端午节与22/6

端午节与22/6

每年农历五月初五的端午节对我们来说大概都会想到那吃粽子吧，另外还会联想到那古老中国文化的赛龙舟和那爱国而投江的屈原吧！
还有最近，从一份报道当中知道韩国也向联合国申请将这端午节列为他们文化节日之一了，他们也在这一日吃“艾子糕”

这节日。。。

时间过得真快，已经六年了。。。我告诉自己。。
六年前的这一天也就是22/6/2004， 622这号码仍深深地刻在心上。。
六年后的我，每当端午节来临时，我自然而然还会想起，偶而会掉起思念的眼泪来。。。

这期间也接近孝亲节，就勾起我对你的思念，回忆我成长中有你的点滴真好，有清澈有模糊的印象。。
有对你甜美的回忆，有你很苦的回忆。。
心里想如果现在还有像你小时候那样可以宠我，让我闹脾气，让我撒娇，哄我，那该有多好呀！

小时只有你可以给我这样的闹，那时家里可以说没有人可以顶得顺我的哭功，
还记得你为了要禁止我哭，使了千方百计哄我，掏钱给我，带我去买零食，这些招数对那时的我来说还蛮管用的
带我去你常去的麻将馆，会你的麻将猪朋狗友，卖罐装汽水给我，
最爱吃他每每从麻将馆回来后打包给我们的叉烧包，菜包，肉包，牛油包，花生包。。。
有时则是RM 10的炒面或炒果条很够我们那时一家八口的宵夜了。。。

如今，
再也寻不回可以像你一样可以给我闹脾气，笑笑我的无理取闹如此熟悉的地方了。。。
回家乡后，有时喜欢打包回家同样的阿肥白包，但味道怎样都不像以前那般了，
也不知道是不是因现况的通胀而偷工减料的因素，还是没有了你的味道没有你亲手打包给我们，
怎样也吃不回以往的味道了，一些事没了就是没了，无法取代。。。

记得有一年农历大年初一，我不知道是为了什么事好像是不愿意穿裙的缘故，
而在那里哭闹不停闹变扭，你也拿我没办法，生气之下上了打了我一下，不理我，
那时的我吸一把鼻涕一把眼泪的很快就不闹不哭了。。。
那一次好像是你第一次打我。。。
很怀念有你的回忆。。。

六年前的那一天，
你一声也不出这样突然昏走了，丢下了我们一家七口，小妹那时仅仅十岁罢了，
那时要适应着没有你的日子，那时怨你为何如此狠心。。。
那一段日子真的很辛苦，当中许多的不明白。。。
那时心口痛得如千刀万宰在扎呀扎，无法形容的痛。。。

记得当时看到报纸上中国一个老太婆躺在那葬礼床上几天后奇迹的活起来了，
还天真地心里也存这盼望，也愚蠢这样祷告，也笨笨地对自己说，
希望你也可以奇迹般地过几天再出现
直等到你入土那一刻也没中断，愚蠢地不能接受你去的事实。。。

如今，
也不再撒娇无理取闹，学会不哭不闹，
学会不轻易在人面前掉眼泪，
学会独立，学会坚强，学会更懂事，
学会凡事靠自己，虽胆却但仍学会逞强，
学会不麻烦他人，学会坚持不占他人便宜，

也学会你的固执，学会你的骨气，
学会你的包容，学会你的重情义，
学会你的讲义气，学着你的行业，

学会顾家，学会更照顾体贴
更爱妈妈，姐妹们
学会成为頂家的一份子，
学会为人着想，学会很节俭，
也坚持不依靠家里的一分一毛，
也学会适应没有你的日子，

学会更感恩，学会更依靠神的恩典，
学会明白，等待神的旨意，明白
神的旨意高过人的旨意，
神的意念高过人的意念，
神的道路高过人的道路，
万事互相效力，叫爱神的人得意处

如今，
虽也找不着单独与你的合照，但你的脸清澈的浮现在我脑海里。。。
老豆。。。没有你的日子，好想念你。。。
你的回忆将永远珍贵地收藏在女儿的心底处，
只属于我和你的，
成为这一生最美好，无法取代的回忆。。。

六年前的那一天，
这节日从此
在我生命中从此多添加了一个主角更胜过于其他纪念因素。。。

A believer or a disciple?

