Tiring but enjoying cny 2011...^^

First of all i wish to wish every1 here HAPPY PROSPEROUS AND BLESSED CNY
For those i have no opportunities to wish u over message or through calling, i wish to give my greatest sincere wish over here ya and beg that just don't "put it in heart" ya..^^

From the home coming days till now..

my dark eyes bag seems getting darker and bigger due 2 insufficient sleep yet it kind an enjoying, not even 5 hr daily...

(Of course not because of maniac - enjoying that feeling of not enough sleep =.=)

it rather enjoying teamwork with my family again... precious moments with family to catch up whatever i missed up over a year... hearing so many stories.. and appreciating the gatherings with all the old frenz again.. it's only once a yr.. so do the best for them all ... ya...

This year, again..
all the others incharged for cleaning my house while i incharged for the making eateries part...

Thanks Lord that HE is just so GOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDD to make me to be able to have all this wonderful time and make it again after a year..suddenly wanna sing excitedly over here that "真正好，来信耶稣真正好！。。。。。。。"荣耀归于真神他成就大事。。。。"though the lyrics seems like unrelated... >.<At the KL airport with Ah Grace..
hehe.. ^^
start 2 fly.. yoohoo...
souvenirs... some food and liquors for my lovely family... and some of the new clothes n shoes as well...
start to prepare.. under hot burning sun 1st...
big big prawn n fish crackers.... Mukah crackers are the best ever... yeah...^^
vege crackers..
small prawn crackers......
....
what's it?
got it?
it's ba gua.. 1st time making it.. with replacement of DOM for shao xin wine... but put 2 many thick dark sauce.. .. dark dark lo.. @@
fried flour for kuih bangkit or momo ...
pork floss chun juan.. others not in pics: fried seaweed popia snack with sesame n da fah you yu flavoured.... not bad with the try of that sandwiched with da fah..
this? choc moist steam cake lo..
and this? pineapple punya kulit...
peanut cookies in the process...
and this.. really hard sweated to cook the pineapple jam for feng li su (not in pic)....
deng... done lo...
this ? checker checkers....
here they're... peanut n sesame peanut cookies...^^
Denmark creamy cookies.. it's melting melting..^^
custard melting cookies...^^
coffee milky checker cookies..^^
this year succeeded.. momo milky melting...^^ fried flour 1st better..
kuih bangkit.. but not so melting...
cheese cotton n peace cake...^^
marie mocha layer, coffee vanila layer, watermelon milky layer, pepermint choc layer,choc moist cakes... ^^
yam yam.. all my home eateries.. mostly home made 1 lol... ^^

packed some for aunty n frens..

Besides making, of course got enjoying hometown fine food..

love this kong kong hot hot kompia so much..
wu wei tan

sibu cendul la.. n others my flavoured bian nv....and my lovely mum cookings ....
my younger sis made tis homemade pizza for me the day i come bak 2 penang ... touched...T.T


Besides food, most precious time with family n frenz.. many pics not with me 2.. T.T

home gatherings... 4 pretty flowers.. ^^
yam cha wif frenz...^^
tuan bai wif ex classmates...^^
wat a lovely n cute baby...

cutie doggie...
stay wif my lovely mum ^^


my lovely sis with her most loved miao...

Considered mission accomplished 80%.. but a bit "yi han" since i can't meet with some i wish to meet after a reli long time..

And now...
only able 2 pack sum cookies and cakes for frenz upon coming bak 2 campus...
bak 2 campus .. T.T

But thanks Lord enjoying lots of eatings, making n most preciously gatherings...^^

爱美需要付上代价。。。

因为civil nite，所以人生第一次放纵自己去saloon 4 hair doing n make up...
哪知，账单来时吓了一跳，从原本的 RM 48 变成 RM 76，有些耿耿于怀，还 真的是第一次为这方面花酱多钱,从来不舍得呢。。。T.T
这个RM76 块好大呢。。

去年的nite这方面完全没花到钱呢。。感谢朋友们愿意为我免费服务。。
RM76 可以拿来做么呢？

cons
这RM76 可以单单是自己大概两个星期在这里的温饱，也可以添加一两本书籍，或许可以买一套新年衣，或一双鞋，更多的手信给家人，或让自己参加一个营会，或一趟旅程的车费， an offering， bla bla bla。。。

pros
换回一些属于自己生命中的美好回忆的照片，给自己漂亮一次的权力吗？。。

还真的是互相效力。。。

Thx LOrd ...i'm fine

While on the way back to campus from Li Hui aunty's home after the Sunday Service...

While at a junction, i stopped 2 wait 4 it to cross over when i saw a big Honda wanna turn right...

Siapa tahu that aunty in that car dunno how come didn't see me then just over cross the white line and just hit my front bike just like that..

And, that aunty just turn back and ask me whether i'm fine by a bit rudely...|||
Then, i just tell her i'm fine.. Then she flew just like that...

Fortunately, thanksful to Lord that was only a slight hit and my bike only almost fall on ground...
And now i had only a bit painful 4 my waist and slight scratch on my leg...

Otherwise, i wouldn't be able 2 see my beloved mom during this exciting cny season.. T.T

Thanksful to Lord that's nothing big deal happened to me and i still can breathe so freely...^^

Sometime, it's just wasn't our fault, but we opted to be careful anytime and anywhere while on the road for the our beloved one..

