多手多脚.. c.. they r so called so "united"...
Yeah...group pic...^.^


My Christmas night
During P&W

Cute naughty didi... i witness his growing since his birth.. that year my church got 5-6 babies..|||


Posing...

happy faces^.^
my younger sisters

Fortunately this year i managed to have Christmas celebration in my hometown. I need not to be involved in Christmas event at the beggining because my flight on 20 Dec de.. I told myself to rest a while after all the business from PB till Sibu.. Let them settle it... A fren of mines oso prefer at the beggining not to involved in that drama after 2 camps and a sunday service....

During that time, i see Xiu Zhi and my sis seens helpless arranging 4 drama.. Then, tired yet i feel that Lord have letting me 2 stay 1 more week here then i opt to do something 4 HIM although i also don't have any experiences in conducting a drama, then try to help out things i probably can do, then i try my very 1st time to rewrite again d skrip from an original skrip.

Then, probably due to my that fren's commitment to Lord, in the end he helping out us again to conduct the drama by adding more humurous elements and make it a successful messaging drama.. Joyful and Praise to our Lord!!!

Then, after rearranging characters, i become one of them. Surprisingly, found that 4 out of 6 of the characters holding by 4 siblings of us, my bro as pa, my elder sis as mom, my younger sis n me lo.. another 4 voicing d characters' dialogue n PA effects. Another thanksful to Lord as my family can serve together. Pastor Ling coming back from US also even ask that where is "Nian Mei" since all of us involved already where my Da Mei involved in 2 dances and only she didn't involve. Thanks Lord again that all my family members still can serve Lord faithfully and able to attend services and gathering together. Joyful to Lord!!!

Wanna really thanks for his helps athough he probably may grow more white hair after this (due to overuse of brain... haha...) and all do involving in this drama... He's really briliant in conducting ideas n humurous sense.. "Frenz, reli thanks u all ya.."

Long time our church didn't flourished by so many people liao after the incident. That night i think got 200++people attending. Thanks God!

Finally.....
Steamboat gathering
That time......




FOOD |||||
Guo Xiu & me ^.^

After all, we having big meal only d day b4 i'm leaving on satuday nite, we come as early as 4pm++ as to preparing, washing the ingredients to have big meal and gathering time together.
We didn't have such a huge combination for a long time already. And thanksful to Lord that again we have almost 40 youths including us the young adults joining.. I managed to chat with few youths there. Pastor hope that we can have such a gathering more offen as to foster our relationship...

This coming back home, i saw and exposed more to the insufficient of servers in christ ministry in my own hometown church. As almost all the young adults are the teachers and being posting to the others place then.. seens like church services come harder. As our church now still in the beggining of formation stage, we just can hand over all to Lord to help us and we need to pray harder and harder for the existing condition as nothing much can be done... And, really thanksful to Lord that he has sent us this two loyal and faithful pastors to reform our chhurch here... ^.^

有趣的姐妹。。。

一天下午，有趣的听到我两个妹妹在对话，一个说：“Bi, 我明天要再少团分享圣经人物，啊呀！要分享什么leh？嗨呀！我不知道要分享什么leh。。。帮我想一下mo。。。”
另一个就拿出圣经来，“Haiyo。。。圣经里这样多人物，不可能没有一个你不会讲的吧！”，她就说出了一大堆圣经人物，到最后选了参孙，翻到士师记12章到16章里参孙的故事，就这样简单的读起来，从参孙的出生，与外邦腓力士女子结婚，头上的七条发辫，撕裂狮子，拿尸首的蜜给他父母，，与三个女子一起过，猜谜语，用驴腮骨杀人，到他眼瞎和死为止，后就一下子可以summarise仔仔细细整个故事的内容，把重点整理一下告诉那小的，小的也一下子就可以pick up 整个故事，然后再重复一遍给她听。。。

那时，心情有些复杂，在旁看着她们，有些暗笑着，心里欣慰的是两个妹妹在神话语方面可以如此的同心，小的时候很长看到她们俩常因东西或食物没有公平分配而吵架打架（家里很常好吃的食物都会一下子就完了），还有，在神的话语方面，这样的用心这样的容易吸收。感恩她们从生命堂一路走来从主日学升到少团都有受圣经上的装备，也感谢现任的两位非常非常注重圣经话语的传道人。。

惭愧的是，身为姐姐的，在圣经方面即还没有下足功夫，也许还差她们一载呢，也没有与妹妹们能一起好好的读经，也没能在幼小的年龄，在主日学或少团受足够的装备。记得，那时自己曾经有一段日子在地方召会，也没能固定在主日学及少团。。

感恩妹妹们及全家人都很努力的在跑神的道路。。。

Meeting with old friends... ^.^

Yesterday fortunately able to meet with my close old friends, Ling Sing and Jici in Mana cafe in Sanyan building. They were my secondary school class mates. Jici and me always keep in touch although we were studying in different place, currently she is in Melaka Kuktem while Ling Sing is working currently in Sibu Municipal Council. We had not met for really a long time already.