Today, been listening to the strong preaching in the service...

pastor lau say it's always easy to be a believer than a disciple..

ya... i admitted that 2..

a believer that's so passive to share our religion to others and always like our comfort zone without further steping out to share god's good things around...

ya.. it's easy for just to believe and hard to practice things out...
even the 12 disciples of Jesus with HIM more than 3 and a half yrs also doubted and hesistated..

He further saying that we always stressed on the matthew phase 28:19-20, the last 2 verse and ignoring the verse 18...

Indeed, verse 18 is also as important as the other 2...

We are going out because Jesus is give us the powerful authority already to the crowds not without anything to say HIS msg...

Stressed again... HE is giving us all the authority in heaven and on earth, HE is with us to go out, not alone... without HIS authority, we're nothing,n i wonder how should we reach to the ppl...
HE is commanding us....
without the missionary ministries, a church not called a church...

16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go.
17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted.
18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.
19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Questioning:
为什么我们传福音需要力量？
因我们的仇敌不是一般的，乃是魔鬼的权柄，不是属血气的乃是被捆绑的，
神赐给我们权柄去与他们对抗。

n i ever a qualified christian after having my faith for such a long time more than 10 yrs? believer or disciple???

Has i fully use my heart as to be more like him facing or doing whatever things in my life so far?

And i really loving the ppl caring the salvation of the ppl around me?

Do i appreciate every moment lord giving me as to share HIS msg to the ppl i deal with daily?

Have i been really courage enough as fully taking up HIS cross and follow his footprints??

If i really love HIM, do i really offering all i have to him? How much time, energy, money i can have for him and even for the priority of lord comes 1st b4 my family?

indeed, i admitted that i still have a long way to go n in the "loading" process..
definitely i need to work much much harder...
May lord forgive me and giving me strength...

hM.. my own real holiday...hike hike...

crystal hill near genting... highly recommend for whose who enjoy hiking...^^

This few days had been d holidays i longed for..
wow... realising that i really didn't have such a holiday for so long d...

This Wesak holiday... i been going hiking with my Puchong's new church members, genting and also with CF members to Melaka..

i got shared my 1st KL's service during last few blogs..
where i really can't adapt myself 2 d environment there..
It's jx so grand n jx feel "alient"ed ..

then i tried attending a smaller church recommended by my friend, Jici...
It's Puchong's 宣道堂....

furthermore, her relatives which some i know almost all there..
actually this is d second time i attending the service there after my 2009 CNY where i stayed at uncle David's home during d festival..

so, feeling quite warm meeting all of them again..

i felt so glad that i could be there n feeling like can mix with them well od though it's 1st time meeting most of the ppl there...
find the sense of belonging there...

the feeling jx like already knowing them for a long time d...
it's jx so coincidentally that the pastor's couple there from Sibu though he's not there that day...

n many members also come from sibu 2...
it's jx feel like familiar n comfort when u met ppl fr hometown
sharing the same dialect...
it's jx like i been in my hometown...

yeah... n my exciting hiking experience at crystal hill near genting..

that fri morning, i woke up as early as 4am... n fetched by my fren's cousin by 4.40am...
what a sleepy time ya.. d time ppl sleeping like piggy...
then, all together 13 members (including pastor's wife, only 2 students including me, the rest are the working adults)
we enjoying a precious time 2gether...

we started to have a prayer 1st then started to climb by 6am like that and managed to see the scene of the sunset on the hill's way, enjoying the beauty of the mother nature of the only creator, enjoying the fellows' interaction..

