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落脚的第一天

2011-07-12T06:26:00.000-07:00

29/6/2011

这Y头待在这繁忙吉隆坡都市好几天，也都用尽脚力，甚至全身上下的力。十一也好久好久没酱子服务主人了，真是辛苦了。几天过后，Y头打从心底感恩也办完通证手续，像以往似的，事事总是顺其自然地，也因恩典因祂所眷顾，让Y头也欠下一连几天不一样的人情债。这个单身潜逃仿佛是祂精心为祂所爱的预备的，心里似乎也潇洒地哼着她喜欢戴佩妮的单身潜逃。或许，此时， Y头因心里疲惫疲乏，拖着承重的脚步，似乎有点迷茫，似乎弥漫不前，该是重新在祂里找回自己的时候了。

再一次踏上大红。。没关系，总有一天会踏上大蓝的。。

此刻，Y头似乎有些心理准备又像没预备好，心情矛盾地，踩进了要加以熟悉两个月半的异地。她独自背着一个小背包，手上提着一个小手袋，手里握着小红册子，和从柜台拿的一些地图和一张简单上网找的，要去的陌生地址的Google map。她望一望四周，多了一份似乎熟悉又不算是熟悉的环境，多一份好奇新鲜感，周遭不再都有白黄黑肤色的，而都是与她一样黄皮肤的，周围的指示牌都以繁体华文为主。（据说这小宝岛“她”怎样都不要与“大地”一样的，“大地”用简体华文；“她”就用繁体华文，“大地”选择英国；“她”就选择美国）。一路沿着指示牌，到了“公车”购票台，用TwD$115用“马”腔华语与“台”腔服务小姐要了一张国光1843从桃源机场到南钢展览馆的车票，等着前往下一个目的地，那里的服务员还有次序有礼貌指示你要程达的“公车”。

上车不久后，窗外的雨开始滴滴答答地打落在剔透的玻璃窗上，坐在舒适的双人座位上，Y头目不转睛地往外头望去，绕过许多的高楼公寓，正不断以高科技大型机械兴建的许多建筑场地，工厂，高数公路，繁忙的交通，市区小巷，公园，花上一个小时多，终于到了该下的车站。下了车，紧抓着手头上的Google map看一看，从查找的资料上，觉得不是很远，资料显示只需走15到20分钟。也因不熟悉公车收费，从资料傻傻地以为公车计费以每经过一小站要收$15, 要经过五小站，就决定试着自己走，心想也可以第一时间走马看花。

窗外。。雨中仍然进行的建筑大工程。。

沿着商店的巷子走着，经过公园，也问过路过亲切的阿姨以确定方向。刚刚停了的雨，又开始不争气，细细地打在脸颊上，没办法，只好躲一躲雨，有些无奈地望着路过拿伞的路人们，来来往往的车辆和机车。此时，上完公厕的穿着雨衣的机车阿姨竟主动走过来问Y头需要伞吗？她很不好意思地拒绝了，告诉她等下不知要怎样还伞给她，但她仍然将伞剃给Y头，说：“不用还啦，这伞我也是在车站拿的，你等下用好拿给别人就好了。”心里感恩，觉得好神奇噢。。竟有酱的事叻。。

神奇的雨中得狗狗伞叻。。。

接着，拾起脚步又继续往前走了，路途中因拿着一些行李，就进“Hi-Life” Convenient Mart休息休息，顺便稀奇看着里面的东东和包装，，买了一瓶$16的矿泉水。此时，Y头觉得自己像极了土包子。

大概花了40分钟左右，终于步入了中央研究院的活动中心。领了电子钥匙，“Ti”进了旅馆房间，探了探房间发现没人，数她最早到了。卸下身上的行李，开一开厕所，翻一翻冰柜，顺手拿了遥控按开冷气，扭开电视机，再为自己挑了个靠墙壁的床位，满意地趴在床上躺一躺。

两个月多的暖窝。。^^

火辣辣的犀鸟之乡的”选“。。。

2011-04-15T12:43:00.000-07:00

这些日子有在关注在自己敬爱的犀鸟之乡的大选。。
也与家人电话中了节情形，一同也跟着大选沸腾起来，

可惜没能回家尽个砂州子民该尽的责任了。。

如果的如果，
如果砂洲人在外头工作的学生或工作者被允许可以有更公正更系统的投票方法（或邮寄投票，但不认为这不直接的投票方法有效率，大家心知肚明啦），如果可以有便宜机票或免费提供机票给投票者，如果这期间不是学生们的考试，如果这期间是一段假期，如果大部分在他乡的社会人士，学生们这时可以回乡投票, 若果能有100%的投票率（当然，这是不可能的）。。。。。

十届以来砂州的投票率
单单投票率，让以上数据来说话，
显然地，若效率可以像以前70年代当初的殷勤一样不减反增，毫不松懈，以上数据怎么会从90年代至今一直下降以至这时可能会增加？显然地都知砂洲年轻一代人口一直外流，

无风不起浪，声音从震抖开始。。

呵呵。。
如果砂洲的就业机会甚至求学机会好，会有如此数据会吗？
如果砂洲酱大的面积可以有像半岛差不多大面积有多一些的政府大学USM, UTM，UPM, UM, UUM， bla bla等。。学生们是不是会有更多选择除了Unimas 以外呢？那是不是不需要出走酱远了呢?

甚至一些新一代不怎么关心甚至不理会此周遭的这课题，听了他们（almost20岁）的访问，还会为捏一把冷汗（问:“你们对这次的选举有什么看法呢？”）：“不知道，我们还不没21岁，还没当选民，我想这个年龄也不适合我们去理会。”

何须离乡背井来到异乡谋生或求学，我想如果能，没有一个希望与自己致亲爱的分隔两地吧？懵懵懂懂纯朴的砂洲人似乎意识到了不妥，此时需要吐一口气了。。。

这次的大选也是全砂历年以来或十年来最激烈，热闹，精彩，轰动，热烈的一次，几乎整个家庭总动员平时不怎么碰此块地都出来凑热闹了，M 啦，N啦，老菜，嗡，汗，等各高层领袖都出来互相凑口水，各出奇招招术来拉票。。。

哇塞。。甚至艺人力量也出动了，神木与瞳啦，光良，刘宇中，和张栋梁等人也凭凭出来凑热闹，有趣的。。邀请神木与瞳据知因砂洲出名于森里与木铜就像他们的艺名一样呢。当然，个都澄清只是要娱乐大众，并非要帮任何一方站台。。

显然地，可以看出整局当中的tension，紧张，胆俱。。

各个suara bebas 机构也凭凭出状况，
《自由砂拉越电台》，当今大马等也受到恶意干扰。。
呵呵。。极恐怖下的“火滚的茶呀”。。。

哇塞。。种种以上的资源，看来无辜老百姓的血汗钱又不知道为这场暴风雨吹走了多少了。。T.T

无论如何，愿神赐智慧给选民们在没有为谋取利益的心态，来智慧的选出适当的新一任政府，
愿神也赐智慧给新一任领袖有公正，廉洁，尽责为民服务的心。。。

Farewell。。。

2011-04-10T08:32:00.000-07:00

这整个星期都充满珍重惜别的气息，
整个星期出席了三个惜别会，
CF, 大专及沙龙组惜别会。。。

拜三参加了一下CF的惜别会就绕跑了。。。
因要去上课上到准准十一点，因Dr Choong 非常地用心，特地凑每个人的时间来帮我们补课，
所以若不去，会觉得对不起他的用心。。。
所以咯。。。

大专惜别会，
每每面对群众，老毛病总一直再犯，还是会紧张。。
分享时糊里糊涂，语无伦次，模糊不清，忘记了原本要对大家说的。。
也因自己没什么准备吧。。哎！有些失望。。
谢谢大家预备的的这惜别会。。

沙龙小组的惜别会我也被邀了，出席了。。
谢谢沙龙小组中的每一个精心预备的感动，
发现沙龙小组中有许多幽默高手叻，很可爱哟！
谢谢你们噢！真的很用心，feel到了。。
唤起自己种种美好回忆，
在分享中，也没前一天酱显得不知所措。。
的确比较舒适与较小的群体。。

若要对小瓜们或同辈说的话，就得等下几个post了。。

谢谢神一路的带领保守，把我放在这位置，就是这里巴里文打大专团契。。
相信在这里能遇到的每一个无论是大专生，auntie们，这里我所认识的每一位属这里巴里文打卫理基督教会的美娥，Grace，约翰嫂约翰兄，赞浩弟兄，jenny姐，丽秀姐，丽慧姐，美玉姐，奇智uncle，雪琴姐，翠燕姐，振庆，传道，还有许许多多的。。。都不是一个偶然，而是神在自己生命当中精心的安排，美好的联系。。
真的很高兴可以认识每一个或深或浅。。

谢谢以前与现任senior们的尽心尽力的付出，以至小妹有所学习。。
志升校长，安妮，沁梅QO，John，礼综，龙严啦，还有bla bla。。。

一些分享的话，也要继续提醒自己。。。
“多种的多收，少中的少收”，
要得着主里无论外在或心灵赏赐，就看自己如何经营了

同样，
大学当中种种美好的画面，就看自己如何运用自已的时间，精力，精神了

就像关怀也一样，
要感受到多少疼爱，要看自己付出多少关爱了，
付出的同时自己也会身同感受。。。
每个人关怀方式也不一样，所以也须体恤，毫不可一味要求周遭的人可以做到跟自己或他人一样。。就像许丹平讲师所讲的一样“你以为的，却不是他以为的”类似的话，每个人的衡量，要求或水准都不一样。。

同样地，“追求多少，得着多少”，或俗语说：“活到老，学到老”
要经历神多少，认识了解多少，就看自己追求多少了，
阿爸父，求主让孩子一定要常常保持着渴慕主话语，被语喂养的心态，毫不可有任何自满，时时保有谦卑愿意学习的心志.。。。愿神加添力量于孩子。。。

腓力比3：12-14：这不是说我已经得著了，已经完全了，我乃是竭力追求，或者可以得著基督耶稣所以得著我的。弟兄们，我不是以为自己已经得著了，我只有一件事，就是忘记背后，努力面前的，向著标竿直跑，要得　神在基督耶稣里从上面召我来得的奖赏。

这个sem，本想要付出最后的努力，
但是遗憾的，自己并没有做好，也没照顾好神的殿。。。
显然的还是会被一些东东即还是有些绑手绑脚了，亏欠了神，亏欠了人
一切所不足之处，愿神怜悯这不配得的孩子。。。

从一开始进来，祂就安排一切，到自己毕业为止，就像祂所应许的一样，祂是看顾孤儿寡妇的，自己也特别能经历祂的带领，祂的保守，祂都在为我铺路直到见祂面，就好像经文：「孤儿在祢──耶和华那里得蒙怜悯。」（何西阿书十四：3）感谢主！今天的我没穿没烂，心灵，肉体上都有吃得够，穿的暖，身上还吃出肥油了，呵呵，还有家人也一样蒙受祂的关爱，虽是tightly，但，是刚刚好好，恩典够用！

虽然面对前面的路难免会有战兢，但仍相信祂一定会带领我一关一关的走过，一直都很相信神的看顾，。。

原来。。。全球性的McDonald直到1993年在以色列才有。。。

2011-04-06T00:07:00.000-07:00

为什么呢？

哈哈。。
原来。。
因为这节经文咯！
「不可用山羊羔母的奶煮山羊羔」（出二十三19；三十四26；申十四21）

因为麦当劳的芝士汉堡包（cheeseburger）里面有牛肉，亦有芝士（奶酪），这是以色列人所不能接受的。
因为叻，现时仍有犹太人坚守这律例，不容许将奶和肉放在一起煮来吃。

这节经文若根据圣经中的历史与文化，

主要强调要用仁慈相待

用山羊羔母奶煮山羊羔，给人一种骨肉相残的感觉，为何要用残忍手段对待自己的亲人呢？杀了山羊羔还要用，山羊羔母奶去煮，所以神要求以色列人行事为人要持守仁慈以先，连对待小动物亦不例外。利未记二十二章27-28节：「才生的公牛，或是绵羊，或是山羊，七天当跟着母；从第八天以后，可以当供物蒙悦纳，作为耶和华的火祭。无论是母牛是母羊，不可同日宰母和子。」，是要以怜悯心肠相待即使是动物也不例外，更何况是人呢。

也因为当时的异教的风俗，

「山羊羔母奶煮山羊羔」（申十四21下）相信是当时的一种敬拜假神的仪式，异教徒要借着用母奶煮羊羔，献祭给他们认为是主宰生殖的神明，使田地可以肥沃。神特别禁止以色列人这样行，因为他们是「归耶和华神为圣洁的民」（申十四21上），他们必须从异教徒中分别出来，与别人不一样。

再一次提醒自己在世一方面要分别为圣，与世人不一样，也要用凡事仁慈以先来处事待人，要像耶稣一样有怜悯的心肠。

做glue就好，不要做UHU

2011-03-25T09:45:00.000-07:00

觉得人。。

总可以是可以单独或是可以成群。。
可以有适当的黏度，但又不可过黏。。
喜欢一位小瓜的形容。。
“做glue就好，不要做UHU”。。哈哈。。

这也因个人的习惯，背景而异吧。
神创造的群蚂蚁中，虽外表大同小异，但不每一只从里到外也都有自己的独特之处吗？
当仔细一分, 会发现一只有较长的antenna，一只有较短的脚, 有大只的, 有小只的...
那更何况是酱大一个神所爱的人呢？