Thankful to God for this gathering, We were there from 11am++ until almost 4pm. Kinda unbelieveable we still able to talk so much! We tried to catch up for whatever we had missed it before, it's really nice to be able to meet with old friends. It's the 1st time for such a gathering for this semester's holiday.

We chatted about how's everyone of our SES classmates, and "sampat" about everyone's characters, our current lives and situations, who's breaking up, where are them currently, temper of others, fierce experiences when they are being taken over advantages, our family, laughing over the huge changes for the faces in facebook, bla bla bla....

Really memorial moment for what we had go through in secondary.. ^.^
Time paced really fast, everyone of us got to in own situations, different responsibilities, demands, goals, minds, realities, no longer as daddy mummy gals...
Haiz... a bit regretful for forgetting to take a pic before leaving...

盖棺礼。。。

今天从早上到下午，细雨绵绵，听长辈说每逢只要有人过世就会下起雨来，还蛮真的。。。
今天有机会出席了总共两个盖棺礼都由卫理公会牧师主持，而且都在古田公园的mortuary进行。。。
主仿佛也为在地上歇了劳苦的两位忠心的老仆人流下了天上的眼泪。。。
出席者的面容上都多了几分不舍及哀愁特别是家属们，我向他们的家属们紧握手以表示最深的关怀。。。

这也是我第三第四次出席者盖棺礼，回想以前出席时自己是在家属的那个位置，那时是外婆和父亲不在时，那时也一样哭红了眼睛，百般的不舍与自己亲密的家人从此分离，怀念相聚的点滴。。。
所以，此时出席类似的场合时，还是会回顾，心中仍有所感触。。。
如今不知不觉竟已过了好几年，仍感谢神百般的恩待，丰富的恩典及带领。。。

早上出席的是黄乃芳老伯，享年82岁，黄光开传道的父亲（现任家乡教会的主领牧者），黄光赐宣教士也远从他的宣教工厂赶回来，听黄传道说很感恩他临走时没有任何的痛苦或疼痛，在短短的那几个小时里在1/12/09就安息主怀了，他生前非常喜欢把感谢主挂在嘴边，也很爱唱感谢神那首歌。。。
黄传道在那礼仪里分享有关他父亲的点点滴滴时也留下了男儿的眼泪。。。除了家属的子子孙孙，大妹，姐，秀枝和我成了当中最年轻的出席者，也不晓得为何这类型的聚会都很少会看到年轻人。。。

下午三点时出席的是姚锦英姐妹，享年72岁，在7/12/09安息主怀，林瑶珉传道的母亲，在星期日晚上进了医院，庆幸她离开时也一样没有任何疼痛。。。
林传道几年前曾经在家乡教会事奉现在已远嫁他乡并已定居在美国，她昨天才从美国赶回来送他母亲最后一程。。。
同样的，除了家属的子子孙孙，小妹，心绮和我还是当中最年轻的出席者。。。
主持盖棺礼天恩堂的牧师说她26年牧会当中从来没有看过一个人可以为回天家做了这么足的预备，姚锦英姐妹在06年从医生的口中得知患上了末期癌症，只剩下半年的命，她随时随地都在预备被主接回天家，她仍祷告向神说她要用剩下的生命继续荣耀主，甚至很喜乐的过每一天的生活，她也很常在那期间与探访她的人述说并亲手写她生命的见证与人分享，很奇迹的上帝延长了她的生命到三年，她用她一身来荣耀主。，牧师也说她的生命就如保罗说的：

《提摩太后书》4:7-8
那美好的仗我已经打过了；当跑的路我已经跑尽了；所信的道我已经守住了。
从此以后，有公义的冠冕为我存留，就是按著公义审判的主到了那日要赐给我的；不但赐给我，也赐给凡爱慕他显现的人。

姚锦英姐妹的遗体之后也在七点半晚上运到她的家乡老越去以在那里安葬。。。

不知道自己见主面时，能不能像保罗那样，
但愿自己能靠着耶稣继续在奔跑主的路上，坚定持守主的道。。。

Soon coming back....^_^

Wait for me... soon coming back to hometown...
Can't wait to see my lovely mum, all my beloved sisters.....
Miss my family so much...
Lots of plannings came in my mind od....

My elder sister and my Mum ^.^

Going to enjoy my mum meals n most of the time cook for them, making delicacies together, enjoy chatting together, sitting watching drama together, attending church's services n gathering together, mumbling my younger sisters, shopping for home groceries n making best deals together, bla bla bla together....

