2nd Malim Nawar Mission Trip...

Everyone has the different definition and own requirements for Mission Trip. Thus, they aimed differently. For me, i still unable or haven't reach the level of i feel that i'm more likely to demand certain specified greater task for mission trip. For me, for every work we go out to pass the message of Jesus Christ is the true saviour is the missionary. For others, of course just go ahead...

This is the second time for me to join this Malim Nawar Mission Trip which is near Kampar or rather call it Children' Camp。

Our duty same again which is passing the stories of Jesus to them.. This time we didn't having much activities in Kampar but rather in the Malim Nawar church.. Thus, probably unable to see much the needs around that areas.... Of course, there are a few things happening along the trip including joyful and unhappy things.. Thankfully, because of the love of Lord we are willing to humble ourself...

Seems like having no that "extra extra" passion for Lord...
I seems like unable to see what the new things Lord wanted me to see. Or other words, my heart seems like cold or already "used to be"or still in waiting mode...

What have i experienced for this time's mission?
The first day was quite smooth and i keep stressing up the message of Lord to bring up to children there.

And the second day, i experienced the some real difficulties... Because of
Surely i'm not praying that hard during that time..
Surely i didn't prepare well during that leading time..
Surely i'm encountering it with "normal temperature" for heart...

I agreed with my friends that sometime i'm just so hotheaded like a “无头苍蝇” aimlessly without putting my target 1st only then doing things...
Surely i'm also like that during that time....

Thanksfully, i noticed that i'm able to talk with people of various ages from children, teenagers, aunties till old folks.

Children.. want to be sayang"ed"...
Teenagers.. want to be acceptable, to be cared...
Old folks.. want someone to listen to them, to be cared...

Children there lack of parental love, teenagers there do not aim to enter a universities or probably aimless..

Two out of three of old folks i talk to are single.. they keep saying that they are lonely are helpless sometime..
One single grandpa broken his leg in an accident and fortunately having no financial problem cox his relatives will give him yet he complainted that he is lonely..
Another single grandmom told me that she being beat up by her younger sisters sometimes yet she dunno whose to refer..
And the most fortunate one among the three are having children and grandkids together...

But in this mission, i do see the teamworks in the people of Lord in order to build a great puzzled picture for Lord.. That what i admire this time..

Pastor..
Really careful in doing works and keep guiding us..
Try to reminding us the Do n Don't along the camp so that works are perfect...

Hui Yung Jie, a great caring, knowing needs auntie in the team
She's really great yet she keep stressed that she didn't help much...
Thanks Lord for We have the very nice conversations...
She' taking good care of everyone of us...
A mother that really know the needs of her only daughter...
A mother that having the passion for Lord...
A joyful mother...
How i wish my mom could add up some gd elements but of course my mom is excellent ...

Xin Mei n Lon yan
great leader, guitarist and story teller...
Lon yan... like what u say everyone has their own doing works pattern..
Thus, we opt to try our best to respect lo then try to appreciate their good things and not counting probably not the unsatisfied things.

Chai yun
Bravo... handling children, many more talented skills...
Can see the passion of Lord from her then shining her life for others...

Siaw ping..
Thanksfully 4 really talented in the sense of art
I will never be able to paint that....

Guo shun
Bravo...You are really "用心" when u are assigned with a duty...
Yet... the important is the relationship with Lord beyond others 1st..

De lu
Hope that he will keep the passion for Lord...
Keep it up... Bro..

Nelly...
good camera woman and great helper...
Open up ur heart then U ll see u're flourished in the Lord

All the 1st yr junior,
you all are really great....
They try their best to mix with the children there and they make it...yeah
They try their best to contribute in this team to be helper...
Hope that the passion in their heart this time will keep them to shine in the path of Lord...

Probably this is what Lord want me to see and learn gua...

Ev

长阔高深的大爱

有一天国王来到监狱，见到一个被处死刑的女囚犯，就怜悯她，付上极大代价将她救出来，给她衣服、食物，眷顾她多方面 的需要。这样的宏恩厚爱，已教那女子感激不尽。若国王对那女子说要拣选她为自己心爱的配偶，对那女子来说，岂不是如在梦中吗？她是一个满身罪污的人，一个 被人唾弃的死囚，不但蒙了拯救，还被选为国王的配偶，成为他骨中之骨、肉中之肉。这样的爱情，实在超乎我们的知识所能明白和形容的。主耶稣基督就是这样爱 祂的教会，爱祂的众圣徒。

我们原是罪人中的罪魁，在神的愤怒下是被判死刑的，但我们能逃避一死，乃因基督爱我们，为我们舍己，且爱我们到底。 不但如此，祂更是拣选所有蒙救赎的儿女那日成为心意中所爱的新妇。这种爱太伟大了，是过于人所能明白的，难怪保罗为此在父神面前屈膝，求神开启众圣徒心中 的眼睛，能以明白基督的爱是何等长阔高深，并知道这爱是过于人所能测度的，然后他说：“但愿祂在教会中，并在基督耶稣里，得着荣耀，直到世世代代、永永远 远，阿们。”（弗三21）

