It's the 1st day of Chinese New Year!!

Having the pic together with the big family (2 family) during their family gathering on CNY eve.

Since i'm not going back to my hometown Sibu again this year, I go to KL to celebrate with my friend, Nga Ming which has not been seen for a really long period of time.

Thanks God for preparing me a place to stay that is in Nga Ming's uncle house. Thanks to the kind hosts, too for letting me to enjoy this special season with them. It's such a great time together with the whole family, Nga Ming's uncle and his wife, their four cute children,children's grandma and two Nga Ming's cousins.

Yesterday, i witnessed how the amazing God blessed a big family and leading them in the grace of the Almighty Lord. My friend's uncle is an engineer and dealing with software engineering and her aunty once was a teacher and now helping her husband, an engineer that owned a software company. All of them origined from Sarawak and are the faithful Christian yet very successful adults. They used to gather together very often and have very close relationship. Then, i'm thinking of how good if our relationship with relatives can also be like that too.

My friend, Nga Ming has three relatives staying here in KL, her two uncles and her aunty, all of them are really been blessed. Her uncle David is a very faithful follower who has been undergone a bone marrow transplant and his wife is a teacher. The family is blessed with four lovely children. Their life are simple and happy.

I never seen a husband will help his wife to make a home recipe together and it's such a warm scene seeing the whole family having the fun time together. At the moment, i missed my family too.


I hope that God will keep blessing this big family and accompany them all the time. God really will bless those who is believing, loving and following HIM. My friend is really blessed and lucky too. :)

My friend, Nga Ming, me and her two little cute cousins

Ladies' pic, From left - Anna, Nga Ming's cousin, her aunty, her uncle's wife and me ^.^

Homesick season..>w<

This few days I really feel homesick especially during this CNY celebration. I can’t even concentrate in lectures and doing things well. I really wanted to celebrate together with my family in Sibu eagerly. Early in the morning, I on my laptop and started to access to the flight pages to check available cheap flight during the festival after my first opening of eyes. Yet, I failed to do so...

Haiz… feeling rather sad.I could only blamed and regreted for not booking the flight earlier and now its' price already been rose so highly. All of these are going to point back to that “sucking blood” flight company—MXX and Axx Axxx. They have to take these festivals’ advantages in order to a earn a fortune so they raise the flight’s fare so “irrationally”. They should consider that those the undergraduates like me from oversea (South China Sea >o<), Sarawak which is studying in Penang will be unaffordable to pay the costly flight during festival since we just take ptptn or a tightly spendable scholarship and mostly not come from rich family.

Another thing, i noticed that whatever flights to Sibu always more expensive than to the other places and I just don’t know why it is so. It costs us 1000++ for a trip from Penang to my hometown for just a week time. Come on, the money definitely can be used maybe for almost one and a half months of life expenses as a student. I wonder there must be a lot of students like me. They must have been sobbing quietly and thinking of their family so much during the festival.

I plan to write to Axx Axxx blog there in some days to share my feeling of being unable to go back during festival and maybe this is how the others feel too. Why don’t they give some special offers to the unaffordable undergraduates so that they will be able to be with their family during this lovely festival. Isn’t it helping those who are in needing is a blessed deeds? They will feel satisfy and happy too in doing so, right? I think I has thought too much, it kinds like an “impossible missions”. Maybe I’m just so sick of home.

When the CNY song being heard, it’s rather sad because it keeps reminding me that I’m unable to go home to be with my family. And, people might think that I don’t miss my family at all. They wouldn’t be able to know my complicated feelings since they don’t know me. But, as long as I clearly know what I really think of and could do for my family sincerely, that’s enough already.

I missed the moments of being together with my family for all kinds of festivals. I missed my mum, my sis and my bro. The pictures of how all my siblings of six including me were having fun together when we’re young freshly appeared in my mind.