Going to bring back many different cookies here especially "Xiang Bing", "Tambun Pia ", big big sago here for them too..^.^

Dunno why everytime during this exam fever especially during last few papers...
I'm going to be madly homesick... Can't even wait for it..
Going to have a great time with them again soon... ^_^
Dear Lord, i'm going and able to make it through, through your leading..

no title...

3 kinds of people...

First, u know what you should and you always can do it with your
own determination and heart easily and the outcome is very satisfied.

Second, u know what you should do yet you do it heartedlessly.
Yet, the outcome is very satisfied also...

Third, u know what you should do yet you are really hard to make it because of
hard to control your mind .The outcome is probably how much you putting the effort in and even worst..

I'm that 3rd kind...

Do u guys even having this kinds of experiences?

U do have the energy and time to do things that you want and should do...

Yet, u are doing it out of control, out of your mind ...

You just cannot control your mind to stop to think other irrelevant, rubbish things..

Things just keep flying in although you are shouting:

"Hey! Stop u... rubbish thinking... Stop conquering my mind..."

I just can't stop my mind...

I just want to aim my existing goal and keep it on the right path,

Yet, failed...after many trials... even after many prayers..

It is easy to shout or telling your mind not to bla bla bla...

Yet, it just so hard for me to control my action and mind to set
to the right things that i should do during this period..

No wonder the bible also telling that

Proverbs 4:23 ^

And keep watch over your heart with all care; so you will have life.

箴言 4:23 ^

你 要 保 守 你 心 、 勝 過 保 守 一 切 〔 或 作 你 要 切 切 保 守 你 心 〕 因 為 一 生 的 果 效 、 是 由 心 發 出 。

DearLord，
Please help to watch over my heart and help to put me in the right path...

感谢神！我变哭包了。。。@…。@

这几天的忙忙碌碌，但感谢神我仍然还可以事奉主，花时间关心他人的需要，花时间与人沟通
这一切都不容易呀。。

今天的新职员上任礼，好几次都认都忍不住落泪了,就不经意落泪了。。
分享时差些落泪，祷告时，加上听到“爱，我愿意”那首诗歌，听到契友对我说加油时。。。

当中最主要当然是因为神咯，也许也因最近太忙碌而制成喘不过气的压力吧，比较情绪化。

我变了。。

不是因为人，而是因为神。

从何时开始不轻易落泪的我，变得容易落泪了。。成哭包了。。呵呵
从以前铁打的心，而成为今天晓得关心他人需要了。。
从不会说话的我，晓得有话题也愿意讲话了。。
从觉得没必要与人沟通，成了今天觉得沟通非常重要的。。
从以前不会说祷告词，至今天可以说算是还可以的。。
（不过很长时候还会因为在众人面前说时而紧张，脑袋空白了，忘了所要说的）
从以前常被人说很酷，成了今天被人说成性格很帅。。哈哈
从孤僻的我，成为今天还蛮成群的了。。
从很没自信的我，今天稍微对自己有些信心。。
从不懂得看重神的事工，成今天会为神的事工花心思花时间花心志。。

这一切都很感恩，求神继续带领继续塑造我呀。。。

“他因软弱被钉在十字架上，却因　神的大能仍然活著。我们也是这样同他软弱，但因　神向你们所显的大能，也必与他同活。 ”哥林多后书13:4

“他对我说：“我的恩典够你用的，因为我的能力是在人的软弱上显得完全。”所以，我更喜欢夸自己的软弱，好叫基督的能力覆庇我。 ”哥林多后书12:9

每次听到这首歌都有所感触。。

爱，我愿意

十字架上的光芒   温柔又慈祥
带着主爱的力量   向着我照亮
我的心不再隐藏   完全地摆上
愿主爱来浇灌我   在爱中得自由释放

我愿意降服   我愿意降服
在你爱的怀抱中   我愿意降服
你是我的主   你是我的主
永远在你怀抱中
你是我   你是我的主

I wanna complain loudly...

Hardly to withstand wanna complain ...

Too many things come together at one time now....
Committee Selection, Assignments, designs, tests, servicing purposes, worrying friends' stuff pro, self unmanageable...

All come at a time... unbreatheable...
talk about many topics ... busy talking d different need in fellowship, friends..............
making me unable to explain and think things normally...
talk very unrationally......

Exhausted to think things ... doing works very inefficiently....

Stressful... yet still can have so many topics to think of and talk....

Wanna get out of all these...
Going to a isolated room only me and God...

Doesn't to care so much due to responsibility liao...Just doesn't want to care so much d...

Many time our mind filled by our strong knowledge, strong concept, and trying hard to analysis through our own ways...

Is that our strong concept govern us or the important is HE is governing us now?

For me, it no longer important already as it's enough if it is the decision come from Lord...
As the main character is HIM , not us , we just as his tube to pass through things and his container as to fill HIS....