一些人或许惯于成天成群，享受于大伙儿在一起的感觉
若是一个人行事，就会觉得徊身不自在。。
一些人或许惯于单独，纯粹惯于如此。。

当他人觉得这样那样时，
并不代表其他人也是可以“这样那样”。。
这也只是单方面主观的想法，不能套用在他人身上。。
每个人立场，想法，性格，习惯肯定是千奇百怪，另类或说独特与他人。。
也因大家五种爱的语言也不同吧。。

当然，需要适时的合群。。
因神也赐我们彼此相爱的新命令。。
若我们不能合群爱所看到的，那更何况是那所看不到的独一真神呢？

但终究，
每个人。。还是得自己面对独体的生活。。
像耶稣忙完于群众后，独自上橄榄山面对神，向神祷告一样。。

高调吗？
觉得自己的生活并不需要向人报告，潇洒地做自己要做的，你就是喜欢酱，。。
低调吗？
觉得可以随时在“群”中“沉没”，被忽视的存在
觉得只要有一两个知音就已万分感恩了。。

但，又须适可而止，凡事都必须节制。。矛盾吧？
就好像经文: 「凡较力争胜的，诸事都有节制。我是攻克己身，叫身服我。」（哥林多前书九：25上，27上）

相信每人心中都有这样的自己吧？希望有人懂，但又希望人不需要懂得这样的透彻。。不是吗？
所以就选择性，让特定的一些人懂。。
又或许，害怕自己的另类不能被常人所接受。。

神爱我们爱到妒忌的地步。。。

2011-03-05T11:04:00.000-08:00

分享一些回应朋友的问题。。

基督教强调真理的神，独一的真神。。
或许一些人会觉得是霸道。。

圣经中说神与我们的关系也像一对新郎新娘，
就好像新郎从此只属于新娘，新娘从此也只属于新郎吧。。
这是描述人类关系的最高极点了，当中的关系代表的是至真，纯洁，圣洁，对彼此的忠贞。。。
任何一方都不能忍受对方有第三者吧，我想没有一方能忍受当中有任何一方的不忠贞吧，。。。
这样的话，新郎不会能忍受新娘眼里有另外的，换句话说，也能说新郎会因不忠贞，不诚实的新娘而妒忌。。可这是因爱的妒忌。。。同样基督与我们的关系与爱的也是如此。。。

那“妒忌”在那里肯定的是并不是我们所想的“坏的妒忌”一样。。

恋爱观吗？？

2011-03-05T07:01:00.000-08:00

回应一些好奇的。。。

她的爱要是一种委身。。
她的爱要是一种舍己。。
首先，她必须学会珍惜爱惜爱的关系。。

最基本的，
她必须疼爱家人，能给于家人幸福保障以先。。。
这爱家人本是她生命中的一部分。。
必须看重神原先所赐予她的。。
委身忠心于原身家庭。。。

更重要的是这爱的源头。。
若连这基本神原先所赐本身所拥有的，
她都不能去爱祂爱他们，保护照顾好，
那谈什么要爱要给那即将成为生命中重要的一部分幸福呢？

她必须有能力去爱，有能力资格给于，供应。。。
爱里没有自私，没有惧怕。。
爱祂以至于祂爱的人。。
而更愿意爱别人多一些能多些付出。。
有了那可以给人的安全感。。。
或许那时她才有那资格考虑。。

今天许多人恋爱了，只因为突然想爱了，
只因寂寞需要有人在身边。。
或因有人追求了，或感觉来了。。
到底是否曾认真地想过为何要开始恋爱？
那委身的爱呢？
恋爱并非贪恋于那一时的快感，那一时的冲动。。
贪捏于那刻自己的感觉对了，却蒙蔽了上帝所给的灵里的“感觉”。

祂在一旁紧张地叫你别踩入前面猎人所设的陷阱，
而你此时的眼目只看到前面的诱饵，一手只想得到而去抓，
根本没理会或懒得理会祂的提醒，祂那时的招手。。。

爱并非马马虎虎。。
而必须是爱对了。。

但。。
当然。。对象必须是有感觉地她喜欢的
而这感觉是神给对了她的。。

常说你以为在菜市捡菜么，
这么容易捡，随随便便挑，一捡即中么？

恋爱没那么容易，
也没那么洒脱，
不是麻木单靠感觉，并不是一见钟情，
而是能脚踏实地的爱。。
当个忠心又良善的感情的仆人。。

爱因为神先爱我们。。。

喜欢这节基督的爱的经文。。。

“我已经与基督同钉十字架，现在活着的，不再是我，乃是基督在我里面活着；并且我如今在肉身活着，是因信神的儿子而活，他是爱我，为我舍己”(加二20)

祷告因为我渺小

2011-03-04T18:47:00.000-08:00

祷告。。因为我真的很渺小
早晨。。。感恩听着赞美之泉的Live Worship。。。
听着听着。。。一边不自觉地流泪了。。。

祷告因为我知道我需要

明掺你心意对我重要

祷告已假装不了

祷告因为你的爱我需要

你关怀我走过的你都明白

（副）有些事我只想要对你说

因你比任何人都爱我

痛苦从眼中流下我知道你为我擦

在早晨我也要来对你说

主耶稣今天我为你活

所需要的力量你天天赐给我

你恩典够我用

(结束)所需要的力量你天天赐给我(3X）

你恩典够我用

所需要的力量你天天赐给我

你恩典够我用

Tiring but enjoying cny 2011...^^

2011-02-04T10:58:00.000-08:00

First of all i wish to wish every1 here HAPPY PROSPEROUS AND BLESSED CNY
For those i have no opportunities to wish u over message or through calling, i wish to give my greatest sincere wish over here ya and beg that just don't "put it in heart" ya..^^

From the home coming days till now..

my dark eyes bag seems getting darker and bigger due 2 insufficient sleep yet it kind an enjoying, not even 5 hr daily...

(Of course not because of maniac - enjoying that feeling of not enough sleep =.=)

it rather enjoying teamwork with my family again... precious moments with family to catch up whatever i missed up over a year... hearing so many stories.. and appreciating the gatherings with all the old frenz again.. it's only once a yr.. so do the best for them all ... ya...

This year, again..
all the others incharged for cleaning my house while i incharged for the making eateries part...

Thanks Lord that HE is just so GOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDD to make me to be able to have all this wonderful time and make it again after a year..suddenly wanna sing excitedly over here that "真正好，来信耶稣真正好！。。。。。。。"荣耀归于真神他成就大事。。。。"though the lyrics seems like unrelated... >.hehe.. ^^
start 2 fly.. yoohoo...
souvenirs... some food and liquors for my lovely family... and some of the new clothes n shoes as well...
start to prepare.. under hot burning sun 1st...
big big prawn n fish crackers.... Mukah crackers are the best ever... yeah...^^
vege crackers..
small prawn crackers......
....
what's it?
got it?
it's ba gua.. 1st time making it.. with replacement of DOM for shao xin wine... but put 2 many thick dark sauce.. .. dark dark lo.. @@
fried flour for kuih bangkit or momo ...
pork floss chun juan.. others not in pics: fried seaweed popia snack with sesame n da fah you yu flavoured.... not bad with the try of that sandwiched with da fah..
this? choc moist steam cake lo..
and this? pineapple punya kulit...
peanut cookies in the process...
and this.. really hard sweated to cook the pineapple jam for feng li su (not in pic)....
deng... done lo...
this ? checker checkers....
here they're... peanut n sesame peanut cookies...^^
Denmark creamy cookies.. it's melting melting..^^
custard melting cookies...^^
coffee milky checker cookies..^^
this year succeeded.. momo milky melting...^^ fried flour 1st better..
kuih bangkit.. but not so melting...
cheese cotton n peace cake...^^
marie mocha layer, coffee vanila layer, watermelon milky layer, pepermint choc layer,choc moist cakes... ^^
yam yam.. all my home eateries.. mostly home made 1 lol... ^^

packed some for aunty n frens..

Besides making, of course got enjoying hometown fine food..

love this kong kong hot hot kompia so much..
wu wei tan

sibu cendul la.. n others my flavoured bian nv....and my lovely mum cookings ....
my younger sis made tis homemade pizza for me the day i come bak 2 penang ... touched...T.T

Besides food, most precious time with family n frenz.. many pics not with me 2.. T.T

home gatherings... 4 pretty flowers.. ^^
yam cha wif frenz...^^
tuan bai wif ex classmates...^^
wat a lovely n cute baby...

cutie doggie...
stay wif my lovely mum ^^

my lovely sis with her most loved miao...

Considered mission accomplished 80%.. but a bit "yi han" since i can't meet with some i wish to meet after a reli long time..

And now...
only able 2 pack sum cookies and cakes for frenz upon coming bak 2 campus...
bak 2 campus .. T.T

But thanks Lord enjoying lots of eatings, making n most preciously gatherings...^^

爱美需要付上代价。。。

2011-01-23T00:58:00.000-08:00

因为civil nite，所以人生第一次放纵自己去saloon 4 hair doing n make up...
哪知，账单来时吓了一跳，从原本的 RM 48 变成 RM 76，有些耿耿于怀，还真的是第一次为这方面花酱多钱,从来不舍得呢。。。T.T
这个RM76 块好大呢。。

去年的nite这方面完全没花到钱呢。。感谢朋友们愿意为我免费服务。。
RM76 可以拿来做么呢？

cons
这RM76 可以单单是自己大概两个星期在这里的温饱，也可以添加一两本书籍，或许可以买一套新年衣，或一双鞋，更多的手信给家人，或让自己参加一个营会，或一趟旅程的车费， an offering， bla bla bla。。。

pros
换回一些属于自己生命中的美好回忆的照片，给自己漂亮一次的权力吗？。。

还真的是互相效力。。。

Thx LOrd ...i'm fine

2011-01-17T02:41:00.000-08:00

While on the way back to campus from Li Hui aunty's home after the Sunday Service...

While at a junction, i stopped 2 wait 4 it to cross over when i saw a big Honda wanna turn right...

Siapa tahu that aunty in that car dunno how come didn't see me then just over cross the white line and just hit my front bike just like that..

And, that aunty just turn back and ask me whether i'm fine by a bit rudely...|||
Then, i just tell her i'm fine.. Then she flew just like that...

Fortunately, thanksful to Lord that was only a slight hit and my bike only almost fall on ground...
And now i had only a bit painful 4 my waist and slight scratch on my leg...

Otherwise, i wouldn't be able 2 see my beloved mom during this exciting cny season.. T.T

Thanksful to Lord that's nothing big deal happened to me and i still can breathe so freely...^^

Sometime, it's just wasn't our fault, but we opted to be careful anytime and anywhere while on the road for the our beloved one..

Watch up wherever u travel... ^^

A must duty...

2011-01-16T04:48:00.000-08:00

The message" It's time now" kept slipped from my mind..

With all the courage from Him and willingness..
I decided to give a hit just now...

I thought that
will be coming alone and it should be one to one..
Yet, Out of my box, HE been ready for three..

Then, it just an unexpected from original plan..
Yet, i continued it with a little bit nervous..
Thanks God that i still manage to continue it for three...

Though, there's no immediate effect...
Hopefully, it's will be effective under HIM..

The rest commended to Almighty HIM..

Dear Lord.. hope that HE will conduct a miracle about it..

期待回家。。。

2011-01-10T16:27:00.000-08:00

已经大概一年没回家了。。。
当走在shopping mall 或扭开收音机，已可以听到新年歌四处响起，心情就像乐坏了的小孩开始兴奋起来，因这意味着回家团聚的日子近了，期待回家见家人。。

上个星期，与朋友们到槟岛找购，虽没买到要买的，最后大家都非常疲惫但享受在当中。
途中，大家疯狂地听着用我手机开的新年歌，整车的人又闹翻了，有说有笑，大家也都被那喜悦的歌感染了，不亦悦乎，哈哈。。
我们几个好久没一起去槟岛了。。

不知家里的人改变了许多吗？那几只冬瓜长成怎样了，又变高，长大了吗？老妈子常常在电话投诉你们ler。。家里思念的女神是否苍老了许多，又在消瘦了许多呢？姐姐最近一直complaint说她肥了，到了发福的年龄。。哈哈。。到底肥了多少呢？还有长不大的瘦瘦的大孩子到底怎样了呢？

你们可知道我的思念呢？

为了奖赏这思念，这一年里不断地将我的旅行箱塞得满满的le，里面装着精心挑选每人的包括衣啦，鞋啦，裤啦，还有去langkawi买的酒啦，很多很多的巧克力等等啦。。。哈哈。。
看来带不了多少自己的东东了，还蛮担心它会被charge ler。。

每每回到家看到他们兴奋地找着为他们挑选的手信，自己也会满足地同与他们分享那心情，嘻嘻。。

Bek tahan... = =

2010-12-26T21:34:00.000-08:00

haiz。。。
真的很不能忍受一个思想完全不成熟而且凡事为己，不理他人死活。。
自我中心，自私自利，己所欲为，不知量力，物质欲强的人。。。

也不知道x1x到底要酱到几时？
也不知道为什么会有酱一个真的不可爱，难顶的头号人物冒出在生命中。。
明白上帝要我们彼此都需要从这头号人物学习许多特别是爱这门难学爱的功课。。

讲归讲，知道归知道，
软弱的人但面对起来又是另一回事，
明白不可酱，

但始终，
失望已经是数不清的次数了，
烂摊子也已经是数不清了，
机会一次一次地给，愿意选择一次又一次地相信，
每一次，一次的一次都以失望收场，心不停不停地冷到极点。。。