according to a member that had been to d Kinabalu...
the journey is as challenging as that 1...
so he told us that we "graduated" after this and could start our next target to Kinabalu then..^^

the pastor's wife really "geng" where she managed to finish her hiking without giving up..
n we really admire her...
they kept telling joke that she would be younger by 5 yrs after this...

and herself humurously told that then she want to hike few more times then she will be more younger many 5 yrs.. ^^
we just enjoyed the jokes so much among ourself during the hiking...

along the journey,
the way was just not easy, we had been gone through the six small up and down hills, and fully using all created bodies' parts to complete our mission, from the arms, fingers, foots, toes, knees, legs and even our buttocks...
certain journey will just s0 dangerous where u jx can't look down, if falling then.....OO.

Thanks Lord for leading us throughout the journey...
Thanks god that the weather was so fine, no rain no slippery ground..
so we all able to complete our mission after 4 hours by 10am like that as well.. ^.^

i prayed deep inside my heart calling HIS name along the journey as for a safe journey...

I experienced most when felt so insecured when we just couldn't see the mark on stone or jx couldn't see the things below, couldn't't stand/find a place to rest on the limestone where we opted to use rope to climb over it..
we just can have faith, solely relying on the instruction of our team's leader to rest our foot on the stone... n relying on the strength of the rope to cope for our weight without theoritically considering of how much d tension can d rope withstand... what an exciting experience..

i believe that most ppl also felt secured in the same way only when they can see with their naked eyes, touching by their own...
it's jx like the faith we have in Lord, though can't see HIM, we still believe in HIM...
Isn't that wonderful? we just believe in him without relying on our own strong conceptual, self or logic thinking... that's the faith....

Praise to our Lord.... ^^

when enjoying the beauty of the sunset, we just don't hesistate and shouted at the top of our voice at the half way like the mad dogs, haha... still felt funny...
when we enjoying the another special scene where it's really a contradict, where we saw the mother nature beautiful scene on the left side and another right side of the artificial human-made scene, showing the urbanization developed KL city

A member, Sarah immediately told that it's just like Jesus in the bible, where Satan's temptation by bringing him to the highest of the hill and showing him the glory city and offer him the goodness of the world just want HIM to knee it yet Jesus refused to do, HE know HE is the son of heavenly father...
Can we really act like HIM especially when we're in the worldly temptation?

tried to notice the different scenes behind us...it's different.. it's really awesome..

the view of d RHS...

the view of LHS....

throughout the day,
chatted with pastor's wife a lot 2..
coincidentally pastor 刘德裕牧师 and her wife
once upon a time also from SIB church, b4 that had been serviced in Miri n Bintulu..
n oso been in my church for 8 month period when i was eleven...
n my previous piano's teacher in church is pastor's niece some more...
what a small world..

oops... nope .... should feel thanksful for contacting me with this church

After the hiking,
we went to walk around at genting, and having lunch there...
since i still a undergraduate... i been treated for a delicious meal..
wanna express my gratitude here to the kind generous host...thx so much... ^^
and it's my 2nd time to genting and 1st time entering the casino inside...

n together with other church members and also pastor's wife... that's funny...

inside d casino..
seeing the ppl gamble with their sweat, blooding money

like throwing $$ into the sea... and so lost...

the probabilities of winning was so small where the whole casino computerised controling system

surprisingly saw many grannies there also...

that's the place resulted in broken families, losing lives, greediness, addiction, lost in direction, source of sin condemnation...
ppl seens so stupid, still, ppl wanna bet to stand even a slim chance for a good luck, great returning...

greediness and purposeless, driven them just wanna doing something to fulfill the their emptiness... how pity...

like seeing the scene of ppl just non-stop jumping into an endless hole...

it seems like Lord wanna to warn me that never carry on a purposeless life...

sweating members... ^^

friendly pastor's wife... ^^

found a durian tree on d way down...

found some goats and sheeps when reaching bottom... funny...XD...

New cultural in malaysia...(squeezed all u can...)

Malaysia is having its new cultural recently....
Recently, kinda having PP (public transportation) phobia..

so...prefered to stay at home more...

this is escpecially when needed to take d PP here during d office hour...