十字架第一个功课叫你不讲理！！（Adapted...）

「你们听见有话说：以眼还眼，以牙还牙。只是我告诉你们，不要与恶人作对。有人打你的右脸，连左脸也转过来由他打；有人想要告你，要拿你的里衣，连外衣也由他 拿去；有人强逼你走一里路，你就同他走二里；有求你的，就给他；有向你借贷的，不可推辞。你们听见有话说：当爱你的邻舍，恨你的仇敌。只是我告诉你们，要 爱你们的仇敌，为那逼迫你们的祷告。这样，就可以作你们天父的儿子；因为他叫日头照好人，也照歹人；降雨给义人，也给不义的人。你们若单爱那爱你们的人， 有甚么赏赐呢？就是税史不也是这样行吗？你们若单请你弟兄的安，比人有甚么长处呢？就是外邦人不也是这样行吗？所以，你们要完全，像你们的天父完全一 样。」

你们必须在神面前学习不讲理。十字架的第一个功课，就是教我们不讲理。

左臉、外衣、二里路是主的要求】但是，弟兄姊妹，讓我頂直的告訴你們說，是主說打左臉。那一個人是說打右臉，他是只要打一邊，就很快樂的回去了。但是主說，要打左臉。按法 官的審斷，裏衣就已經滿足了。是主說，要給他外衣。他只是勉強你走一里路，沒有要你走第二里。是主勉強你走第二里。請你們記得，第二里路、外衣、左臉，乃 是主的要求，不是人的要求。凡是第二件衣服、第二邊臉、第二里路出事情的，是和主出事情，不是和人出事情。因為是主要求你的，人沒有要求你。

你 如果要說，那一個人沒有理，請你記得，主才是沒有理的。如果第一件衣服是沒有理，第二件衣服就更沒有理。如果第一面的臉不應該打，第二面的臉就更不該打。 如果第一里路沒有道理，第二里路就更沒有道理。但是，第二是主的要求，是主的命令。所以，主的命令，比那一個無理的人還要厲害。沒有一個無理的人。比主的 命令更厲害。主的命令最厲害。因為甚麼？主知道祂所給我們的生命，是超越的生命。那一個生命，不超越就不舒服。那一個生命，不超越就不快樂。那一個生命是 超越的生命。你越把他弄到為難的地步，越是羞辱，越是損失，越是難，越顯出他的能力。

【打右脸是羞辱的意思】在这里，再把这三件事稍微解释一下。打脸是羞辱的意思。中国人是这样，犹太人是这样，当时罗马人也是这样。罗马人当时有许多的书，有许多文学的记载，说到有许多罗马的奴隶，宁可给主人杀死，不愿意给主人打耳光。杀死还可以忍受，打耳光不能受。所以打人的脸，在当时是羞辱，是极端的羞辱，是最大的羞辱，这就是打脸的意思。

【拿里衣是摸着财产最深的地方】衣服，乃是人的东西中最合法的。因为人所有的东西，难得有像衣服这样合法的。因为这是非穿不可的。人就是顶贫穷，里衣还得穿，外衣还得穿。人就是顶拒绝物质的享受，还应当穿里衣，还应当穿外衣，这是非常合法的要求。今天在这里，有人不是要拿你的家产，不是要拿你的田地，他是要拿你的里衣。这是摸着人财产最深的地方，因为这是最合法的地方。可是人要拿里衣，是要把外衣脱下来，才能拿里衣，这是摸着我财产最深处。打脸如果是羞辱，拿里衣就是指着人财产最深的地方。

【勉强走一里是意志上受伤】至于勉强人走路，这是要特别注意在勉强上，这是意志的问题。我不走这条路，我不去这个地方，你勉强我，这是意志上的受伤。我们把自己压下走这条路，这是意志上的受伤。

所以，在这里，我愿意你们注意这件事。人要我的里衣，我连外衣都给他。人勉强我走一里路，我就对他说，我陪你走第二里路。人打我们的右脸，我们转过左脸来由他打。这是显明说，右脸没有摸着我们，里衣没有摸着我们，第一里路也没有摸着我们。所以我说，这一个反应是超越的。如果我右脸已经有感觉，我左脸就不会给他打。第一里已经忍不住了，我就不能走二里了。所以，所有的问题，是在这里的反应如何？

我们基督徒，是被拯救脱离羞辱和荣耀的感觉，脱离财物所有权的感觉，也是被拯救脱离我们自己的意志。当你在神面前是这样的被拯救，被拯救到一个地步，超越过脸面的问题，超越过财物的问题，超越过你的意志的问题。当你自己是这样超越这一切的时候，这些东西就摸不着你。我告诉你们说，你能够走第二里路。你如果被这些东西一摸着，你就没有法子在那里走第二里路。