上帝啊，到底要拿x1x怎么办呢？

另一方面，
x2x却用尽心思在当中维持，用尽生命的全部凡事须顾及大全，
扛下几乎所有重担，哽咽却连辛苦也不能坑一声，
甚至需要赔上自己青春年华，想飞的理想也抛在一边，
以直一切需要至比较安稳。。
以直无力感陆续地涌入，提不起劲去理会x1x。。
为的是什么？

为什么x1x可以这样的没有责任感？不能体贴x2x的含辛茹苦？
帮忙分担些该有的负担？少制造一些不成熟的烂摊子？

两个天差地远的极端。。。
矛盾。。。

愿神怜悯孩子的批评，约伯般的埋怨。。。

明白。。

2010-12-16T00:52:00.000-08:00

明白。。

若在人前落泪倾诉，
对一个平时为坚强的人
或保护层比较厚的。。
是需要何等大的勇气。。。

要不，通常会自己一个人在角落里伤心压抑失声痛哭，
不会轻易让人看到自己像玻璃易碎的一面。。
除非眼前这位是为自己最为放心，信任的。。

若不然，
就选择任由他/她向其他熟悉信任的人倾诉。。
别强迫他/她所不愿意向你诉说的事，
因你没能给他/她如此的信任，
你也真的没能做什么。。

让静一静整理心情也好，

曾经，
一位好友在自己面前在电话中放声痛哭倾诉，
以至自己的情绪也一样一起低沉伤痛起来，
清清楚楚明白体会那种伤痛的感觉，
要不是相信得过，友也不会在自己面前这样的彻底裂肺般的痛哭。。

回想若当时，
自己若不是透过电话而是活生生的在友面前，
自己也是无能为力，除了陪友哭，听友倾诉，完全也不晓得要怎么办。。

而非能像透过电话，
还能说些有些理智安抚的话。。

也深深经历，
在一旁痛哭抹干眼泪后，眼泪还是不听使唤地又流了下来，
但，这眼角的泪终究还是被神抹干了。。
虽然很多的不知道，不明白。。

消沉，也不宜太久，
但，日子久了，时候到了，
祂自己亲自让我明白，知道祂要我体会，经历，学习的。。
並且亲自带领我走出来，并结出生命的果实。。

深深体会，
罗马书第8章28节说：“我们晓得万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处，就是按他旨意被召的人。”

也相信每个人都有属于自己可以作为聆听的对象。。

祂也永远是自己最的忠实的聆听者，
让祂亲自来抹干眼角的泪的同时自己也要走出来。。

I told my fren...

2010-12-16T00:26:00.000-08:00

My fren told me that this lately he's broke with the energy n money with the youths..
But he enjoyed so much with them and gain the relationship between them
Great to hear that they enjoyed so much over there then

Then i told him:
" Money can be regained, Energy can be restored, but those happy moment will never be back again"

Because those precious moment only can be bear in memory now...^^

笑的艺术。。

2010-12-12T18:30:00.000-08:00

笑可以是发至内心的哈哈大笑因很开心
笑可以单纯的笑也没特别意思
笑可以一个人傻笑，呆笑因那时的喜悦
笑可以是简单的无厘头地狂笑，以至标出眼泪。。

笑可以是一种真心，u really mean it..
笑可以是一种诚意，真的诚恳
笑可以是一种尊重，或礼貌的回礼
笑可以是嘴角微微上扬，因心里的平安和喜乐。
喜乐的心乃良药，忧伤的灵使骨枯干。箴17:22
笑可以很仁爱，友善，慈祥（圣经里主耶稣的笑就是酱的，而这多数只能从老前辈的脸上发出，因他们吃盐比我们吃米多）

笑可以亦笑非笑因无奈或不知所措
笑可以是“呵呵”因尴尬地笑
笑可以很滑稽，娱乐他人自己
笑可以为软化当时的tension，纠纷
笑可以是很愚蠢，自己讲，别人不笑自己笑

笑可以是狂笑但眼角的眼泪却是直往肚子里留（所谓的欲哭无泪）
笑可以皮笑肉不笑，掩饰内心的不安，恐惧
笑可以是伪装的笑，掩饰自己的脆弱
笑也可能奸笑，鄙视地笑
笑也可能是笑里藏刀

笑可以这么的简单，也可以这么的复杂。。

当用心体会。。
若今天，
看前眼前的人不寻常地狂笑，
或不寻常的笑不出来时，
那真的是大事不妙了！
请用用真诚的心，动动你的脑筋，伸出对他/她关怀的双手！

无论得时或不得时，再一次提醒自己要用笑容迎接每一天！

Bat....

2010-11-25T01:18:00.001-08:00

Some bats eat insects, some bats eat fruits, some suck blood to survive,, it's a mammalia...
Unfortunately, this type of bat sucking for blood..
This bat grew physically but definitely not mentally...

It's an adult physically, yet still behave and act like a baby needing a nanny to take care of its everything from food, wingfit, shelf and moving..
It never struggle to get food yet still need feeding from his mama though it's mature enough to move freely to search for food..
Just sucking blood daily from its own type... making em thin n thinner

It never want to leave it's comfort shelf....
It never think for others...
It never wanna feeding for it's mama nor for it's types...
It never know how small is it's world..
It just want to live selfishly in it's own shelf by taking advantages over others..
It just wait to be fed rather than to feeding...

It just hide beneath it's mama once chaos came
Then all came to tackle em...
It just take for granted indeed..

It just so angry when others do touch it's "wings"...
Yet, it never realise that it touch others everytime indeed ...
Or it simply just so so selfish..
It lives in it's cowardly world without wanna stepping out...
Or it simply just so so lazy for..

It never think of what it will be if without it's mama n others...
It just a pity bat cannot fly and survive by it's own even with wings grew

Aiks。。。This bat is bad...
It just like a vampire live in the night sucking for blood from others!

Can just give it a hit to make it awake?

" I did it all right "

2010-11-15T03:29:00.000-08:00

A movie "Million Dollar Baby"...
After my nightmares of terrible finals,
though got enjoyed drama and movie in my room usually..

but
it been long 4 me enjoying such a really meaningful movie cox nowadays the movies made only for selling points and in really low Q, not worth...

watched a movie " Million Dollar Baby", it's quite an old movie downloaded from USM sharers..^^ It's about the characters inside of Frankie, Mr Scrap and Maggie.
it's neither comedy nor a romantic story, indeed..
it's an rather an action, boxing or a girl fighter, a relationship valued story
it didn't end with a perfect happily ending, rather a sad ending..
but i found it somehow a really messaging and meaningful.

The story comes with a 31 yrs girl (i rather called her girl than woman), Maggie or Mary M found her new aim in life after working as a waitress for almost 10++ yrs, where she needs to serve her family since her mom is a widow and she really loved her and family...

Then she met Frankie, an experienced boxer's trainer which do not train girl...
She insisted Frankie to train her.. Somehow, he also accepted her as from her persistance spirit of not knowing the term "giving up"

Then, start the girl's training and fighting days from little little her and becoming somebody.
The girl doesn't care so much about her needs but rather care about her family. She is most enjoying her young moments rather with her daddy..

A scene where she worked so hard, then earning enough as a fighter then she is so excited to show her mom her gift with Frankie - a house but she is disappointed in the return as her mom didn't appreciate her hard works at all, but rather end up with lots of complaints, worrying welfare things, maintenances and so on..

It made me thought of whether am i used to complaints like the old mom too much when i was given with a gift and provided sufficiently daily instead? Then making others been hurted and self as well?

The story goes on to it's climax where she met a champion competition with the opponent of world champion "Blue Billy", famous with a dirty records.. Maggie didn't work out as a champion this time and she been knocked down and lied in the hospital the rest of her time ..

Another scene in the hospital..
She blaming herself instead for didn't follow the leason that Frankie used to emphasis to her and talked like just to himself "Protecting urself everytime". She said," I shouldn't drop down my hand, i should have turn back" there on the bed...

But.. now it's just too late..
Sometime, it just too late the moments for us to regret for what we done.. Maggie didn't blame her opponent "Billy" not even a word but instead herself...
Am i used to blame other at the 1st place when things goes so wrong? But it rather our action lead to responsibility in many times?

Then.. Frankie continued to take care of comma Maggie in the hospital endlessly... Frankie never give up Maggie life but Maggie give up this time requesting Frankie to end her life. Since Frankie refused, she did in her own ways now trying to end her life bitting her tongue.

When Frankie in the deep regret and blaming himself for shouldn't have trained Maggie at the very 1st place.. The very wise character, old blackie man, Mr Scrap used to tell Frankie that "People washing dish and mopping floor, at the end of the day, they died" and said "i never get the shot"
"I did it all right" should be instead. Frankie provided Maggie her shot.

Am i knowing and getting my real "shot" in life?

Then... Frankie return to the hospital and end her life by injecting adrenaline..

Confliction of religion here too:
When a comma person insist to end life (commiting suicide) but not with her own ability, but requesting others to do so, or rather been killed by another person under her own permission,
is that the sin of "killing" is belonged to that person (Frankie) when meeting with heavenly father in the end of the days?

Of course, i strongly do not agree the act of killing one's and commit suicide in the story.
Since killing ourself meaning killing HIM for me since our body is now HIS temple..
and JESUS said:" I am the resurrection and life". No one have right taking life now...

I hope that "i did it all alright" for all my decisions instead cos every1 should be responsible for what we done instead... I hoped that one day when i met HIM at the gate, i can proudly said," I did it all right."
Pure mindset or motive leads to decisions, decision leads to action, then actions leads to wrongful and right of an event.. it's a cyclic process^^

And what i liked about the following quotes in the dialogues:
"Tough ain't enough"
"Sometime there's nothing that u can do"
"But stepping too far, u ain't fight at all"
"Anybody can loss one fight"

放话以先。。。

2010-11-15T02:11:00.001-08:00

很多事,
尤其那属自己本身所舒适的,
害怕被人侵袭,

就会先前,
大声放话以先,
这番话或许有些难听，
但,还是毫不犹豫，咬紧牙根，绝情地放话了,
越是难听，
越可以吓一吓,

就好像，安置一颗地雷在地上，
当对方前往而来时，踩到了，
就会震一震,
犹豫了,原地就步，不敢乱动
不能往前一步,
也不敢再进攻了,

因。。
你也毫无意无力出属于自己的安全堡垒,
仍稳稳地住在里面,
继续无需想或顾虑太多,
安稳地尽守你的本分,
做本来负重担在身上的使命...

一首非常好的詩-孩子

2010-11-12T00:57:00.000-08:00

黎巴嫩詩人紀伯倫有一首非常好的詩：

你的孩子不是你的孩子，他們是生命自己的孩子。

他們透過你來到這個世界，他們卻不屬於你。

你可以給他們你的愛，卻不能給他們你的思想，

因為他們有他們自己的思想。

你可以提供他們身體的住屋，卻不能替他們的靈魂找房子，

因為他們的靈魂住在明日之屋，那是你即使在夢中也無法到達的地方。

你可以努力像他們一樣，但是千萬不要使他們像你一樣，

因為生命是無法逆轉的，更不能被昨日的你所耽擱。

P/s:重要的属神的孩子最蒙爱的^^ 。。。

=.=

2010-11-03T09:25:00.000-07:00

就像恋爱
当你接受对方成为男/女朋友的同时
他/她与你的关系从此就变为更亲密了吧
在生活中也少不了他/她的存在了吧

难道你还是会一样像以往这么洒脱的，我行我素，活出一向来的风范吗？
难道你还是会霸住自己的那专属时间吗
还是愿意，腾出多一些自己的时间，成为二人时间
彼此迁就，彼此割舍所爱，与他/她同甘共患
活出的并不再是以前的自己，而是努力为现在的双方而活出。。

这也就是委身了吧。。。

对于基督的爱，也不是该如此吗？

“我已经与基督同钉十字架，现在活着的，不再是我，乃是基督在我里面活着；并且我如今在肉身活着，是因信神的儿子而活，他是爱我，为我舍己”(加二20)

还是，

每当愿意的时候，很空闲时，就来理一下祂。。
忙的时候，就对祂say sorry说：
“对不起，考试了，我很忙，袮给我多些时间，我要享受一下我自己忙碌的时间，这个时间没办法给袮！”

嘴巴却是理所当然，甚至还理直气壮地说：“总的来说，我知道自己对谁负责就行了。。”

而明显地，
那行动都已表露出你那不愿意忠于的那心态了吧！

难道当他/她有需要的时候，
你会对他/她说：
“你hold 住下先，等我忙完再来找你哟。。。”
（还是会放下你手头上的事务先？）

你的优先次序也在此表露了吧。。。

若是男女关系像酱子，肯定没有办法持久吧，
更何况你与那亲密的祂呢？

更无奈的是，
在不愿意付出的情况下，也少于花那时间精力一同经营，
开始下定论，说被忽略等。。
关系的建立，显然的并不是单方面的，而是双方面才会建立那互动。。

当然，

仍然承认自己还是太不足，无法做到弥美状态
愿神怜悯，补足那缺乏不足的地方。。。

林前十五58
所以，我亲爱的弟兄们，你们务要坚固，不可摇动，常常竭力多做主工，因为知道你们的劳苦，在主里面不是徒然的。

平衡点？？？

2010-10-29T09:30:00.000-07:00

就像一把秤。。。
秤的一边若是只要稍微多了一点或是重了一点，
或另一边那么的稍微少了些轻了些，
整把秤就一边高一边低，失去了那平衡。。。

物极必反这原理
秤也去了那基本的用途，衡量。。

基本。。但。。。
往往最最难可以做到，
或难以拿捏的恰恰好吧。。

应怎样在一边稍微倾斜了一些,
就能立刻将它稍稍的拉回平衡线?

