Thursday, November 25, 2010

Bat....



Some bats eat insects, some bats eat fruits, some suck blood to survive,, it's a mammalia...
Unfortunately, this type of bat sucking for blood..
This bat grew physically but definitely not mentally...

It's an adult physically, yet still behave and act like a baby needing a nanny to take care of its everything from food, wingfit, shelf and moving..
It never struggle to get food yet still need feeding from his mama though it's mature enough to move freely to search for food..
Just sucking blood daily from its own type... making em thin n thinner

It never want to leave it's comfort shelf....
It never think for others...
It never wanna feeding for it's mama nor for it's types...
It never know how small is it's world..
It just want to live selfishly in it's own shelf by taking advantages over others..
It just wait to be fed rather than to feeding...

It just hide beneath it's mama once chaos came
Then all came to tackle em...
It just take for granted indeed..

It just so angry when others do touch it's "wings"...
Yet, it never realise that it touch others everytime indeed ...
Or it simply just so so selfish..
It lives in it's cowardly world without wanna stepping out...
Or it simply just so so lazy for..

It never think of what it will be if without it's mama n others...
It just a pity bat cannot fly and survive by it's own even with wings grew

Aiks。。。This bat is bad...
It just like a vampire live in the night sucking for blood from others!

Can just give it a hit to make it awake?

Monday, November 15, 2010

" I did it all right "



A movie "Million Dollar Baby".
..
After my nightmares of terrible finals,
though got enjoyed drama and movie in my room usually..

but
it been long 4 me enjoying such a really meaningful movie cox nowadays the movies made only for selling points and in really low Q, not worth...

watched a movie " Million Dollar Baby", it's quite an old movie downloaded from USM sharers..^^ It's about the characters inside of Frankie, Mr Scrap and Maggie.
it's neither comedy nor a romantic story, indeed..
it's an rather an action, boxing or a girl fighter, a relationship valued story
it didn't end with a perfect happily ending, rather a sad ending..
but i found it somehow a really messaging and meaningful.

The story comes with a 31 yrs girl (i rather called her girl than woman), Maggie or Mary M found her new aim in life after working as a waitress for almost 10++ yrs, where she needs to serve her family since her mom is a widow and she really loved her and family...

Then she met Frankie, an experienced boxer's trainer which do not train girl...
She insisted Frankie to train her.. Somehow, he also accepted her as from her persistance spirit of not knowing the term "giving up"

Then, start the girl's training and fighting days from little little her and becoming somebody.
The girl doesn't care so much about her needs but rather care about her family. She is most enjoying her young moments rather with her daddy..

A scene where she worked so hard, then earning enough as a fighter then she is so excited to show her mom her gift with Frankie - a house but she is disappointed in the return as her mom didn't appreciate her hard works at all, but rather end up with lots of complaints, worrying welfare things, maintenances and so on..

It made me thought of whether am i used to complaints like the old mom too much when i was given with a gift and provided sufficiently daily instead? Then making others been hurted and self as well?

The story goes on to it's climax where she met a champion competition with the opponent of world champion "Blue Billy", famous with a dirty records.. Maggie didn't work out as a champion this time and she been knocked down and lied in the hospital the rest of her time ..

Another scene in the hospital..
She blaming herself instead for didn't follow the leason that Frankie used to emphasis to her and talked like just to himself "Protecting urself everytime". She said," I shouldn't drop down my hand, i should have turn back" there on the bed...

But.. now it's just too late..
Sometime, it just too late the moments for us to regret for what we done.. Maggie didn't blame her opponent "Billy" not even a word but instead herself...
Am i used to blame other at the 1st place when things goes so wrong? But it rather our action lead to responsibility in many times?

Then.. Frankie continued to take care of comma Maggie in the hospital endlessly... Frankie never give up Maggie life but Maggie give up this time requesting Frankie to end her life. Since Frankie refused, she did in her own ways now trying to end her life bitting her tongue.

When Frankie in the deep regret and blaming himself for shouldn't have trained Maggie at the very 1st place.. The very wise character, old blackie man, Mr Scrap used to tell Frankie that "People washing dish and mopping floor, at the end of the day, they died" and said "i never get the shot"
"I did it all right" should be instead. Frankie provided Maggie her shot.

Am i knowing and getting my real "shot" in life?

Then... Frankie return to the hospital and end her life by injecting adrenaline..

