A believer or a disciple?

Today, been listening to the strong preaching in the service...

pastor lau say it's always easy to be a believer than a disciple..

ya... i admitted that 2..

a believer that's so passive to share our religion to others and always like our comfort zone without further steping out to share god's good things around...

ya.. it's easy for just to believe and hard to practice things out...
even the 12 disciples of Jesus with HIM more than 3 and a half yrs also doubted and hesistated..

He further saying that we always stressed on the matthew phase 28:19-20, the last 2 verse and ignoring the verse 18...

Indeed, verse 18 is also as important as the other 2...

We are going out because Jesus is give us the powerful authority already to the crowds not without anything to say HIS msg...

Stressed again... HE is giving us all the authority in heaven and on earth, HE is with us to go out, not alone... without HIS authority, we're nothing,n i wonder how should we reach to the ppl...
HE is commanding us....
without the missionary ministries, a church not called a church...

16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go.
17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted.
18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.
19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Questioning:
为什么我们传福音需要力量？
因我们的仇敌不是一般的，乃是魔鬼的权柄，不是属血气的乃是被捆绑的，
神赐给我们权柄去与他们对抗。

n i ever a qualified christian after having my faith for such a long time more than 10 yrs? believer or disciple???

Has i fully use my heart as to be more like him facing or doing whatever things in my life so far?

And i really loving the ppl caring the salvation of the ppl around me?

Do i appreciate every moment lord giving me as to share HIS msg to the ppl i deal with daily?

Have i been really courage enough as fully taking up HIS cross and follow his footprints??

If i really love HIM, do i really offering all i have to him? How much time, energy, money i can have for him and even for the priority of lord comes 1st b4 my family?

indeed, i admitted that i still have a long way to go n in the "loading" process..
definitely i need to work much much harder...
May lord forgive me and giving me strength...