When will the government going to upgrading it???

The people here chose to take PP yet the government can't supply d rising demands sufficiently

During the office hour by 7.30-9am and 5-7pm, u ll be frustratred when u're here..

seeing and experiencing by ur own..

no matter black, white, yellow or brown- skinned, are squeezing and

nearly breathless inside this small "sardine tin".

even inside the sardine tin, still got spaces of liquid for the fish to align tidily...

Here, u gonna to have all the "solid"s like they wanna to burst the container...
the ppl kept squeezed though it's already far far exceeding d poor little thing's capacity..

see.. still can see clearly some faces even almost "pasted" to the glasses...

simply because if u dun wanna being late for ur work, then just bear to squeeze with others

then... of course, wanted or not wanted.. just get in...

Poor ppl here paying for the uncomfortable trip and to be squeezed..

I used up RM10 daily reaching and back from my working place

in the return-- so uncomfortable trip...

What are the rights for us as users then?

Pay and get the lousy service?

Inside d monorail or LRT... funny 2 see the "wu nai" faces seeing this scenarios

where ppl really can do nothing to it...
the ladies holding bags protecting their front,

radiculously... still can see some ppl "deadly" reading a book in such a condition,
Ya hor... government's promoting reading habits in PP...
when u're in these kind of condition then u ll c how difficult are to lift up a book, eventhough lifted up, u wouldn't have d mood wanna to read it...

seeing different ppl, from short to tall, thin to fat,

nicely dressed up OL with variety n colourful of high heels,
OG(office guys)- foreigners-bangladesh, pakistan, nannies, uncles, housewives and some OKU...

and kind malaysian always liked to give their seats to these ppl...

Looking down from LRT or monorail...
u ll see seriously jammed traffic with long long queue...
n irritated waiting ppl...

instead..PM should come and experiencing together with his lovely ppl during this these time..

then i'm sure that he would so eagerly wanted to do something about it..

Its demand either LRT or monorail is really far far exceeding its supply..

Pls lah... taking our income tax then doing something about to fix it lah...

This is basically what d ppl wanted without further promises of other benefits...
o rushing 0 rushing...

o squeezing 0 squeezing..



another 1...

more spaces... ye.... definitely nt during office hour..

This consider much much better od.....

Eventhough it's raining day, it still can't improve d condition...

Happy Mother's Day....

1st of all,

wanna shout loudly to all mothers.....

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY"

especially to my mom...

MOM....love u so much...

again... this year can't celebrate together with her...

only managed to talk to her earlier through phone n bring some present for her and some msg earlier to her...

Thanks so much to Richard for helping me to bring a liquor and some chocolate for my lovely mother..

And i attached a DIY card for her 2... ^.^
Hoped that she might feel my heart for her...

through words....

ppl feel strange when i bought this for her...

cox this can add better taste to her dishes lo... ^^

last yr i oso bought her a DOM...

so funny that she feel sayang to drink...

Joyce... u got to buy lots lots of "bu ping" 4 mom ya...

Mom... u got to eat lots of "bu ping" ya..
Mom...Miss u so so so so much...

really wanna see her....

wuwu...long time not been home od...

Thanks Lord again as to born as my mom's child...^.^

Working days' meals....

Now...lunch time... using my office's pc 4 updating...

i been here 4 the fifth day of my working days...
believe in Lord that He is going to lead me through
with HIS abundant of grace day by day... ^^

Didn't going out for lunch since had spent lots of $$$
here and meals here really @@@@@...

Working days make us having the habit 2 hv the
breakfast daily but not necessary the lunch..

We tried to save $$$ as to cover our others' expenses then
trying making our own meals here.
This few days managed to make our own breakfast for d
housemates here...
Thanksful that v can enjoy our own prepared meals here..