你们必须在神面前学习不讲理。十字架的第一个功课，就是教我们不讲理。我相信在我们中间，没有弟兄姊妹会低到一个地步，会堕落到一个地步，作那一个报仇的人。所以，我根本不提起那一个以牙还牙，以眼还眼的反应。报仇，是一个可能的反应。我刚才说四个反应，不过我们只讲三个反应。我相信在我们中间没有弟兄姊妹到一个地步，是律法的地步，你打我的眼，我也打你的眼。我不相信，在神的儿女中，人能够堕落到一个地步，有报复的反应。因此，我们把它放在一边。

但是，我怕有许多人在那里讲理，讲公义。「你不应该打我。」你在那里讲理。请你们记得，一个人，一按着理由和人讲话，你就看见说，这一个人被事情摸着了。主的反应，主所给我们看见的反应，是当人没有理由的坏的时候，我能够没有理由的好好的对待他。他不讲理的恶待我，我也能不讲理的好待他。我告诉你们，第一里路，绝没有道理，第二里路也绝没有道理，两个都是一样的没有道理。打右脸，是岂有此理的打，打左脸也是岂有此理的叫人打。人拿我们的里衣，是绝没有道理的。我们给他外衣，也是绝没有道理的。你们看见，基督徒不讲理，他们是没有道理的坏，我们是没有道理的好。

基 督徒就是這樣，不只是在那裏不生氣，也不只是勉強忍耐，乃是說超越過一切。你要勉強我走一里路，我就給你第二里。你要拿我一件衣服，我就給你第二件。你要 打我的右臉，你羞辱我到極點，我就給你再打左臉。弟兄們，那一個生命，是超越的，是爬得高的。這一個就是我們信徒的生命。如果不是這樣，你就看見說，這一 件事是不行，就不像是基督徒所作的事。

2nd Malim Nawar Mission Trip...

Everyone has the different definition and own requirements for Mission Trip. Thus, they aimed differently. For me, i still unable or haven't reach the level of i feel that i'm more likely to demand certain specified greater task for mission trip. For me, for every work we go out to pass the message of Jesus Christ is the true saviour is the missionary. For others, of course just go ahead...

This is the second time for me to join this Malim Nawar Mission Trip which is near Kampar or rather call it Children' Camp。

Our duty same again which is passing the stories of Jesus to them.. This time we didn't having much activities in Kampar but rather in the Malim Nawar church.. Thus, probably unable to see much the needs around that areas.... Of course, there are a few things happening along the trip including joyful and unhappy things.. Thankfully, because of the love of Lord we are willing to humble ourself...

Seems like having no that "extra extra" passion for Lord...
I seems like unable to see what the new things Lord wanted me to see. Or other words, my heart seems like cold or already "used to be"or still in waiting mode...

What have i experienced for this time's mission?
The first day was quite smooth and i keep stressing up the message of Lord to bring up to children there.

And the second day, i experienced the some real difficulties... Because of
Surely i'm not praying that hard during that time..
Surely i didn't prepare well during that leading time..
Surely i'm encountering it with "normal temperature" for heart...

I agreed with my friends that sometime i'm just so hotheaded like a “无头苍蝇” aimlessly without putting my target 1st only then doing things...
Surely i'm also like that during that time....

Thanksfully, i noticed that i'm able to talk with people of various ages from children, teenagers, aunties till old folks.

Children.. want to be sayang"ed"...
Teenagers.. want to be acceptable, to be cared...
Old folks.. want someone to listen to them, to be cared...

Children there lack of parental love, teenagers there do not aim to enter a universities or probably aimless..

Two out of three of old folks i talk to are single.. they keep saying that they are lonely are helpless sometime..
One single grandpa broken his leg in an accident and fortunately having no financial problem cox his relatives will give him yet he complainted that he is lonely..
Another single grandmom told me that she being beat up by her younger sisters sometimes yet she dunno whose to refer..
And the most fortunate one among the three are having children and grandkids together...

But in this mission, i do see the teamworks in the people of Lord in order to build a great puzzled picture for Lord.. That what i admire this time..

Pastor..
Really careful in doing works and keep guiding us..
Try to reminding us the Do n Don't along the camp so that works are perfect...

Hui Yung Jie, a great caring, knowing needs auntie in the team
She's really great yet she keep stressed that she didn't help much...
Thanks Lord for We have the very nice conversations...
She' taking good care of everyone of us...
A mother that really know the needs of her only daughter...
A mother that having the passion for Lord...
A joyful mother...
How i wish my mom could add up some gd elements but of course my mom is excellent ...

Xin Mei n Lon yan
great leader, guitarist and story teller...
Lon yan... like what u say everyone has their own doing works pattern..
Thus, we opt to try our best to respect lo then try to appreciate their good things and not counting probably not the unsatisfied things.