Confliction of religion here too:
When a comma person insist to end life (commiting suicide) but not with her own ability, but requesting others to do so, or rather been killed by another person under her own permission,
is that the sin of "killing" is belonged to that person (Frankie) when meeting with heavenly father in the end of the days?

Of course, i strongly do not agree the act of killing one's and commit suicide in the story.
Since killing ourself meaning killing HIM for me since our body is now HIS temple..
and JESUS said:" I am the resurrection and life". No one have right taking life now...

I hope that "i did it all alright" for all my decisions instead cos every1 should be responsible for what we done instead... I hoped that one day when i met HIM at the gate, i can proudly said," I did it all right."
Pure mindset or motive leads to decisions, decision leads to action, then actions leads to wrongful and right of an event.. it's a cyclic process^^

And what i liked about the following quotes in the dialogues:
"Tough ain't enough"
"Sometime there's nothing that u can do"
"But stepping too far, u ain't fight at all"
"Anybody can loss one fight"

放话以先。。。

很多事,
尤其那属自己本身所舒适的,
害怕被人侵袭,

就会先前,
大声放话以先,
这番话或许有些难听,
但,还是毫不犹豫,咬紧牙根,绝情地放话了,
越是难听,
越可以吓一吓,

就好像,安置一颗地雷在地上,
当对方前往而来时,踩到了,
就会震一震,
犹豫了,原地就步,不敢乱动
不能往前一步,
也不敢再进攻了,

因。。
你也毫无意无力出属于自己的安全堡垒,
仍稳稳地住在里面,
继续无需想或顾虑太多,
安稳地尽守你的本分,
做本来负重担在身上的使命...

Friday, November 12, 2010

一首非常好的詩-孩子

黎巴嫩詩人紀伯倫有一首非常好的詩:

你的孩子不是你的孩子,他們是生命自己的孩子。

他們透過你來到這個世界,他們卻不屬於你。

你可以給他們你的愛,卻不能給他們你的思想,

因為他們有他們自己的思想。

你可以提供他們身體的住屋,卻不能替他們的靈魂找房子,

因為他們的靈魂住在明日之屋,那是你即使在夢中也無法到達的地方。

你可以努力像他們一樣,但是千萬不要使他們像你一樣,

因為生命是無法逆轉的,更不能被昨日的你所耽擱。



P/s:重要的属神的孩子最蒙爱的^^ 。。。

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

=.=

就像恋爱
当你接受对方成为男/女朋友的同时
他/她与你的关系从此就变为更亲密了吧
在生活中也少不了他/她的存在了吧

难道你还是会一样像以往这么洒脱的,我行我素,活出一向来的风范吗?
难道你还是会霸住自己的那专属时间吗
还是愿意,腾出多一些自己的时间,成为二人时间
彼此迁就,彼此割舍所爱,与他/她同甘共患
活出的并不再是以前的自己,而是努力为现在的双方而活出。。

这也就是委身了吧。。。

对于基督的爱,也不是该如此吗?

“我已经与基督同钉十字架,现在活着的,不再是我,乃是基督在我里面活着;并且我如今在肉身活着,是因信神的儿子而活,他是爱我,为我舍己”(加二20)

还是,

每当愿意的时候,很空闲时,就来理一下祂。。
忙的时候,就对祂say sorry说:
“对不起,考试了,我很忙,袮给我多些时间,我要享受一下我自己忙碌的时间,这个时间没办法给袮!”

嘴巴却是理所当然,甚至还理直气壮地说:“总的来说,我知道自己对谁负责就行了。。”

而明显地,
那行动都已表露出你那不愿意忠于的那心态了吧!

难道当他/她有需要的时候,
你会对他/她说:
“你hold 住下先,等我忙完再来找你哟。。。”
(还是会放下你手头上的事务先?)

你的优先次序也在此表露了吧。。。

若是男女关系像酱子,肯定没有办法持久吧,
更何况你与那亲密的祂呢?

更无奈的是,
在不愿意付出的情况下,也少于花那时间精力一同经营,
开始下定论,说被忽略等。。
关系的建立,显然的并不是单方面的,而是双方面才会建立那互动。。

当然,

仍然承认自己还是太不足,无法做到弥美状态
愿神怜悯,补足那缺乏不足的地方。。。

林前十五58
所以,我亲爱的弟兄们,你们务要坚固,不可摇动,常常竭力多做主工,因为知道你们的劳苦,在主里面不是徒然的。