神这个更高的心意一定要得着，祂从一班不配被爱的人身上，借着耶稣基督的恩典，使他们蒙救赎、得怜爱。神又照着所运行在圣徒心里 的大能，充充足足的成就，超过我们所求所想的，就是使所有蒙救赎的人在新耶路撒冷成为一个新人──基督的新妇，就是所有圣徒不但灵魂得救而已， 还要成为宇宙中蒙救赎的族类，成为基督的新妇。因羔羊的救赎而没有瑕疪、没有斑点、没有皱纹，为要许配给基督。这就是救赎所要达到的最终目的。

自以为是。。。

4/9

人自被神创造以来，就是看不到自己的，而只是能够看待周围的人事物。
可是，人偏偏常常顾虑最多的就是自己，
而对周遭的事常常漠不关心，自以为是，
常常为自己的利益而直接或不直接的伤到他人甚至神。
常常关心人，为他人的需要代求是何等难的一件事啊

人往往将主权紧握在自己的手上，而无心听取或麻木与他人的意见/劝告
永远自以为是，以自己为中心，自己都是对的，
时常，连最亲密的祂也不听，也不理了，
麻木，沉醉在自我的世界当中，
继续的堕落，继续的原地转动，打滚，
怎样的努力也无力爬出那个陷阱，那一个无底洞。

旁人也总是无心助你一臂之力，不屑的表情，
任你在那里徘徊，不停的自我旋转，

而你，却也无力，
怎样也无法让自己的身体听使唤，停止转动，
就像车失去控制，疯狂地往山崖冲下

而你，最希望的，就是时间可以冻结，
让你不再不停转动，奇迹出现，把你拖住

而虽然肯定那奇迹一定是神
但却似乎，很现实，那奇迹就是没有发生
处在服与不服之间。

ye。。。单独行程

29/8

觉得自己昨天还蛮“geng” 的，一个人就像Penny那首歌“看见听见”
我开着车　车窗摇下左边 边听着歌。。。
但，
我开着Yamaha１００ 单车不停地晃 边看路景。。。

一个人从大概中午时从campus骑到Taiping for my dentist appointment..
路途中，我跨过死狗，死猫，死四脚蛇，吓到我。。。
更重要的是我阿爸天父一路来都看顾我，与我同在，让我完成这个人探险。
我想大家都应该有这种感觉吧。
每一次的起程总觉得非常的久，而回程却只是好像一下子罢了。

Erm。。感觉还蛮刺激的。。
又突破个人的一点小站。。
还好那一天，祂很赐福我，整天的天气得很好，只有偶尔有毛毛雨。
虽然是一个人去，感觉有些孤单，缺少了讲话的对象，
但还是有那个"大力的"陪我，
对祂的信心又增添了，谢谢祂。。

那天，拿着Ah Peng给我draf 的map 就浩浩荡荡的出发了。。
Meet过 了dentist，买了些公仔饼，之后就经过Taiping Central 。

停了下来享用久久没有光顾的McD先生。。
Order了 1 set Fillet Fish-o套餐，虽然觉得有些贵（因为已过了3pm，没有McValue时光了），但还是满足了肚子的欲望， hehe。。

Then, 到Tesco逛逛之后就启程回campus了
过往，若是坐巴士，就单单来回车程就需要花了大概4个钟，但昨天来回只花了2个钟，当然需要++个人的非常精力，到campus时，已经是6点多了，出于筋疲力尽的状况，

所以咯，抱歉了团契。。

hehe。。以下与大家分享一首我纯粹蛮喜欢听的歌。。。

看见听见

演唱：戴佩妮

我开着车　车窗摇下左边 边听着歌　
歌浮现谁的脸 脸躺着泪　泪滑落他的嘴 嘴角的话　
话说的有多美 美丽的花　花开了多少回 回家的路　
路究竟有多远 远方的灯　灯刺伤了双眼 眼睛里面　
面目全非的视线

I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing But only the love god gives me is something
I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing but you

你让我清楚的看见 星星在夜里的善变
恋人们脸上的终点 写满了欺骗　编织着永远　
也辜负了永远 我开着车　车窗摇下左边 边听着歌　
歌浮现谁的脸 脸躺着泪　泪滑落他的嘴 嘴角的话　
话说的有多美 美丽的花　花开了多少回 回家的路　
路究竟有多远 远方的灯　灯刺伤了双眼 眼睛里面　
面目全非的视线

I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing But only the love god gives me is something
I’m feeling nothing feeling nothing but you

你让我清楚的看见 星星在夜里的善变 恋人们脸上的终点
写满了欺骗　编织着永远　也辜负了永远 我听见
流言在纷飞的蔓延 你手着握着的誓言
灯火的侧面 编织着诺言 又成全了敷衍
什麽时候我才能看见 你真挚的表演
什麽时候你才能听见 我幸福的残缺

我看见 星星在夜里的善变 恋人们脸上的终点 写满了欺骗　
编织着永远　也辜负了永远 我听见
流言在纷飞的蔓延 你手着握着的誓言 灯火的侧面
编织着诺言 又成全了敷衍
我看见 我听见 我看见 我听见
我看见了幸福 也听见了幸福的残缺