Chai yun
Bravo... handling children, many more talented skills...
Can see the passion of Lord from her then shining her life for others...

Siaw ping..
Thanksfully 4 really talented in the sense of art
I will never be able to paint that....

Guo shun
Bravo...You are really "用心" when u are assigned with a duty...
Yet... the important is the relationship with Lord beyond others 1st..

De lu
Hope that he will keep the passion for Lord...
Keep it up... Bro..

Nelly...
good camera woman and great helper...
Open up ur heart then U ll see u're flourished in the Lord

All the 1st yr junior,
you all are really great....
They try their best to mix with the children there and they make it...yeah
They try their best to contribute in this team to be helper...
Hope that the passion in their heart this time will keep them to shine in the path of Lord...

Probably this is what Lord want me to see and learn gua...

Ev

长阔高深的大爱

有一天国王来到监狱，见到一个被处死刑的女囚犯，就怜悯她，付上极大代价将她救出来，给她衣服、食物，眷顾她多方面 的需要。这样的宏恩厚爱，已教那女子感激不尽。若国王对那女子说要拣选她为自己心爱的配偶，对那女子来说，岂不是如在梦中吗？她是一个满身罪污的人，一个 被人唾弃的死囚，不但蒙了拯救，还被选为国王的配偶，成为他骨中之骨、肉中之肉。这样的爱情，实在超乎我们的知识所能明白和形容的。主耶稣基督就是这样爱 祂的教会，爱祂的众圣徒。

我们原是罪人中的罪魁，在神的愤怒下是被判死刑的，但我们能逃避一死，乃因基督爱我们，为我们舍己，且爱我们到底。 不但如此，祂更是拣选所有蒙救赎的儿女那日成为心意中所爱的新妇。这种爱太伟大了，是过于人所能明白的，难怪保罗为此在父神面前屈膝，求神开启众圣徒心中 的眼睛，能以明白基督的爱是何等长阔高深，并知道这爱是过于人所能测度的，然后他说：“但愿祂在教会中，并在基督耶稣里，得着荣耀，直到世世代代、永永远 远，阿们。”（弗三21）

神这个更高的心意一定要得着，祂从一班不配被爱的人身上，借着耶稣基督的恩典，使他们蒙救赎、得怜爱。神又照着所运行在圣徒心里 的大能，充充足足的成就，超过我们所求所想的，就是使所有蒙救赎的人在新耶路撒冷成为一个新人──基督的新妇，就是所有圣徒不但灵魂得救而已， 还要成为宇宙中蒙救赎的族类，成为基督的新妇。因羔羊的救赎而没有瑕疪、没有斑点、没有皱纹，为要许配给基督。这就是救赎所要达到的最终目的。

自以为是。。。

4/9

人自被神创造以来，就是看不到自己的，而只是能够看待周围的人事物。
可是，人偏偏常常顾虑最多的就是自己，
而对周遭的事常常漠不关心，自以为是，
常常为自己的利益而直接或不直接的伤到他人甚至神。
常常关心人，为他人的需要代求是何等难的一件事啊

人往往将主权紧握在自己的手上，而无心听取或麻木与他人的意见/劝告
永远自以为是，以自己为中心，自己都是对的，
时常，连最亲密的祂也不听，也不理了，
麻木，沉醉在自我的世界当中，
继续的堕落，继续的原地转动，打滚，
怎样的努力也无力爬出那个陷阱，那一个无底洞。

旁人也总是无心助你一臂之力，不屑的表情，
任你在那里徘徊，不停的自我旋转，

而你，却也无力，
怎样也无法让自己的身体听使唤，停止转动，
就像车失去控制，疯狂地往山崖冲下

而你，最希望的，就是时间可以冻结，
让你不再不停转动，奇迹出现，把你拖住

而虽然肯定那奇迹一定是神
但却似乎，很现实，那奇迹就是没有发生
处在服与不服之间。

ye。。。单独行程

29/8

觉得自己昨天还蛮“geng” 的，一个人就像Penny那首歌“看见听见”
我开着车　车窗摇下左边 边听着歌。。。
但，
我开着Yamaha１００ 单车不停地晃 边看路景。。。

一个人从大概中午时从campus骑到Taiping for my dentist appointment..
路途中，我跨过死狗，死猫，死四脚蛇，吓到我。。。
更重要的是我阿爸天父一路来都看顾我，与我同在，让我完成这个人探险。
我想大家都应该有这种感觉吧。
每一次的起程总觉得非常的久，而回程却只是好像一下子罢了。

Erm。。感觉还蛮刺激的。。
又突破个人的一点小站。。
还好那一天，祂很赐福我，整天的天气得很好，只有偶尔有毛毛雨。
虽然是一个人去，感觉有些孤单，缺少了讲话的对象，
但还是有那个"大力的"陪我，
对祂的信心又增添了，谢谢祂。。