We used to play the firecrackers together and watching the entire beautiful firecracker works that could only been seen in my hometown. The scene was when it reached 12 midnight of new year eve, almost every home started their firecrackers works and the “Pi Li Pa La” sound could be heard so loudly just like my hometown was being bombed and even could be described as an earthquake till 1am. The scene definitely couldn’t be seen anywhere here. It was just so merry and fun.

I still remember that I used to bake all the festival’s biscuits and cakes at home till the midnight of eve. I even had the sense of satisfactory after looking my friends and relatives enjoyed my “victory product” and could treat them with my own made desserts.

However, it was really blessed when I looked back as I was here as a second year undergraduate in USM taking up the Engineering course which I was not interested as I was I think. HE really has put on beautiful and challenging plans in my life as he will prepare things I needed and I has great faith in HIM. From the beginning of my university’s life till now, I wouldn’t be able to be here without HIM. I thought that I’m unaffordable to do so base on my family’s financial situation as my mom is a single mom. But, HE’s guiding me step by step and provides me with scholarship to support my life expenses. Till now, I’m still so fit and healthy protected under the shelter of my heavenly father.

Thanks, Father in heaven. Thanks for providing everything I need and take good care of my family in hometown too. Wish that I will grow in whatever aspects day by day in the way of Jesus Christ.

"Temptation vs Trial"

Recently, I has mixed up the word "temptation" and "trial". Temptation means that you yourself, your evil desires tend to make you fall into sin. While trial is what God think it's good for you to make you grow but it might make you fall and lost your faith in Lord.

Just take an easy example here like maybe your friend passed the answer sheet to you during a test then you can choose either to or not to grab it. If you choose to copy the answer, that means your evil desire, the tempatation make you fall into the trap. (You may refer to the verse Jacob 1:13-15). Lord keep training you from trials so that you can have strong faith and trust in Lord.

That's the power of words and languages. It often make you clearer about a thing and even may cause you to misunderstood sometimes. That why we need to extremely be careful especially in reading God's words. It's not easy for the people who translated bible from one language to another. God got said that the people who preach need to take greater responsibilty than the people who listen to the preach.

So, we gonna be extremely careful in this ya... ^.^

"It's not Lord make you fall into temptations but your evil desires"

James 1:13-14

"When tempted, no one should say, "God is tempting me." For God cannot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each one is tempted when by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed"

A couple of days ago, i had read this verse when i'm having the morning devotion. I had stopped and kept reading the verse for a while. I thought that God has made me fall into the temptation before that and never think that it's my own mind full of sins has caused me so.

Frequently, i thought that God give me such trial because it's within my capabilities or my limits. We always asking God "Why You let me to deserve all this?" when we are having circumstances or hardships in our lifes. We have never thought of or realising what we have done and without thinking that "Will this favours God if i do it in this way?"

The seed of evil desires deep inside me will always be revealed easily if i don't keep putting on the sword--the verse where Lord has provided for me. In many times, i will ignore and even forget the existence of my almighty Lord very easily.

What can i really do in order to think of my Lord every moment and let Him master everything in my life? It's can't be denied that i'm very limited and a weak person in whatever aspects including handling my life.

Satan will always be there to take every opportunity to make me fall into temptation and there to rejoice as i have fallen into the trap he set.

I definitely can make a choice either to choose to follow my evil desires and then God will be away from me. How terrify is the effect if i made the choice. I really can't image what my life is going to be without Lord. It's definitely worst XXXXXXXXXXXXtimes than now.

Or, i can choose to follow Lord's desires and live in the stream of grace and love of God. Sometimes, when there's evil thought slipped into my mind without realising, i will shout loudly to my mind, " Go away, you, Satan's mind, don't ever come again, Jesus doesn't like you", the pictures in my mind therefore gone disappeared, it's quite effective in battling the evil desire.

I can only pray to the Lord to give me strength to fight the evil desires in my mind. Yet, i should ask to be more patience and try to make a "pause moment" before i proceed any relevant moves and actions in handling any of my emotions or desires.

Really thanks, Lord for letting to have such a refreshment regarding Your words.