忧愁困扰中，
如何抽离，以不至于消沉在当中?
若继续的沦落下去，
就很难抽离那状况了。。。
反之，能有可颗喜乐平安的心？

兴奋或高兴时（或SS），
该怎样让自己不over limit，
而非得意忘形，以至悄悄形成傲慢，炫耀等？
反之，能降于谦卑而也并非自卑

言语中，
怎样不太多话但又不是静默？
话语中有重点但又不是严肃,沉闷,乏味
不多废话但不能少了一些些的它（指的是幽默，当然是要有营养的^^）。。。

忙碌当儿，
怎样给自己他人更多空间时间？
贪念于自己的时间同时，
不吝啬于给于他人时间
（当然，重要的还是能继续与神能保持美好关系）

分析情况或聆听是，
该如何做到以客观及主观立场
中立于那情况？

承担时，
如何尽力尽量而又能
看看自己的能力范围极限，量力而为？
亦非螳螂挡车?

热心忠于事奉同时,
也不完全在学业方面失去激发动力
(因在职学生也是神赐于我们的本分),
也知道有取也比有舍,
如何能取和舍的恰恰适当呢?

往前不顾一切冲时，不忘往后面看看有否遗漏，
甚至重新clear一下checklist？
走得太快时，能顿一顿自己的步伐？
平稳一下原本的呼吸，心跳？

但，事奉的道路上往往不能平衡
要完全舍弃自己的一切，
让主来用。。

这一切都好考智慧噢，
愿神赐智慧。。。

It's all coming back to me now...

2010-10-26T07:36:00.000-07:00

Suddenly remember of Celine Dion's song

It's here again...

I called it coffee days..

Indeed.. i do enjoy coffee very much once upon a time but not so frequent...

over limit with coffee consumptions,

2 or 3 cups "gau gau" per day...

tonnage of works but still manage to "stealing the time" many time

like lively vampire...

Tidur tak lalu, makan yet still of course masih lalu...

Afraid, alert of it..

But.. however...

still going to be through..

事奉动机重要还是装备？

2010-10-21T01:44:00.000-07:00

当然。。。动机重要。。
当然事奉丝毫不可少掉与神之间亲密的关系，与神的经历，
但，我们所经历的和与神之间所建立的关系也并非一朝一夕的吧，

若是嫩的单单以一颗清洁的良心愿意来事奉，敬拜神，何不能让他们有开始事奉的第一步？若是他们的辈份，属灵经历不如那些很稳重来得强就disqualify他们，那会否剥夺了那每个信徒都该享有那事奉的机会了呢？
事奉强调的并非参与感而是愿意顺服，谦卑，愿意服事的心。
事奉前，当然需要很严肃的确认动机，他们与神间的重要关系，被教导该有事奉的心态。

当然，台前事奉也是以祭司代表人向神，以先知代表神向人的身份，一嫩一老的配搭为比较佳，我们很多也是因前辈给与这事奉的机会，给予正确的事奉心态，以至我们有这机会事奉主吧？后现代的信徒每天的生活中随时随刻都有着这祭司，先知的身份，而也无需在某个时刻凸显祭司或先知的身份，是吧？
以上纯粹个人意见。。。^^

说话时。。。

2010-10-06T03:54:00.000-07:00

说话和聆听是两者都有着美妙的相系，彼此都分不开。。。

当要发表意见时，有耐心地让对方把话说完吗？
没能将他人的话听入耳？
主观的表达自己意见的同时，
也能否客观的同时聆听？
是否有给机会他人说先？

还是，迫不及待的先将自己的立场，想法，意见，滔滔不绝，一口气说完？
还是，将别人的话当耳边风？
还是，处处打断他人要说的？

也盼望不是如经上“鸣的锣和响的钹”一样

箴15:2 智能人的舌，善发知识；愚昧人的口，吐出愚昧。
箴18:13 未曾听完先回答的，便是他的愚昧，和羞辱。
雅1:19 我亲爱的弟兄们，这是你们所知道的；但你们各人要快快的听、慢慢的说、慢慢的动怒。
哥罗西书4：6 你们的言语要常常带著和气，好像用盐调和，就可知道该怎样回答各人。

喜欢有一句话，
话多不如话少，话少不如话好，最好的话就是代祷。
愿神怜悯我们每个，节制舌头上在表达，耳朵在聆听，所不足的地方。。

岁月逝去的感动。。。

2010-09-26T19:30:00.000-07:00

生日那天，
大学最后一年的生日，
谢谢大家的记得，出席，陪伴，安排。。
很谢谢很谢谢大家的心意，
谢谢大家的用心，

二妹也与我同月同日不同年生日，神的安排很奇妙吧！
我家里是没有特别庆祝生日的，
当然小时候，会羡慕那些可以有自己生日派对的朋友们，
很多小朋友的出现，很多礼物，还有蛋糕，
家里的生日在印象中都平平过，有时甚至忘记，
记得的是17岁那年，姐买了我生日的第一个生日蛋糕，

忘记什么时候懂事开始，
晓得生日其实也没什么大不了，
生日是要记得妈妈怀胎我十月，
经过百般的痛楚，才有了我，
让后，接下来的日子，痛楚几乎并没有减少，
又要接下来忍受我成长过程中的种种，无理取闹，脾气等。。。
然后又经过百般辛苦，含辛茹苦的养育我长大。。
期间一定会拨很多电话回家听听特别是妈妈的声音，家人的声音

要以一颗感恩的心再一次提醒自己别得意忘形。。。

大学期间，上帝满满的祝福将我带入了不一样的环境，
虽没能与家人一起，却能与一大帮的朋友们一起，
感恩的心没有减少，反而要一天比一天增多了。。。^^

第一年大学生日，
记得团契之后大家带我去autocity的McD庆祝，
那次是第一次这么多人出现在我生日中，
有了生平中第二个生日蛋糕，许了愿，感恩。。
清纯第一年的我们。。。haha^^

女孩们，也骑着脚踏车第一次到聚水轩，
因那时我们都没有车或电单车。。
蛮怀念当时大家可以单纯地一起骑脚踏车的感觉。。。
怀念当时我们很频密的聚一聚，
吃了那里的红酒面线，黑芝麻。。。
回去的路上，还发生一些好笑的回忆

记得当时的那感动，大伙儿一起玩乐，不亦悦乎。。。^^

第二年大学生日，
大伙儿在祷告会后，
以妮来我房间叫我开窗，
非常非常大帮的人马（比起第一年更来势汹汹 - 人数最多的一次噢）出现在我宿舍前，
下去宿舍，大家用生日歌砸我，沁梅那时还拿着吉他弹着生日歌。。。哈哈
大家还被penggawa骂，complaint，
觉得很亏欠，让大家被骂，
在那一刻，换上重新的一个心情，
感动以至于说不出话来，
记得那一天其实自己有些事有些不愉快，想静一静，
小组也打算一起吃饭帮我庆祝，
结果被我用一些理由躲避了，

那一年，女孩们简单地抽时间聚一聚，
一起在riyas mamak 档喝茶了。。。

第三年大学生日，
忙得不可开交的一年，
小组在雪琴家姐门训的聚会帮我庆祝了，
雪琴姐还特别为我们预备了她拿手地pizza，红豆汤，还有sparkling juice，
还记得那聚会门训是沁梅带饶恕课题。。
之后匆匆忙忙提早走人，载着人因要回去上课了。。

那一年，女孩们再次简单地在Riyas mamak 档凑一凑，
当时的肚皮几乎要撑破了，
满桌的食物都是不相信女生们叫得，
太不可思议了，六个人的食量。。哈哈
可爱的罗希小组。。。^^谢谢你们的陪伴哟。。。

第四年大学生日，
生日在raya假期中度过，
也不晓得团契从哪里凑人
意想不到有这么多人帮我庆生，
第一炮12准时在riyas喝茶，
第一次收到生日冰淇淋。。。哈哈
谢谢ah John。。。

第二炮在聚水轩喝茶，
当中里有新的旧的契友，
感恩这一年第一次收到好多礼物，
有chocolate，bear，cards，
balloons，还有Nelly的经文笔记本，
还有女生们简单的芝麻粉。。。hehe

还有家人远寄而来的，
当中还有很多的意外惊喜。。。
今年的恩典很多。。。感恩哟。。第一个生日bear唷，还有chocolate bar，谢谢阳少，第一年可爱的刚瑜，张雍和民胜噢。。。 ^^

Ah John 的 Drum-stick
女孩们的芝麻粉。。。^^
翠燕姐爱的书签+chocolate。。。
丽凤杰的自作爱的卡片+吊饰。。。好喜欢。。^^

感恩神把我放在这大学中，
感动的是主让我大学每一年都有一个美丽的蛋糕，
感动的是主让我能拥有这美好珍贵的回忆，
感动的是主每一次生日moment，都把不一样的感动，
不一样或一样的人带给我，
感动的是祂随时差派祂不一样的天使在不一样的时刻，地点，状态，出现在我周围
感谢神祂大力的看顾保守，
让我有种种美好回忆。。。^^

义人

2010-09-24T19:41:00.000-07:00

在网上游着游着去找些义人的definition，希望有所帮助。。。

then，找到

《圣经》中的义人

概述

　　"义人", 在圣经里, 原则上指的, 不是一个人的道德行为怎样好, 那只是他的"果", 其"因"那在于此人是跟神有"约"的关系在先的. 也就是说, 一个人因"信"神, 因此导致他会遵守神的律法. "义人"乃是圣经以一个人的外表现, 来说明他的内在信心的真实性, 也即谓: 他的信是活泼的信, 是有生命的信, 是实实在在的信, 即雅各书所指出的信. 其"义", 不是建立在他遵守律法之上, 而是表现于愿意遵行律法一事上.

《圣经》中的相关论述

　　义人行为正直，做事公义，心里说实话。

　　义人以耶和华为产业。

　　义人必在义中见神的面。

　　义人手洁心清、不向虚妄、起誓不怀诡诈。

　　义人舌头不出恶言，离恶行善，寻求和睦。

　　义人多有苦难，但耶和华救他脱离这一切。

　　义人施恩与人、借贷与人，倚靠耶和华，一心坚定，不怕凶恶的信息。

　　义人默然倚靠耶和华，耐性等候；止住怒气，心情平静。

　　义人行事公义，说话正直，憎恶欺压的财利，摆手不受贿赂，塞耳不听流血的话，闭眼不看邪恶事的。

　　义人行公义，好怜悯，存谦卑的心。

　　义人专心仰赖耶和华，不倚靠自己的聪明，在一切所行的事上都认定他。

　　义人保守心，除掉邪僻的口，眼目向前正看。

　　义人喜悦幼年所娶的妻，心不可偏向淫妇的道。义人不责备亵慢人。

　　义人的口是生命的泉源。

　　义人敬畏耶和华。

　　义人的勤劳致生；恶人的进项致死（箴言10:16）。

　　义人谨守训诲的。

　　义人恒心为义，必能得人。

　　义人因知识得救。（箴言11：9）

　　义人必发旺如青叶。（箴言11：28）

　　义人喜爱管教。

　　义人耕种自己田地。

　　义人敬畏诫命。

　　义人步步谨慎。

　　义人的智慧，在乎明白己道。

　　耶和华远离恶人，却听义人的祷告（箴言15:29）。

　　义人的祷告大有能力。（雅各书5：16）

　　义人远离纷争。

　　义人谦卑。

　　义人通达人见祸藏躲。

　　义人管教孩童。

　　义人不劳碌求富。

　　义人怜悯贫穷。

　　义人跌倒必兴起。

　　义人不与反覆无常的人结交。

　　义人不说：“人怎样待我，我也怎样待他，我必照他所行的报复他。” （箴言24:29）

　　义人不自以为有智慧，不为明日自夸。

　　义人说话从容，忍气含怒。

　　义人亲善厌恶，热心爱人，不以恶报恶，反为逼迫自己的祷告、祝福，不心高气大，常常喜乐，尽力与众人和睦，恭谨人，彼此推让。

　　义人无所挂虑，婚居的好象没有婚居，置买的好象没有置买。

　　义人四面受敌，却不被困住；心里作难，却不至失望；遭逼迫，却不被丢弃；打倒了，却不至死亡。身上常带着耶稣的死，使耶稣的生也显明在他们身上

一份家里的感动。。。

2010-09-22T09:29:00.000-07:00

拜一早上，很兴奋地去从友人那里拿妈妈托他带回来的一份包裹，

打开包裹，里面装着五样东东，
1.里面装着因要送给人所以叫妈妈买的家乡寿面，
2.妈妈姐姐妹妹她们还特地在里面装了两粒月饼，
（前一晚电话中好笑的是妈妈说这里的月饼味道应该跟诗巫的不一样，也怕我吃不到月饼，嘻嘻。。我告诉她说我们拜六那天教会也有庆中秋，也有很多月饼，也吃了很多，她说那就好）