Watch up wherever u travel... ^^

A must duty...

The message" It's time now" kept slipped from my mind..

With all the courage from Him and willingness..
I decided to give a hit just now...

I thought that
will be coming alone and it should be one to one..
Yet, Out of my box, HE been ready for three..

Then, it just an unexpected from original plan..
Yet, i continued it with a little bit nervous..
Thanks God that i still manage to continue it for three...

Though, there's no immediate effect...
Hopefully, it's will be effective under HIM..

The rest commended to Almighty HIM..

Dear Lord.. hope that HE will conduct a miracle about it..

期待回家。。。

已经大概一年没回家了。。。
当走在shopping mall 或扭开收音机，已可以听到新年歌四处响起，心情就像乐坏了的小孩开始兴奋起来，因这意味着回家团聚的日子近了，期待回家见家人。。

上个星期，与朋友们到槟岛找购，虽没买到要买的，最后大家都非常疲惫但享受在当中。
途中，大家疯狂地听着用我手机开的新年歌，整车的人又闹翻了，有说有笑，大家也都被那喜悦的歌感染了，不亦悦乎，哈哈。。
我们几个好久没一起去槟岛了。。

不知家里的人改变了许多吗？那几只冬瓜长成怎样了，又变高，长大了吗？老妈子常常在电话投诉你们ler。。家里思念的女神是否苍老了许多，又在消瘦了许多呢？姐姐最近一直complaint说她肥了，到了发福的年龄。。哈哈。。到底肥了多少呢？还有长不大的瘦瘦的大孩子到底怎样了呢？

你们可知道我的思念呢？

为了奖赏这思念，这一年里不断地将我的旅行箱塞得满满的le，里面装着精心挑选每人的包括衣啦，鞋啦，裤啦，还有去langkawi买的酒啦，很多很多的巧克力等等啦。。。哈哈。。
看来带不了多少自己的东东了，还蛮担心它会被charge ler。。

每每回到家看到他们兴奋地找着为他们挑选的手信，自己也会满足地同与他们分享那心情，嘻嘻。。

Bek tahan... = =

haiz。。。
真的很不能忍受一个思想完全不成熟而且凡事为己，不理他人死活。。
自我中心，自私自利，己所欲为，不知量力，物质欲强的人。。。

也不知道x1x到底要酱到几时？
也不知道为什么会有酱一个真的不可爱，难顶的头号人物冒出在生命中。。
明白上帝要我们彼此都需要从这头号人物学习许多特别是爱这门难学爱的功课。。

讲归讲，知道归知道，
软弱的人但面对起来又是另一回事，
明白不可酱，

但始终，
失望已经是数不清的次数了，
烂摊子也已经是数不清了，
机会一次一次地给，愿意选择一次又一次地相信，
每一次，一次的一次都以失望收场，心不停不停地冷到极点。。。

上帝啊，到底要拿x1x怎么办呢？

另一方面，
x2x却用尽心思在当中维持，用尽生命的全部凡事须顾及大全，
扛下几乎所有重担，哽咽却连辛苦也不能坑一声，
甚至需要赔上自己青春年华，想飞的理想也抛在一边，
以直一切需要至比较安稳。。
以直无力感陆续地涌入，提不起劲去理会x1x。。
为的是什么？

为什么x1x可以这样的没有责任感？不能体贴x2x的含辛茹苦？
帮忙分担些该有的负担？少制造一些不成熟的烂摊子？

两个天差地远的极端。。。
矛盾。。。

愿神怜悯孩子的批评，约伯般的埋怨。。。

明白。。

明白。。

若在人前落泪倾诉，
对一个平时为坚强的人
或保护层比较厚的。。
是需要何等大的勇气。。。

要不，通常会自己一个人在角落里伤心压抑失声痛哭，
不会轻易让人看到自己像玻璃易碎的一面。。
除非眼前这位是为自己最为放心，信任的。。

若不然，
就选择任由他/她向其他熟悉信任的人倾诉。。
别强迫他/她所不愿意向你诉说的事，
因你没能给他/她如此的信任，
你也真的没能做什么。。

让静一静整理心情也好，

曾经，
一位好友在自己面前在电话中放声痛哭倾诉，
以至自己的情绪也一样一起低沉伤痛起来，
清清楚楚明白体会那种伤痛的感觉，
要不是相信得过，友也不会在自己面前这样的彻底裂肺般的痛哭。。

回想若当时，
自己若不是透过电话而是活生生的在友面前，
自己也是无能为力，除了陪友哭，听友倾诉，完全也不晓得要怎么办。。

而非能像透过电话，
还能说些有些理智安抚的话。。

也深深经历，
在一旁痛哭抹干眼泪后，眼泪还是不听使唤地又流了下来，
但，这眼角的泪终究还是被神抹干了。。
虽然很多的不知道，不明白。。

消沉，也不宜太久，
但，日子久了，时候到了，
祂自己亲自让我明白，知道祂要我体会，经历，学习的。。
並且亲自带领我走出来，并结出生命的果实。。

深深体会，
罗马书第8章28节说：“我们晓得万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处，就是按他旨意被召的人。”

也相信每个人都有属于自己可以作为聆听的对象。。

祂也永远是自己最的忠实的聆听者，
让祂亲自来抹干眼角的泪的同时自己也要走出来。。