那天，拿着Ah Peng给我draf 的map 就浩浩荡荡的出发了。。
Meet过 了dentist，买了些公仔饼，之后就经过Taiping Central 。

停了下来享用久久没有光顾的McD先生。。
Order了 1 set Fillet Fish-o套餐，虽然觉得有些贵（因为已过了3pm，没有McValue时光了），但还是满足了肚子的欲望， hehe。。

Then, 到Tesco逛逛之后就启程回campus了
过往，若是坐巴士，就单单来回车程就需要花了大概4个钟，但昨天来回只花了2个钟，当然需要++个人的非常精力，到campus时，已经是6点多了，出于筋疲力尽的状况，

所以咯，抱歉了团契。。

hehe。。以下与大家分享一首我纯粹蛮喜欢听的歌。。。

看见听见

演唱：戴佩妮

我开着车　车窗摇下左边 边听着歌　
歌浮现谁的脸 脸躺着泪　泪滑落他的嘴 嘴角的话　
话说的有多美 美丽的花　花开了多少回 回家的路　
路究竟有多远 远方的灯　灯刺伤了双眼 眼睛里面　
面目全非的视线

I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing But only the love god gives me is something
I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing but you

你让我清楚的看见 星星在夜里的善变
恋人们脸上的终点 写满了欺骗　编织着永远　
也辜负了永远 我开着车　车窗摇下左边 边听着歌　
歌浮现谁的脸 脸躺着泪　泪滑落他的嘴 嘴角的话　
话说的有多美 美丽的花　花开了多少回 回家的路　
路究竟有多远 远方的灯　灯刺伤了双眼 眼睛里面　
面目全非的视线

I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing But only the love god gives me is something
I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing but you

你让我清楚的看见 星星在夜里的善变 恋人们脸上的终点
写满了欺骗　编织着永远　也辜负了永远 我听见
流言在纷飞的蔓延 你手着握着的誓言
灯火的侧面 编织着诺言 又成全了敷衍
什麽时候我才能看见 你真挚的表演
什麽时候你才能听见 我幸福的残缺

我看见 星星在夜里的善变 恋人们脸上的终点 写满了欺骗　
编织着永远　也辜负了永远 我听见
流言在纷飞的蔓延 你手着握着的誓言 灯火的侧面
编织着诺言 又成全了敷衍
我看见 我听见 我看见 我听见
我看见了幸福 也听见了幸福的残缺

An article to share with all.,..^.^

Adapted from a blog....

现 代的人实在很忙，学生忙读书、孩子的课本愈来愈重，考试也愈来愈多，上班族也忙著工作，有人不只一份工作，为了生活的需要，有时候还必须把工作拿回家做； 家庭主妇也忙著孩子、先生、家事…等等，我们好像都很忙。现在的社会，因为经济压力，因为房贷、儿女的教育基金，在这种重重的压力之下，一个家庭必须要有 双薪，夫妻二个人不得已都必须工作。这样说来，大家实在都很忙。这一刻，下一刻，大家都安排了许多事。我们看到弟兄姐妹身体软弱的很多，家庭有难处也多， 灵性的需求，常常有心关怀，但能力、时间都有限。忙是好事，因为人本来就得忙，这个忙并不是现代人的写照，从亚当的时代起，就是如此。在创世记3：19， 上帝给亚当一个生命模式，就是「你必汗流满面才得糊口。」从以前到现在，我们确实是活在一种忙碌的生活中。

我们回到耶稣的时代，我们从圣经里的记载看见，耶稣在当时也是十分的忙碌，单单从马可福音中，我们可以找出几段经文显示耶稣的忙碌情形：可3：20 「耶稣进了一个屋子，众人又聚集，甚至他连饭也顾不得吃。」可6：30-31「使徒聚集到耶稣那裏，将一切所做的事、所传的道，全告诉他。他就说，你们 来，同我暗暗的到旷野地方去歇一歇。这是因为来往的人多，他们连吃饭也没有工夫。」我们从可1：33记载，看见耶稣忙到一种程度，甚至是合城的人都来找耶 稣。据考察当时迦百农的人口，差不多是二、叁千人，如果是合城的人来找耶稣，以二千人计算，耶稣对每个人用一分钟，祂大概用了叁十多小时。这样的服事是相 当的可观。所以，今天我们忙碌，那是一件正常的事。但是，要找到重新得力的方法。主听门徒述说他们所作的事以後，如何表示呢？祂说：「你们来，同我暗暗的 到旷野地方去歇一歇。」主这样作，是使他们得安息。到旷野地方去：耶稣找了一个没有人打扰的地方，祂可以好好安静，这裏主耶稣告诉我们退到旷野的目的：就 是使那些疲累困倦得到休息。当面对危机时要等候神，直到我们在主裏找到安息之处。