3.还有只有诗巫有的独特的一包只有在中秋节吃的饼，
我们也叫它月饼,可是是由猪油所制成的cookies，有圆有方块的，好像也叫苏晶饼

4.里面还有一张家人们一起动手动笔的生日卡片，
5.还有一双很可爱很可爱姐送的拖鞋。。。

大学这么多年，还是第一次，在中秋在生日期间收到家里的礼物。。

看了看手上的卡片，里面有家里每个家人爱的留言，
每一个感动，每一个关心，每一个爱心
在那里傻笑了起来，

再拿着那双很不可思议的拖鞋礼物，
它太过可爱了。。。好像很不搭我。。
在这里似乎无它用武之地吧（因不可能穿出街，也不能穿进出厕所，房间也没用到）
自己一个人在房间里哈哈大笑了好久（还好roomate不在^^），
笑因为

很开心。。。很窝心。。。很感动。。。

很感恩上帝把家里每一个人直到今天都照顾得好好的，
阿爸父也知道我这块心里的石头是我永远最重的，祂一定会帮我分担的，帮我拿的。。
哈哈。。。卡片卡片。。。第一次收到家人的卡片。。

满满的留言。。。还有blueberry cheese蛋糕呢。。kawaii。。T.T

还有还有。。。这个。。。应该会被我藏进了箱子。。hehe。。^^

很谢谢你们每一个心意噢。。。感谢主，主会继续带领我们度过每一天的。。^^

钓鱼

2010-09-22T09:16:00.000-07:00

Peng用手点XXX肩膀：“XXX...........不要在那里钓鱼了咯...."
XXX惊醒：“我钓到一只大白鲨咯！”

人间有情。。

2010-09-17T09:32:00.000-07:00

打工那几天，
看到蛮多的
特别是从阿雯妈妈的确看见很多，
有时自愧觉得自己这基督徒都不如一位非信徒，

那里经过我们档子的人来来往往，也有许许多多的外劳

本地客人的声音order时总是大声些，
不客气的眼神，

但，
当然也有很有礼貌的人
反而多数的小朋友（特别是malay的）比起大人更会说起谢谢来，

不一样的客人有不一样的要求，
有的order waffle要涂多多，有的要涂少一些，

当中觉得一些印度人会较挑剔较凶些，
每每涂酱to waffle时，还没涂完，他们会要求涂多多的

而也有少数的外劳客人，
他们多数来买冰淇淋，
从他们的眼中，可以看那看到他们的不安，
有些恐惧的眼神，目光幽忧看着我们，
毕竟离乡背井来到我们的国土，
同我们站在同块地却以不一样的身段，
须处处放下自己，说话也颇为小声，
甚至以客人的身份来光顾时也显得十分惊心，

做生意的人，
总会从中取得最高的利益，
以能省则省的手段，以最少的成本获得最高的利益，

但雯雯妈妈却很不一般地，
如：每每搽waffle酱时都会搽到它的空洞都看不见，
bubble tea powder 2 小匙变 2 大大汤匙，
sweet corn 也溢满出来，drink又少放冰。。。
ice-cream加free的chocolate syrup, rice or peanut(她说本来是要加钱的）
她每次笑笑说放多一点不要紧，反正是老板的，不管它
如果老板知道的话就惨了。。

雯雯妈妈看到外劳时，
会告诉我说他们如何如何的可怜
他们来光顾时，会说：“要给他们大大一点哦!"
她总会把冰球滚得很大很大粒，
好像一个scope变成很多个scope一样，
接着，我也学她一样，
然后再附加一个谢谢+友善的笑容。。 ^^

所以咯，他们很喜欢来我们的摊子买ice-cream。。

还有几次，没什么顾客时，或快关摊子时，
雯雯妈妈特地叫我做waffle给正在扫地的Pakis工人
她说他每次都帮她扫地，以前他比较胖些，现在较瘦了，
另一个就瘦巴巴的，
我就涂很多很多的酱，以致看不到任何洞，把waffle拿去递给他，
他伸手接着waffle后，就拿到一边的角落吃，

然后也有注意到，他们特别会帮忙我们打扫我们摊子的周围
好像你敬我，我也敬你几分，
大家此时以彼此尊敬，和睦工作。。。

在阿雯妈妈身上看到
她有颗很有怜悯的心，
她也非常的勤力，开摊到收摊，她似乎分秒不曾停过手

身为基督徒的我们，到底有多少个，
可以有这样怜悯的心对待我们周围的人呢？
还是像一般商人一样，
想尽办法，要从他人身上收取利益，凡是斤斤计较呢？

求神怜悯我们。。

可怜的家伙。。

2010-09-15T22:29:00.000-07:00

正在预备这拜五箴言查经资料，
那本书写着：

有一个人掉进黑暗深渊里，他试着自己爬出来却无能为力。
孔子经过，他看到那人在深渊里就说：“可怜的家伙，假如听我的教导，他就不会掉进去。”
然后离去。

佛祖经过看到那人就说：“可怜的家伙，若他能爬上这里（自己修炼），我愿意帮助他。”
他也离去了。

后来基督来到说：“可怜的家伙！”，他就跳下深渊帮助他爬出来。

my waffle days.. ^^

2010-09-15T05:32:00.000-07:00

During my raya holiday..

actually i reached campus by last thurs 1 after going to Ipoh, Taiping then Setiawan..
but immediately after i reached my room a while, i received my fren's msg asking me whether i wan 2 hav the part time job selling waffles at econsave at kamunting there..

i hesistated since i just reach my room at that moment..
then since my laptop still in "operation room"
then i decided 2 earn little pocket money
to cover back my expenses during the trips...

RM 50 per day from 10am till 11pm.. still ok ba..

Then started my 3 days of waffle days..
selling sweet fresh corns, ice-cream, drinks, bubble teas, and of course waffles...^^

The bus schedule fr PB to kamunting or taiping..

early in the morning as early as 6.45am something on friday morning at bus stn.. zzz

going and back by old old onimbus.. RM5.20 per trip.. air conditioned RM5.60

my 3 days working waffle stall inside econsave kamunting...

wen wen so hospitalized mom.. treating me meals... and she's really hardworking and geng as well, able 2 work like machine non-stoply...
Expressing my deepest gratitude to wen wen and her parents as well here.. THX SO SO MC^.^
she just keep moving on and on without stoping even for a second till the stall been closed down by 11pm... so geng.. pei fu pei fu..

the bubble tea ingredients, ice-cream, drinks...

excited doing my customer's waffle with their flavours.. the most popular's peanut butter + choc0 ... the flavours available.. pineapple, choco, peanut butter, butter, strawberry, kaya, blueberry, and honey..
i like blueberry + choco and oso the famous 1... kaya+peanut oso nt bad :)
after finished applying then cut and packaging into plastic..

the waffle machine... 3.3 minutes per waffle..b4 ta pouring the mixture..
must mix with the ready mixed flour with 10 eggs, 1.8 litre water and 180ml oil per package of flour...

"Tippp" crispy waffle done... hoho ^.^

sweet corn by mixing butter and same salt (4or5 pinchs per cup)

making my own mocha bubble tea...mixed specially with goat milk...yummy.. enjoy it..

The stall opposite of us.. papparoti
what i found the price's list is funny like the mutiple of maths during our primary sc.. hehe..

The big big watch of the watch stall beside us... :P

well, i enjoyed the days though it's really tiring cox can't even stop for a second..
like playing the Diner Dash in real...
really need to speed up when tackling a big volume of customers sometime even taking order of 10 pieces in 1 time...

sometime, rushing kelam kabutly here and there when all the orders of corns, ice-cream, drinks, collecting $$ come by once
The RM150 is hard 2 be earned as well..
it's really hard "sweated" money...

They joked that now i become expect in making waffles now and can open my own stall one day..
i just smile...

i enjoyed having all the sweet food by making my own 1
ice-cream waffles, mixing differ flavour of waffle, making my own honey-dew and mocha bubble tea and sweet corns

indeed, labour type of work and mentally consuming type both having pros and cons...
either physically or mentally tiring..

which 1 do u prefer ?

小小羊儿

2010-09-14T01:38:00.000-07:00

上一次，
在小组查经或门训特别是刚过了门训，
特别是须要翻很多的经文时，
看见每一个1st yr 的juniors在翻经文时，
需要很久的时间才能翻到，也需要refer回目录，
那时，心里有说不出的滋味来，
心里也有些着急，

看来这些junior们，还真像刚刚从母胎出世的小小羊儿呀！

担心地是
这些小小羊儿毫无意识
他们所处在的是一个怎样危险的环境呀，
一个不小心就跌入了猎人所布的陷阱或入了凶猛狼口，

挂忧地是
看守的小小牧羊人的重担+责任又加重了，
小小牧羊人要尽量尽神所托付的职责，
照顾好，保护，看好这些羊群们，
也不要让其中一只迷失了，
这极不易呀！

庆幸地是
羊儿们有一颗愿意学习顺服的心

盼望地是
小小羊儿可以在主里渴慕喝灵奶，
可以在喂养中得到饱足，
渐渐地可以健康，四肢健全的成长，

相信神也比亲自得看守这羊群。。

也非常喜欢小组组名，
耶和华罗希（耶和华是我的牧者)

一念之间

2010-09-08T10:18:00.000-07:00

明白

信吗？
不信吗？

往往害怕接受事实。。
要接收那事实，对一个不信的来说何其不易呀。。
要接受也意思说要否认掉,
以前自己主观的立场，个人一直以来所坚持的观念，想法

也须有极大勇气承认接受自己一直以来所坚持错误观念，
往往人心持有自己的尊严，主义，叛逆性，不愿被驾服，
往往自尊心也在作祟，
也或许自己太多地放不下，是吧？
也或许不能接受这突然之间的改变，
当中许许多多的挣扎，

但，
这时若是有颗愿意寻求的心，
让神亲自来触摸心弦，
也凭信心就这样接受了，

决定也只在一念之间，是吧？

没讲完的营会（一）。。

2010-08-22T08:31:00.000-07:00

不是天生的speaker，在众人面前无法舒服的表达所要说的，也表达不完。。
对自己也还是缺乏信心，还是用文字有限的表达会比较suit我。。

对营会-从心出发-上帝是最棒的！
我们有很棒的讲员，很棒的场所，
很棒的天气，时段，敬拜赞美，筹备，节目，食物。。。
比我活力活泼有影响力的working senior，可爱的junior，
很热心用心的每一个委员，常常顾大局的郑传道（明白你的用心），
每一个所参与的，
也此谢谢每一个人！

从开始选主题到营会的结束，
恩典够用！感恩还是感恩！

LI时，发觉有必要从新的看回自己的心，
就简单的不到十分钟的type在fb的suggestion，
那时大家也都在懊恼着，每一个都提议不一样的，
回到campus，匆匆忙忙地开了委员会议，
也没想到上帝会让这个提议在会议中经过几番的投票竟被采用了，
每个人探讨“心”的旅行也就从这里开始了。。

到，
自己与毅勇配搭P&W的part，
也第一次比较多接触这位小弟，
这可爱有点阿呆的小弟，
欣慰他有颗单纯爱主的心，
就一起讨论选歌，通知等，

找主题曲，
主题曲也不易找，
碰碰撞撞地，
当中谢谢提点的是，主题曲须要表达非常有影响力的，
要不然不要选会更好

nelly 帮忙提议了这首“从心开始”
没想到这首歌即也是以前非常非常喜欢的一首歌，
看了看当中的歌词，也觉得还蛮ok啊，
容易明白，也meet到主题有对神，对人，对自己，
可是不知道他人的意见，
也经过了一番的讨论投票后，
诞生了我们的主题曲。。。

到，
上帝给了许多意外的惊喜，
神把人带到祂自己面前，
只是借用了我们这些器皿，

一位朋友也答应了参与罗希小组的活动，
参与了我们的电影分享会，
之后带了多两位朋友来我们的查经等，
很高心很意外的是，他们也表示很享受在当中，
并且表示还要再来参与小组活动哟！

神的话语真的带有能力，影响力过于人的话！
他也愿意看起圣经来，
也高兴地透过fb chatting让他看迷羊的比喻，
意外地他也认同他应该是那迷羊。。

希伯来书四章十二节
神的道是活泼的，是有功效的，比一切两刃的剑更快，甚至魂与灵，骨节与骨髓，都能刺入剖开，连心中的思念和主意，都能辨明。

感谢主是神的道吸引人来到祂面前！

still very much inadequate....

2010-08-15T07:50:00.000-07:00

final yr od...

still feel like having really lots more needed 2 pick up..

Dear evian,
you're ur heavenly Father beloved child,
no matter how inadequate u're,
ur Father still love u so much,
u still having time to pick up n 2 learn more and more,
u must have proper self and time management

话说即成？

2010-08-06T07:34:00.000-07:00

有许多事，我不觉得是现成的，（或许是我多虑了？）
很多事对我来说不是很轻松，（或许也因成长背景？）
说倒是挺轻松的,
当中一定都要动手，
含有过程及effort以致才有结果

眼睛所能看见所成的，必然是有人去动工的,
坐于享受即成的事也要晓得感恩。

就像一幅所成的画，
若一个人不是很用心地看，普普通通的瞄过，
又或者觉得它美，就买下来，也不懂得欣赏，
或许只晓得享受那所成的结果，
那干脆别买算了。

欣赏画的人，多数用心去留意画家在画上所留下来的一的每一笔每一划，
也晓得感激画家在过程中所付出的心血，
这样子这画的价值比前者更值，因这欣赏的人使它增值。

又像一个用心的母亲
从切菜到下锅不容易的过程，
用爱心用心地为子女预备菜肴
若子女们晓得妈妈的爱心用心
会存感激的心态享用
她当然也会感受到当中的体贴安慰

也想到上帝在创造宇宙万物时，
所付出的每个心思，
以至有我们而我们也能像享用受这世界，
理所当然，我们更需要遵守上帝托附我们的文化使命咯
好好地地爱护祂所造的地球
这样子我们可以使它增值，更持久，a better place to live lo..