Hmm... so far had been prepared omelette, bee hoon,
wan tan hoe ^^...
housemates also praised that the taste was not bad ^.^

And yesterday nite, Brandon had cooked us the very special
yummy spicy maggi mee which making me having running nose
afterwards...^.^

Will try to update with more pics here afterwards... ^.^

Start my new environment... @.@ + ^.^

Really long time didn't update my blog already....

currently in a comfortable big master room that today so
luckily can use people's wireless to update my news...

(bcox my frens let it out for me since i'm the only gal
and will be much more convenient to have own washroom)
It's the biggest room i ever owned... ^.^
Thanks frens and host.....

Thanksful to Lord that i got a nice place to settle in KL
for my 10 wks working days though it's a bit far...
(cox i need to use more than 1 hour to reach
my working place)
it is exactly the opposite of Pavillion Mall of that peak area
with all the shopping malls..

Really thanksful and thanks to the host that
i got a master room here with air-con
with very cheap rental and also the very friendly hosts... ^.^

Brandon and i had tried to estimate the time to reach that place
last friday the day after we reached KL..
and we enjoyed our "Iron Man" and big meals 2 that day...

But... must share my 1st day's experience...
for the 1st day of my working day,
since many things were not so getting on
so quite a lots things that felt worst..

For the 1st day, we going out by 7.30am and stucked for quite
a long period at the LRT $$ collector machine there
bcos the machines didn't want to accept our paper money
furthermore, the 1st day of working day made us mixed with
the feelings of a bit nervous+excited+afraid...

We finally bought RM20 touch and Go card each where
we needed to take LRT, monorail and rapid bus for return
i really wanna complain that cheating, ineffective "T n G",
that day, we used up almost all the amount,
imagine 1 day RM20 for transportation fee where
normally should be RM10...

We walked from KL central to monorail stn to transit then reaching
Bukit Bintang then pass through the skycrappers with
terribbly jammed traffic with road controlling traffic police ,
passed through Pavillion, Mariott Hotel... to reach office...

Upon reaching the Keck Seng building,
We were being called to wait for quite a long period and
the atmosphere in the office so unfamiliar 4 us and every1 was
busy doing their own tasks and would not even care 4 us...

Then the very 1st day since we're in design office, we were already
been given the tasks to design already where we were
almost forget things we had learnt and really needed time
to catch back and found it a bit stressful..

After the office hour, we tried to get home then...
and i was really in the condition of so called jammed people
when i was in the monorail and LRT (can u imaging that u're really
like in the sardine tin where it just couldn't even move ur arms
or legs and the space only available for 1 bcum for 2 ???)
That y there were so many molest cases, pocket pickers happening inside
where the Malaysian complaint so mc especially the ladies...
We only managed to reach home by 8pm++ that day including
buying sum daily stuffs at the Atria Mall near our current home...

That day i wondered that how am i going to survive for the rest
of my 5 yrs of working days then...

oh ya... my very 1st Sunday Service...
i attended it at section 16 SIBKL...
wow... it's really a cutural shock...

i never know that the SIB here is so mc different as compared to the
SIB in Sibu... i volunteered myself to English church bcox i wanted to
drag Brandon to church again and he promised me that
he will go together with me next Sunday... ^^

Inside the church.. everything so new to me and it's really huge place,
crowds with all the red jacket welcoming bro and sis
the hall really big that looked like having opera show and the music band
so grand with around 20 ppl i think... so shocked...

then after P&W start preaching by a pastor fr Australia i think
i found out myself quite lost due to my lousy English and really found
myself thus so helpless when tried to interact....
I told myself that i must try to improve my English during this period..

Thanks so mc to Jason for fetching me there then after the service,
we heading to 1 Utama to meet up with Ann Nee, Aaron, Hooi Keng
and Grace at Italiano there for lunch then chatting for a long time 2..
that meal also costed us RM20 each lik tat ...

only being here not more than a week, then all the meals,
transportation expenses already costed me over
almost a month of the expenses in Penang, sad.. unbearable...

yet...
thanksful and prayed to Lord that i will be adapting myself to the
new environment very soon..