Homesick season..>w<

This few days I really feel homesick especially during this CNY celebration. I can’t even concentrate in lectures and doing things well. I really wanted to celebrate together with my family in Sibu eagerly. Early in the morning, I on my laptop and started to access to the flight pages to check available cheap flight during the festival after my first opening of eyes. Yet, I failed to do so...

Haiz… feeling rather sad.I could only blamed and regreted for not booking the flight earlier and now its' price already been rose so highly. All of these are going to point back to that “sucking blood” flight company—MXX and Axx Axxx. They have to take these festivals’ advantages in order to a earn a fortune so they raise the flight’s fare so “irrationally”. They should consider that those the undergraduates like me from oversea (South China Sea >o<), Sarawak which is studying in Penang will be unaffordable to pay the costly flight during festival since we just take ptptn or a tightly spendable scholarship and mostly not come from rich family.

Another thing, i noticed that whatever flights to Sibu always more expensive than to the other places and I just don’t know why it is so. It costs us 1000++ for a trip from Penang to my hometown for just a week time. Come on, the money definitely can be used maybe for almost one and a half months of life expenses as a student. I wonder there must be a lot of students like me. They must have been sobbing quietly and thinking of their family so much during the festival.

I plan to write to Axx Axxx blog there in some days to share my feeling of being unable to go back during festival and maybe this is how the others feel too. Why don’t they give some special offers to the unaffordable undergraduates so that they will be able to be with their family during this lovely festival. Isn’t it helping those who are in needing is a blessed deeds? They will feel satisfy and happy too in doing so, right? I think I has thought too much, it kinds like an “impossible missions”. Maybe I’m just so sick of home.

When the CNY song being heard, it’s rather sad because it keeps reminding me that I’m unable to go home to be with my family. And, people might think that I don’t miss my family at all. They wouldn’t be able to know my complicated feelings since they don’t know me. But, as long as I clearly know what I really think of and could do for my family sincerely, that’s enough already.

I missed the moments of being together with my family for all kinds of festivals. I missed my mum, my sis and my bro. The pictures of how all my siblings of six including me were having fun together when we’re young freshly appeared in my mind.

We used to play the firecrackers together and watching the entire beautiful firecracker works that could only been seen in my hometown. The scene was when it reached 12 midnight of new year eve, almost every home started their firecrackers works and the “Pi Li Pa La” sound could be heard so loudly just like my hometown was being bombed and even could be described as an earthquake till 1am. The scene definitely couldn’t be seen anywhere here. It was just so merry and fun.

I still remember that I used to bake all the festival’s biscuits and cakes at home till the midnight of eve. I even had the sense of satisfactory after looking my friends and relatives enjoyed my “victory product” and could treat them with my own made desserts.

However, it was really blessed when I looked back as I was here as a second year undergraduate in USM taking up the Engineering course which I was not interested as I was I think. HE really has put on beautiful and challenging plans in my life as he will prepare things I needed and I has great faith in HIM. From the beginning of my university’s life till now, I wouldn’t be able to be here without HIM. I thought that I’m unaffordable to do so base on my family’s financial situation as my mom is a single mom. But, HE’s guiding me step by step and provides me with scholarship to support my life expenses. Till now, I’m still so fit and healthy protected under the shelter of my heavenly father.

Thanks, Father in heaven. Thanks for providing everything I need and take good care of my family in hometown too. Wish that I will grow in whatever aspects day by day in the way of Jesus Christ.