每每看到cleaner在扫地时，
我会以很感激的眼神看她，
对她微笑，
因我知道这工作并不简单，
同时也会想着可能也在扫地的“她”。

对我来说
我会很感激每一件所作所成的事务，
因为我晓得当中有许多的不容易及用心。

My concept is to appreciate whatever u own...
Frens... Never take things for granted... appreciate it...^^

我的宝贝。。你千万别有事啊。。

2010-07-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

my intimate for 2 yrs 7 months ..

pls just do not leave me like that..

u been there when i need to submit HW

u been there when i'm bored, sad, dull, excited, happy
been there 4 most of the moment

u been there when i wanna to listen to some kind of music

u been there when i wanna keep up to date

u been my best companion, my best dictionary, my best search engine,

sometime as an intermediate adviser, expresser,

u suddenly blackout by last monday and i'm just dunno hw 2 handle that

2mr i'm going to send u into the ICU soon ya...

it's the series of dell inspiron 1420 purchased on jan 2008.

pls b bearable and hope that can replace that particular body part only

nvidia geforce 8400G MS 128mB gddr3 dedicated memory....
(currently using wen wen's property....)

一些朋友

2010-07-26T02:16:00.001-07:00

上帝让

一些朋友，虽然不常见面，或许一年见一次面
但是曾经一起经历过，一起哭过，一起笑过，
虽没有说出话来，但打从心里就可以知道彼此在想什么，
距离怎样的远，平常重新见面，还是会感觉到很近，
虽然彼此都有些转变，但一点也不生疏，也没影响我们
偶尔摇一下电话，
我称这种朋友-老朋友

一些朋友，虽然可能认识了几年，不长也不短，
大家每天相对，混熟了，也烂了，
常常一起配合一起做事，
虽不语，久而久之，也有了默契，
也明白彼此做事风格，须要，难处。
我称这种朋友-知心朋友

一些朋友，虽然不是认识很久，
但认识了就可以很投契，莫名地很聊得来，什么都可以聊
大家彼此都有真诚地拿那颗心来交朋友，
我称这种朋友-真诚朋友

一些朋友，认识了几年，不长也不短，
大家每天相对，可以混，可能没有烂，
怎样都好，不知为什么，就是没能好好相处，
大家的看法就是这么地不一样，
大家可以表面地一起做事，
我称这种朋友-做事拍档

一些朋友，虽然可能认识了几年，不长也不短，
大家每天相对，正在混，也正在烂，
有的愿意以诚相待，也能好好相处，
有的是处在waiting mode，彼此都不知要如何与对方混熟，
须要挤话题出来讲，问一句，答一句
场面僵硬。。。
我称这些朋友-正在混朋友

一些朋友，可以是认识了很久，也或许认识了不长也不短，
当他/她找你时，你就知道应该是没有好东西了
想要转头就走，但却狠不下心，
就勉强笑笑，有些心不甘情不用地还是帮他/她做完他/她所要的
但至少他/她还记得我可以帮他/她
我称这种朋友-无事不登山宝殿朋友

一些朋友，可以是认识很久，不长不短，或刚认识，
就像搭LRT，monorail或bus所需要用的touch n go
就在你生命中真的是touch n go，差身而过，
也没什么能可以对彼此了解更深，
一起度过某一阶段，就像旅程中，
一些到了目的地点，就下车了
我称这种朋友-touch n go 朋友

朋友也物以类聚，人以群分。。

但，无论如何，朋友。。。
我/你有诚心相待我/你生命中的朋友吗？

And, thanksful to Lord for having all of u in my life.. ^.^

Back to campus... o w o

2010-07-15T09:11:00.000-07:00

After compensating myself with the trips at Melaka n Cameron highland after a so called neither study nor working condition (practical), having my dentist appointment in Taiping... and of course... having a big hole in my pocket now (a bit regretful)...

but it still worths...
frens... reli appreciate for having all of u during my trips and my practical time,
reli enjoying each moment...
i have not been having the holiday mood for a reli long time d...

wanted or not wanted, i needed to back to my reality life which i'm quite afraid of actually...
well, i been here as a 4th yr senior already, still, unbelievable and doesn't feel like...
yet, i still not get ready to switch my current mode to tackle with all these...

lots things been waiting me to handle 4 my new 4th academic yr....

everything so rush since i came quite late by tues evening...

only managed to spend a little time only 2 move my things and tidy up my new double room...

well, immediately after coming back that night we're having the da zhuan camp meeting and committee meeting the following day till 1am like that...
and having the welcoming prayer night on thurs and meeting the new juniors
( a bit mentally unbearable...)

paid my expired roadtax and license due by last march and also academic trip to Jakarta organized by school by next semester...
(reli big big holes in my pocket od...)

having our family camp at Batu Feringgi, been spent precious aand enjoyable time 2gether with all the aunties, uncle, new juniors, others da zhuan and also the children

then discussing activities for cg for the new semester..

lots lots things to do...
including my currently unfinished LI logbook, 50 pages report (where i nt yet started to write) and needed to be handed by this friday,

my services
(suddenly asked to share my practical by this thurs... unprepared |||
probably missionary trip planning and going, dealing with new and old cg members,

prayed and told myself that totally a new start after all, got to have a gd start and all over again no matter what right now...

Now it's time for me to prepare and tidy up my feeling to get ready for this semester ...

simply smile.... ^^

2010-07-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

This few weeks... been spent lots of time travelling using LRT, monorail and bus...then spent most of the time waiting...

sometimes

reading a book, a newspaper, sometimes just stood there doing nothing, observing ppl around, sometime smiling also ...

and yesterday going to Puchong to a church event and also meeting a very old fren..

while waiting...trying not to be dulled...so upon waiting for a bus to lrt stn, an Indian lady also came across and waiting for a bus next to me....
so, i tried to smile friendly and sincerely upon her...

surprisingly, we started to chat...

you all not going to believe that she's the second Indian i ever told to indeed...

we talked about the bus's regulate routes, punctuality...

and sometime i just couldn't get what she said

and i just managed to nodd my head and to smile...

but still, feeling warm at that moment....

when i reached the lrt stn, again taking another bus from the last lrt stn to Puchong...

sitting there holding a book while waiting...

again, i also tried to smile upon a Malay mother with her baby in her arm and the old granny sitting next to me..

the young Malay mom also smiled upon me 2....

and her little naughty cute baby boy tried to cry by fake and turn into her mom's elbow when i looked into him...

still, i just can smile weirdly this moment...

and, also trying to play with him by looking back "naughtily" at him many times...

haha... no matter what the skin's colour, we can be close for those moments indeed...

just through a sincere and friendly smile...

So, frens... smile always... simply smile more to the ppl next to u...sometimes, ur friendly smile will just lift up ur dull heart or others...
^.^

Addtion to trial and temptation

2010-06-30T18:02:00.000-07:00

强调

试探（temptation）和试炼（trial）是两码的事，两个互不相同，

不是不分彼此，也不是时好时坏。。。

试探 - 我把它较归于一个名词（东西或事件），或可以说诱惑，
心中若有鬼就探出心中的鬼来，若走得正行得正，就胜过试探。。

属于恶者不好的，不出于神，较短暂性，也较depend on我们自己本身及我们的反应或恶者

试炼/试验 - 我把它较归于动词（process），过程性，炼 - 磨练，验 - 测试（项目），either failed or passed

出于神好的目的，用意/意思，或许人看来不好，可以较长时间，也较depend on神
那恶者多数出于自己心里的私欲，也就是说自己心中的私欲就是那魔鬼，恶者。。

神绝不会引诱人犯罪，却会考验（试验）人，神因爱我们的缘故，有时愿意允许这不好的给我们这样的磨练我们的信心，在基督里成长。

允许这不好的是神为了我们好的用意。。。

还有神知道我们所能及的，

当神试炼信徒的时候，同时祂也在信徒心中加力量；神所赐的力量，足够胜过所来的试炼，
就像圣经中所说的：『你的日子如何，你的力量也必如何。』（申三十三25）　　

试炼不能把我们压伤，因为有力量在内里支持我们，这力量不是我们自己的，乃是神作我们的力量，又或许我们因爱神而顺从神的心意。

就像父上帝允许撒旦对耶稣的试探（属于诱惑），因祂知道耶稣可以胜过，但那过程是要经过，为了磨练。。

有时神也可能，可以说让试探转变成试炼，借着这试探成就了祂的试炼

还有，神让我们所受的试探是我们可以承受的不是吗？
林前10:13 你们所遇见的试探，无非是人所能受的。神是信实的，必不叫你们受试探过于所能受的。在受试探的时候，总要给你们开一条出路，叫你们能忍受得住。（和合本，新译本同样用了试探）

那么可以说试探使你远离神，使你跌到，

试炼使你更经历神更亲近神，忍耐之后增加对神的信心。。。

试验就好象我们的exam给我们出的项目，有容易和难考的，彼此都有可能pass or fail，

雅各书1:12

忍受试探的人是有福的。因为他经过试验以后，必得生命的冠冕，这是主应许给那些爱他之人的。- 和合本

能忍受試煉的人，是有福的；因為他經過考驗之後，必得著生命的冠冕，這冠冕是主應許給愛他的人的。- 新译本（试探被重新译成试炼，以免confused）

回：：

龙严：

与毓峰有同感，与神远离关系疏远或不体贴神的意思，不是也相同于犯罪了吗？虽不直接犯罪，但在思想上犯罪，也是犯罪不是吗？

欲不是比较属于自己内心的感管感觉思想，包含那些自私自利，贪心，负面思想，不怀好意，有时甚至是思想上不小心地闪过的恶念吗？
而那往往是最可怕的。。。难道不是吗？

第一个案：

读书重要（有个事件，有好的诱惑存在），若他选择留下来读书不去崇拜，那对他来说本身的利益比提贴神的心意来得重要，当他已经怀有了自己的私欲（自私），他不也已陷入试探吗。。

雅各1：15 - 私欲既怀了胎，就生出罪来。罪既长成，就生出死来。

这不也是罪了吗？

如果他能两全其美先崇拜再能花时间温习，那他也是更能经历神的磨练，也成就了神的试炼不是吗？

那试探也是否有包括好与坏的诱惑呢？

第二个案：

他父亲去世（有一件事，或许有诱惑会他跌倒）

若他远离了神，伤心使他处在自艾自怜的状态，颓废，负面思想，埋怨神，远离神，那他不也跌入了试探（处在他自己negative的状况）吗？

若他能一一面对，靠神刚强，更加依赖神，那他不也pass了试验（自己和神的那关），经历了试炼咯？

毓峰：

谢谢你我有注意到。。。

和合本雅1：12 有出现的试探与试验并没说明它们是属于同一个字眼，觉得那里的“忍受试探”是指从恶者来的，之后以句号结束，然后用新的一个句子开始，经文中之后也没指定是“那试验”而是单单用“试验”。

所以那经文中的试探也不是试验，不是吗？

我这里的意思是那时人不是因那试探（因试探不出于神），而是因着那成就了的试炼归荣耀与神，

试探，试炼differences and same time??

2010-06-28T22:15:00.000-07:00

differences:

试探 -
源: 不出于神，出于自己心里的私欲 - 魔鬼- refer 雅各 1:13
period: 短暂的或在那一刹那，可以是过程中的某段
目的：不好的，恶的。。
结果：使人跌到，犯罪，远离神，对神失去信心，失去恩典。。。

试验/试炼

源: 神所允许的，出于神好的用意
period: 较长或整个过程，或许不断地
目的：好的，被磨练
结果: 让人更经历神的作为，更经历神的信心之路，得着恩典。。。

and definitely 试探not equal to 试炼

试炼试探可以同时并存 . . .

当人胜过试探时，就成就了神的试炼（试探and试炼存在）
当人陷入试探不能胜过时，就不能成就神的试炼（只试探存在）

神不试探我们只试炼我们，但因神爱我们的缘故，试探被神所允许，
所以，
我们忍受试探便得着了神的恩典。。。

eg1: 耶稣被圣灵引到旷野，受撒旦试探四十天之久（可1：12-13）- 被神所允许（太 4:1）
耶稣胜过了那些试探，成就了父上帝的试炼，整个过程有四十天之久，而试探当时是一下一下不断地来。。。

eg2: 小明看见她妈妈的抽屉里有很多钱（试探），他可以有两个举动或选择。。。

偷拿 - 因顺从他自己心里的私欲 - 魔鬼，这是出于他自己的意思，不是出于神的意思，陷入试探

不偷拿 - 因不顺从他自己心里的私欲，顺从神的意思，胜过试探，成就了神的试炼。。。

雅各书
1:12忍受试探的人是有福的。因为他经过试验以后，必得生命的冠冕，这是主应许给那些爱他之人的。

1:13人被试探，不可说，我是被神试探。因为神不能被恶试探，他也不试探人。

1:14但各人被试探，乃是被自己的私欲牵引诱惑的。

1:15私欲既怀了胎，就生出罪来。罪既长成，就生出死来。

right?