我们可以如何找到安息之处来亲近神呢？

1.要用祷告来亲近神。太6：6「你祷告的时候，要进你的内屋，关上门，祷告你在暗中的父；你父在暗中察看，必然报答你。」要进入「内屋」，一个 亲近神的地方，「关上门」，不容外面的事物来影响我们与神的交通。弟兄姊妹，你要找一个地方、找一个空间，这是非常重要的，可能是你的房间、一个角落，或 是公司的会议室，你必须要找一个地方。如果你没有这样地方，你也许可以考虑来教会祷告。

2.要用神的话来亲近神。来4：10-13「因为那进入安息的，乃是歇了自己的工，正如神歇了他的工一样。所以，我们务必竭力进入那安息，免得有人 学那不信从的样子跌倒了。神的道是活泼的，是有功效的，比一切两刃的剑更快，甚至魂与灵，骨节与骨髓，都能刺入、剖开，连心中的思念和主意都能辨明。并且 被造的没有一样在他面前不显然的；原来万物在那与我们有关係的主眼前，都是赤露敞开的。」希伯来书3-4章中讲到以色列人无法进入安息的原因是不信，纵使 他们进入迦南地仍未享受真正的安息，然而神为我们预备另一个安息日安息，乃是信主耶稣，就得享安息。经文後面接著是要透过神的道来建造我们的生命，使我们 在神的面前检视我们的生命，好使我们更像我们的主。我们也可以与上帝有更深在灵裏的交通与分享。

3.要用默想来亲近神。诗119：148「我趁夜更未换将眼睁开，为要思想你的话语。」这节经文提到他在夜间思想神的话，「思想」也可译成默想，我 们默想不是放空自己，而是专注在神的身上，祂成为我们思想的中心。你每天可以向神求一句话，来供应你生命中一切的需要。退到旷野不是无事可作，而是再一次 的重新得力。

今天神也邀请你与祂一同退到旷野歇一歇。祂是说：「你们来，同我暗暗的到旷野地方去歇一歇。」主的同在要使他们得著甜美的安息，也要使他们重新得力。我们的主乐意听我们悲伤的事，也乐意听我们喜乐的事。祂是我们可以把任何事都告诉祂的主，我们既有这样的主，何不把我们内心所有的隐情都来告诉祂。祂正在等待你，现在就来吧！

Just after a rush storming week...

This week is really a rush, busy week for me especially on thursday... Yet, i'm able to steal some time to blogging.. hehe..

What have i done this week? handling two assignments, 1 test, lab reports, karate....two church's services as pianist, having dinner with cell group, prayer nite, attending convocation, mission commitee meeting....

For that thursday, i wake up as early as 7am++ to study for test... then attend classes and a test started from 9am till 1pm and having lab in the afternoon till 6pm.. Then, having cell group dinner at 7pm then rushed to church practicing piano at 7.45pm then having prayer started at 8pm... Then coming back to campus almost 11pm... tidying then and making card till 12pm ++ then sleep till 2am++ then woke up to rush assignment needed to hand in the next day till almost 6am in the morning. Woke up late at 8.05am and being late for lecture start 8.15am and only manage to reach there by almost 8.30am..

Reli rush hur? But, feel thanksful to Lord that the rushing is over in the leading of HIM and i'm still well and fit in this ill season... Thx , Lord....

“耶和华是我的牧者，我必不止缺乏”

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

诗篇Psalms 23：1

Senior's convocation...

I made it by my own o...
Yesterday, we went to seniors' convocation with pastor at the USM main campus there after class. Finally, i went for a convocation for the very 1st time and we enjoyed a fun time together... Wanna wish and shouted to all the graduated seniors "Happy Convocation, Congratulation!", "Thank U all of U" .Wish that all will keep shinning in the light of Jesus Christ.. Well done and keep it up !!! Wish that all will come upon to their dream career soon and walking the path of christ... Gambateh!!! They worked so hard just for the coming of this day...

My adik wei kim and my graduated abang Kar Kin...
Hendrix and Jacob... they always treat and fool me as well, also learned lots things through them... THx ^.^

John-john... a great senior that excellent in great caring and serve faithfully....THx john-john!!
Annie... a leader and always putting her smile on, helping lots and also faithful server for Lord...thX annie

A bit regretful bcos we unable to the full pic with all the fellowship members and with all the graduateds...
And now we as the "mao pai" character in the convo... me, Hooi keng and Grace
and including Nelly also...^.^


Then, we went "mum mum" at Seoul Gardern in Auto City before going back.. Eat till my stomach almost burst |||
My own created ice-cream dessert... yummy ^.^
Steamboat + BBQ terrifying meal |||

And finally happy Nelly...