Finally...she's doing this...proud of ^^

2010-06-25T09:28:00.000-07:00

currently working for it....and also doing part time as draftman at architect home office....

she's Joyce... my sis n intimate....

wow.... putting hard effort on...
concentrating on her art... hmm... making her most attracting and pretty gal in the world^^

even with her funny newpaper hat sometime.... ^^

her art...

she spent endless time for this painting....
and finally...finished her 1st very 1st wall painting, smiling happily with all her collegues after all....

thankful to Lord
though she's not good in study and this often made her feel lack of confidence
God has given her a pair of excellent art hands...

Lord has give us different specifications and characters indeed....
made us needing each other so well as to give the best sister's combination...
haha....

Since young, she like to make all the handicraft...
like doll's dresses, cards, bookmarks, decorative boxes, gifts' boxes, all the bracelets, necklaces......

she's just so good in art...^^
and it's really consuming brain lol, needing ideas now and then....

if i need to wrap up a gift, i wouldn't be able to make it so tidy, nicely and patiently.

But for her... She just can do all that small, tiny things so so carefully...
So, if i wanna wrap up a gift, i will always ask her to give me a favour... ^^

The choice she made to live with art is just doesn't easy at all...
over the years, she been struggled for so hard just for it...
she always determined, persisted and insisted on her interest and made clearer moves towards it...

since there's age's gap between me and my younger sisters,
she's the only place that where i can share all things with her,
and the same also for her...

i'm really proud of u
and being ur sis...
Sis... congratz....

Miss u... wanna talk to u again this moment....

端午节与22/6

2010-06-15T19:13:00.000-07:00

端午节与22/6

每年农历五月初五的端午节对我们来说大概都会想到那吃粽子吧，另外还会联想到那古老中国文化的赛龙舟和那爱国而投江的屈原吧！
还有最近，从一份报道当中知道韩国也向联合国申请将这端午节列为他们文化节日之一了，他们也在这一日吃“艾子糕”

这节日。。。

时间过得真快，已经六年了。。。我告诉自己。。
六年前的这一天也就是22/6/2004， 622这号码仍深深地刻在心上。。
六年后的我，每当端午节来临时，我自然而然还会想起，偶而会掉起思念的眼泪来。。。

这期间也接近孝亲节，就勾起我对你的思念，回忆我成长中有你的点滴真好，有清澈有模糊的印象。。
有对你甜美的回忆，有你很苦的回忆。。
心里想如果现在还有像你小时候那样可以宠我，让我闹脾气，让我撒娇，哄我，那该有多好呀！

小时只有你可以给我这样的闹，那时家里可以说没有人可以顶得顺我的哭功，
还记得你为了要禁止我哭，使了千方百计哄我，掏钱给我，带我去买零食，这些招数对那时的我来说还蛮管用的
带我去你常去的麻将馆，会你的麻将猪朋狗友，卖罐装汽水给我，
最爱吃他每每从麻将馆回来后打包给我们的叉烧包，菜包，肉包，牛油包，花生包。。。
有时则是RM 10的炒面或炒果条很够我们那时一家八口的宵夜了。。。

如今，
再也寻不回可以像你一样可以给我闹脾气，笑笑我的无理取闹如此熟悉的地方了。。。
回家乡后，有时喜欢打包回家同样的阿肥白包，但味道怎样都不像以前那般了，
也不知道是不是因现况的通胀而偷工减料的因素，还是没有了你的味道没有你亲手打包给我们，
怎样也吃不回以往的味道了，一些事没了就是没了，无法取代。。。

记得有一年农历大年初一，我不知道是为了什么事好像是不愿意穿裙的缘故，
而在那里哭闹不停闹变扭，你也拿我没办法，生气之下上了打了我一下，不理我，
那时的我吸一把鼻涕一把眼泪的很快就不闹不哭了。。。
那一次好像是你第一次打我。。。
很怀念有你的回忆。。。

六年前的那一天，
你一声也不出这样突然昏走了，丢下了我们一家七口，小妹那时仅仅十岁罢了，
那时要适应着没有你的日子，那时怨你为何如此狠心。。。
那一段日子真的很辛苦，当中许多的不明白。。。
那时心口痛得如千刀万宰在扎呀扎，无法形容的痛。。。

记得当时看到报纸上中国一个老太婆躺在那葬礼床上几天后奇迹的活起来了，
还天真地心里也存这盼望，也愚蠢这样祷告，也笨笨地对自己说，
希望你也可以奇迹般地过几天再出现
直等到你入土那一刻也没中断，愚蠢地不能接受你去的事实。。。

如今，
也不再撒娇无理取闹，学会不哭不闹，
学会不轻易在人面前掉眼泪，
学会独立，学会坚强，学会更懂事，
学会凡事靠自己，虽胆却但仍学会逞强，
学会不麻烦他人，学会坚持不占他人便宜，

也学会你的固执，学会你的骨气，
学会你的包容，学会你的重情义，
学会你的讲义气，学着你的行业，

学会顾家，学会更照顾体贴
更爱妈妈，姐妹们
学会成为頂家的一份子，
学会为人着想，学会很节俭，
也坚持不依靠家里的一分一毛，
也学会适应没有你的日子，

学会更感恩，学会更依靠神的恩典，
学会明白，等待神的旨意，明白
神的旨意高过人的旨意，
神的意念高过人的意念，
神的道路高过人的道路，
万事互相效力，叫爱神的人得意处

如今，
虽也找不着单独与你的合照，但你的脸清澈的浮现在我脑海里。。。
老豆。。。没有你的日子，好想念你。。。
你的回忆将永远珍贵地收藏在女儿的心底处，
只属于我和你的，
成为这一生最美好，无法取代的回忆。。。

六年前的那一天，
这节日从此
在我生命中从此多添加了一个主角更胜过于其他纪念因素。。。

A believer or a disciple?

2010-06-13T09:20:00.000-07:00

Today, been listening to the strong preaching in the service...

pastor lau say it's always easy to be a believer than a disciple..

ya... i admitted that 2..

a believer that's so passive to share our religion to others and always like our comfort zone without further steping out to share god's good things around...

ya.. it's easy for just to believe and hard to practice things out...
even the 12 disciples of Jesus with HIM more than 3 and a half yrs also doubted and hesistated..

He further saying that we always stressed on the matthew phase 28:19-20, the last 2 verse and ignoring the verse 18...

Indeed, verse 18 is also as important as the other 2...

We are going out because Jesus is give us the powerful authority already to the crowds not without anything to say HIS msg...

Stressed again... HE is giving us all the authority in heaven and on earth, HE is with us to go out, not alone... without HIS authority, we're nothing,n i wonder how should we reach to the ppl...
HE is commanding us....
without the missionary ministries, a church not called a church...

16Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go.
17When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted.
18Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.
19Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in[a] the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

Questioning:
为什么我们传福音需要力量？
因我们的仇敌不是一般的，乃是魔鬼的权柄，不是属血气的乃是被捆绑的，
神赐给我们权柄去与他们对抗。

n i ever a qualified christian after having my faith for such a long time more than 10 yrs? believer or disciple???

Has i fully use my heart as to be more like him facing or doing whatever things in my life so far?

And i really loving the ppl caring the salvation of the ppl around me?

Do i appreciate every moment lord giving me as to share HIS msg to the ppl i deal with daily?

Have i been really courage enough as fully taking up HIS cross and follow his footprints??

If i really love HIM, do i really offering all i have to him? How much time, energy, money i can have for him and even for the priority of lord comes 1st b4 my family?

indeed, i admitted that i still have a long way to go n in the "loading" process..
definitely i need to work much much harder...
May lord forgive me and giving me strength...

hM.. my own real holiday...hike hike...

2010-05-30T06:41:00.000-07:00

crystal hill near genting... highly recommend for whose who enjoy hiking...^^

This few days had been d holidays i longed for..
wow... realising that i really didn't have such a holiday for so long d...

This Wesak holiday... i been going hiking with my Puchong's new church members, genting and also with CF members to Melaka..

i got shared my 1st KL's service during last few blogs..
where i really can't adapt myself 2 d environment there..
It's jx so grand n jx feel "alient"ed ..

then i tried attending a smaller church recommended by my friend, Jici...
It's Puchong's 宣道堂....

furthermore, her relatives which some i know almost all there..
actually this is d second time i attending the service there after my 2009 CNY where i stayed at uncle David's home during d festival..

so, feeling quite warm meeting all of them again..

i felt so glad that i could be there n feeling like can mix with them well od though it's 1st time meeting most of the ppl there...
find the sense of belonging there...

the feeling jx like already knowing them for a long time d...
it's jx so coincidentally that the pastor's couple there from Sibu though he's not there that day...

n many members also come from sibu 2...
it's jx feel like familiar n comfort when u met ppl fr hometown
sharing the same dialect...
it's jx like i been in my hometown...

yeah... n my exciting hiking experience at crystal hill near genting..

that fri morning, i woke up as early as 4am... n fetched by my fren's cousin by 4.40am...
what a sleepy time ya.. d time ppl sleeping like piggy...
then, all together 13 members (including pastor's wife, only 2 students including me, the rest are the working adults)
we enjoying a precious time 2gether...

we started to have a prayer 1st then started to climb by 6am like that and managed to see the scene of the sunset on the hill's way, enjoying the beauty of the mother nature of the only creator, enjoying the fellows' interaction..

according to a member that had been to d Kinabalu...
the journey is as challenging as that 1...
so he told us that we "graduated" after this and could start our next target to Kinabalu then..^^

the pastor's wife really "geng" where she managed to finish her hiking without giving up..
n we really admire her...
they kept telling joke that she would be younger by 5 yrs after this...

and herself humurously told that then she want to hike few more times then she will be more younger many 5 yrs.. ^^
we just enjoyed the jokes so much among ourself during the hiking...

along the journey,
the way was just not easy, we had been gone through the six small up and down hills, and fully using all created bodies' parts to complete our mission, from the arms, fingers, foots, toes, knees, legs and even our buttocks...
certain journey will just s0 dangerous where u jx can't look down, if falling then.....OO.

Thanks Lord for leading us throughout the journey...
Thanks god that the weather was so fine, no rain no slippery ground..
so we all able to complete our mission after 4 hours by 10am like that as well.. ^.^

i prayed deep inside my heart calling HIS name along the journey as for a safe journey...

I experienced most when felt so insecured when we just couldn't see the mark on stone or jx couldn't see the things below, couldn't't stand/find a place to rest on the limestone where we opted to use rope to climb over it..
we just can have faith, solely relying on the instruction of our team's leader to rest our foot on the stone... n relying on the strength of the rope to cope for our weight without theoritically considering of how much d tension can d rope withstand... what an exciting experience..

i believe that most ppl also felt secured in the same way only when they can see with their naked eyes, touching by their own...
it's jx like the faith we have in Lord, though can't see HIM, we still believe in HIM...
Isn't that wonderful? we just believe in him without relying on our own strong conceptual, self or logic thinking... that's the faith....

Praise to our Lord.... ^^

when enjoying the beauty of the sunset, we just don't hesistate and shouted at the top of our voice at the half way like the mad dogs, haha... still felt funny...
when we enjoying the another special scene where it's really a contradict, where we saw the mother nature beautiful scene on the left side and another right side of the artificial human-made scene, showing the urbanization developed KL city

A member, Sarah immediately told that it's just like Jesus in the bible, where Satan's temptation by bringing him to the highest of the hill and showing him the glory city and offer him the goodness of the world just want HIM to knee it yet Jesus refused to do, HE know HE is the son of heavenly father...
Can we really act like HIM especially when we're in the worldly temptation?

tried to notice the different scenes behind us...it's different.. it's really awesome..

the view of d RHS...

the view of LHS....

throughout the day,
chatted with pastor's wife a lot 2..
coincidentally pastor 刘德裕牧师 and her wife
once upon a time also from SIB church, b4 that had been serviced in Miri n Bintulu..
n oso been in my church for 8 month period when i was eleven...
n my previous piano's teacher in church is pastor's niece some more...
what a small world..

oops... nope .... should feel thanksful for contacting me with this church

After the hiking,
we went to walk around at genting, and having lunch there...
since i still a undergraduate... i been treated for a delicious meal..
wanna express my gratitude here to the kind generous host...thx so much... ^^
and it's my 2nd time to genting and 1st time entering the casino inside...

n together with other church members and also pastor's wife... that's funny...

inside d casino..
seeing the ppl gamble with their sweat, blooding money

like throwing $$ into the sea... and so lost...

the probabilities of winning was so small where the whole casino computerised controling system

surprisingly saw many grannies there also...

that's the place resulted in broken families, losing lives, greediness, addiction, lost in direction, source of sin condemnation...
ppl seens so stupid, still, ppl wanna bet to stand even a slim chance for a good luck, great returning...

greediness and purposeless, driven them just wanna doing something to fulfill the their emptiness... how pity...

like seeing the scene of ppl just non-stop jumping into an endless hole...

it seems like Lord wanna to warn me that never carry on a purposeless life...

sweating members... ^^

friendly pastor's wife... ^^

found a durian tree on d way down...

found some goats and sheeps when reaching bottom... funny...XD...

New cultural in malaysia...(squeezed all u can...)

2010-05-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

Malaysia is having its new cultural recently....
Recently, kinda having PP (public transportation) phobia..

so...prefered to stay at home more...

this is escpecially when needed to take d PP here during d office hour...

When will the government going to upgrading it???

The people here chose to take PP yet the government can't supply d rising demands sufficiently

During the office hour by 7.30-9am and 5-7pm, u ll be frustratred when u're here..

seeing and experiencing by ur own..

no matter black, white, yellow or brown- skinned, are squeezing and

nearly breathless inside this small "sardine tin".

even inside the sardine tin, still got spaces of liquid for the fish to align tidily...

Here, u gonna to have all the "solid"s like they wanna to burst the container...
the ppl kept squeezed though it's already far far exceeding d poor little thing's capacity..

see.. still can see clearly some faces even almost "pasted" to the glasses...

simply because if u dun wanna being late for ur work, then just bear to squeeze with others

then... of course, wanted or not wanted.. just get in...

Poor ppl here paying for the uncomfortable trip and to be squeezed..

I used up RM10 daily reaching and back from my working place

in the return-- so uncomfortable trip...

What are the rights for us as users then?

Pay and get the lousy service?

Inside d monorail or LRT... funny 2 see the "wu nai" faces seeing this scenarios

where ppl really can do nothing to it...
the ladies holding bags protecting their front,

radiculously... still can see some ppl "deadly" reading a book in such a condition,
Ya hor... government's promoting reading habits in PP...
when u're in these kind of condition then u ll c how difficult are to lift up a book, eventhough lifted up, u wouldn't have d mood wanna to read it...

seeing different ppl, from short to tall, thin to fat,

nicely dressed up OL with variety n colourful of high heels,
OG(office guys)- foreigners-bangladesh, pakistan, nannies, uncles, housewives and some OKU...

and kind malaysian always liked to give their seats to these ppl...

Looking down from LRT or monorail...
u ll see seriously jammed traffic with long long queue...
n irritated waiting ppl...

instead..PM should come and experiencing together with his lovely ppl during this these time..

then i'm sure that he would so eagerly wanted to do something about it..

Its demand either LRT or monorail is really far far exceeding its supply..

Pls lah... taking our income tax then doing something about to fix it lah...

This is basically what d ppl wanted without further promises of other benefits...
o rushing 0 rushing...

o squeezing 0 squeezing..

another 1...

more spaces... ye.... definitely nt during office hour..

This consider much much better od.....

Eventhough it's raining day, it still can't improve d condition...

Happy Mother's Day....

2010-05-09T22:43:00.000-07:00

1st of all,

wanna shout loudly to all mothers.....

"HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY"

especially to my mom...

MOM....love u so much...

again... this year can't celebrate together with her...

only managed to talk to her earlier through phone n bring some present for her and some msg earlier to her...

Thanks so much to Richard for helping me to bring a liquor and some chocolate for my lovely mother..

And i attached a DIY card for her 2... ^.^
Hoped that she might feel my heart for her...

through words....

ppl feel strange when i bought this for her...

cox this can add better taste to her dishes lo... ^^

last yr i oso bought her a DOM...

so funny that she feel sayang to drink...

Joyce... u got to buy lots lots of "bu ping" 4 mom ya...

Mom... u got to eat lots of "bu ping" ya..
Mom...Miss u so so so so much...

really wanna see her....

wuwu...long time not been home od...

Thanks Lord again as to born as my mom's child...^.^

Working days' meals....

2010-05-06T22:37:00.000-07:00

Now...lunch time... using my office's pc 4 updating...

i been here 4 the fifth day of my working days...
believe in Lord that He is going to lead me through
with HIS abundant of grace day by day... ^^

Didn't going out for lunch since had spent lots of $$$
here and meals here really @@@@@...

Working days make us having the habit 2 hv the
breakfast daily but not necessary the lunch..

We tried to save $$$ as to cover our others' expenses then
trying making our own meals here.
This few days managed to make our own breakfast for d
housemates here...
Thanksful that v can enjoy our own prepared meals here..

Hmm... so far had been prepared omelette, bee hoon,
wan tan hoe ^^...
housemates also praised that the taste was not bad ^.^

And yesterday nite, Brandon had cooked us the very special
yummy spicy maggi mee which making me having running nose
afterwards...^.^

Will try to update with more pics here afterwards... ^.^

Start my new environment... @.@ + ^.^

2010-05-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

Really long time didn't update my blog already....

currently in a comfortable big master room that today so
luckily can use people's wireless to update my news...

(bcox my frens let it out for me since i'm the only gal
and will be much more convenient to have own washroom)
It's the biggest room i ever owned... ^.^
Thanks frens and host.....

Thanksful to Lord that i got a nice place to settle in KL
for my 10 wks working days though it's a bit far...
(cox i need to use more than 1 hour to reach
my working place)
it is exactly the opposite of Pavillion Mall of that peak area
with all the shopping malls..

Really thanksful and thanks to the host that
i got a master room here with air-con
with very cheap rental and also the very friendly hosts... ^.^

Brandon and i had tried to estimate the time to reach that place
last friday the day after we reached KL..
and we enjoyed our "Iron Man" and big meals 2 that day...

But... must share my 1st day's experience...
for the 1st day of my working day,
since many things were not so getting on
so quite a lots things that felt worst..

For the 1st day, we going out by 7.30am and stucked for quite
a long period at the LRT $$ collector machine there
bcos the machines didn't want to accept our paper money
furthermore, the 1st day of working day made us mixed with
the feelings of a bit nervous+excited+afraid...

We finally bought RM20 touch and Go card each where
we needed to take LRT, monorail and rapid bus for return
i really wanna complain that cheating, ineffective "T n G",
that day, we used up almost all the amount,
imagine 1 day RM20 for transportation fee where
normally should be RM10...

We walked from KL central to monorail stn to transit then reaching
Bukit Bintang then pass through the skycrappers with
terribbly jammed traffic with road controlling traffic police ,
passed through Pavillion, Mariott Hotel... to reach office...

Upon reaching the Keck Seng building,
We were being called to wait for quite a long period and
the atmosphere in the office so unfamiliar 4 us and every1 was
busy doing their own tasks and would not even care 4 us...

Then the very 1st day since we're in design office, we were already
been given the tasks to design already where we were
almost forget things we had learnt and really needed time
to catch back and found it a bit stressful..

After the office hour, we tried to get home then...
and i was really in the condition of so called jammed people
when i was in the monorail and LRT (can u imaging that u're really
like in the sardine tin where it just couldn't even move ur arms
or legs and the space only available for 1 bcum for 2 ???)
That y there were so many molest cases, pocket pickers happening inside
where the Malaysian complaint so mc especially the ladies...
We only managed to reach home by 8pm++ that day including
buying sum daily stuffs at the Atria Mall near our current home...

That day i wondered that how am i going to survive for the rest
of my 5 yrs of working days then...

oh ya... my very 1st Sunday Service...
i attended it at section 16 SIBKL...
wow... it's really a cutural shock...

i never know that the SIB here is so mc different as compared to the
SIB in Sibu... i volunteered myself to English church bcox i wanted to
drag Brandon to church again and he promised me that
he will go together with me next Sunday... ^^

Inside the church.. everything so new to me and it's really huge place,
crowds with all the red jacket welcoming bro and sis
the hall really big that looked like having opera show and the music band
so grand with around 20 ppl i think... so shocked...

then after P&W start preaching by a pastor fr Australia i think
i found out myself quite lost due to my lousy English and really found
myself thus so helpless when tried to interact....
I told myself that i must try to improve my English during this period..

Thanks so mc to Jason for fetching me there then after the service,
we heading to 1 Utama to meet up with Ann Nee, Aaron, Hooi Keng
and Grace at Italiano there for lunch then chatting for a long time 2..
that meal also costed us RM20 each lik tat ...

only being here not more than a week, then all the meals,
transportation expenses already costed me over
almost a month of the expenses in Penang, sad.. unbearable...

yet...
thanksful and prayed to Lord that i will be adapting myself to the
new environment very soon..

Recently "little little"...^.^ (2)

2010-04-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

Recently, dun know why like putting hearts
and remember of little little things easily....
In the past, i will never spoke out words of "touch" easily..

Yet, i like to speak it out when reli being touched by small small act..^.^
"Touch lol".. recently..
sometimes, it's no wrong at all speak out our feeling not hiding it out right??

Haha... during the finals period..
i found that though felt stressful
but not so stressful as compared to last time od...

My mind this time although not 2 homesick yet still lots of things crossed my mind...
And it simply the things that i think i need or opt to do now and then...

During the periods, sharing the touching moments...＾。＾

Hooi keng giving 1 "touching, caring, warm energy bar + msg".......

Hooi Keng... reli thx u so mc lol... haha.. v goin 2 meet up vry soon in KL.. ^.^

My bro caring add oil " yogurt+msg"...
i reli like tasty yogurt so mc which i consider it as "baby food" ...^.^

Shared that followings were some of the handmade "little little" of mines lol...
Haha.. Thx 4 walking along wif me along the 3rd yr of U-time..
Appreciating the moments together... ^.^

For Xiaoxiaoguang precious 1st time U bday... ^.^

For evelyn ...though a bit late when i pass to her during exam time
cox she's goin to Australia lo...
Happy bday n thx 4 serving faithfully for our LOrd ya...

Thx thx our great great tuan zhang

For Han jiang... Happy bday n oso grate that u're growing throughout or fellowship.. ^.^

Continue walking in the path of light in LOrd... ^.^

For Mei Er... thx for being my fren...

appreciate for her faithful serving 2... ^.^

For Li Feng auntie.... thx her 4 knowing me n we're family i n christ...^.^

My tools... ^.^ And lastly, thx previous senior ---Jacob for pass me his colourpens..
And it reli help me lots throughout the caring act lol.. hehe...
But i lost 1 of it at Ric home d during family prayer gathering that time..
Hope to fd it back...

Lastly, telling myself that never take things for granted and appreciating every GRACE HE give us...

罗希所负责之家庭祷告聚会。。。

2010-04-16T10:20:00.000-07:00

之后，拜五就今天的聚会终于来临了，
好多special events lol
可以说酸甜苦辣全一起来了。。。
那之前我们小组有小小的检讨关于我们的小组噢，
感谢大家参与当中的宝贵检讨和所需加强的噢！
当然，最重要是大家之间主动的互动，
及一起的付出来经营我们宝贝的小窝，

要懂得付出勿须求回报，
因我相信天上的父懂得你尽了最大的力向祂交帐。
大家高兴，我也高兴哦！！
大家。。加油咯。。
当中虽有些情绪波动。。。
哈哈。。不要吓坏了。。女生是酱的了。。

之后，就庆祝小光的生日了，
我们吃了巧玲弄的很好吃的冰淇淋蛋糕噢！！！
小光。。。生日快乐。。
巧玲。。。谢谢你。。。。
沁梅。。。fyp加油。。。。
夏雯。。。谢谢你的车。。。
汉将。。。谢谢你成为driver噢。。。
Richard及每个组员。。。谢谢你们的帮忙。。。
大家。。。考试加油咯。。。

罗希组。。下个sem。。继续加油！！继续成长！！！

之后开始了，
家庭祷告时光。。

很高兴很欣慰组当中，
每一个人都非常努力为主做工，
真的看到大家在主里的同心，
我们一起负责不一样的task，彼此的欢笑，

也很多人虽然忙但仍抽空来一起祷告，谢谢大家！
相信当你顾念神的事，祂也必顾念你！！！
当中有很多的aunty，uncle，children， old folks 和大专生。。
非常warm的画面。。。

之后就到我做主席了，
带动气氛，致词，祷告，分享小小故事的提醒，奉献。。
每次要我在会众面前讲话时，
都会觉得有些压力和紧张，
到我做主席时，都会紧张，
每次拿mic难免会紧张，

小光和庆豪负责P&W
沁梅负责祷告时光
恩美负责诗琴
俊贤，仁豪和巧玲负责会前会后及茶点。。
谢谢大家噢，你们都很棒。。。

最后，真的要ban掉自己上网了，almost addicted to blogging
got 2 reli force myself start 2 b in study mode d..
gambateh 4 myself...^.^

还是比较prefer舒服地把它写出来more than讲出来。。

装爱心糖水给没来的大专生们

仁豪的“V"

开心的大家。。罗希member只差emily，恭旭和友富了。。

疯狂的我们

背影版。。哈哈。。。

小小礼物，大大心意

2010-04-16T09:39:00.000-07:00

这几天忙碌交完design和剩余的功课后，
还没有有心情进入状况读书准备考试，
因脑子里一直飘着这拜五的聚会，
更何况那天的“互相守望，彼此代祷”的聚会，
纯纯由我们罗希小组负责呢！
也只有那天过了，大概才能真正开始我复习生涯吧！

大大小小的事都要分配好好来，supervise好，
头脑钻着负责领唱的，诗琴的，会前会后的，茶点的，
还有那天一小部分小组检讨所需要讲讨论的，生日的。。。
好多好多东西噢。。。

就想关心一下组员们，
就心血来潮动动手，做起一些手工来，
就做了一些的书签和小卡片+“考试小小加油能量bar”
嘿嘿。。想为大家在考试或fyp加油一下噢！！！

教会的复活蛋
丽凤姐给我的小吊饰。。好感动。。好喜欢。。

丽凤姐给我的小书签

做的给组员们的加油小书签。。。别小看它。。可是有熬些夜做的噢。。

给沁梅的TQ卡

给小光的Bday卡。。。

Overally。。。

++“考试小小加油能量bar”

最后，虽有些不舍。。但最终还是送了出去最后一个手工。。。
不要紧。。留着照片就好。。

顺便给三个roommate加油一下

Farewell

2010-04-09T11:10:00.000-07:00

Not matter hw busy still wanna post this 2 gratitude o d seniors as din express it out jx nw n afraid tat might forget d feelin n dun hav chance 2 express all these again

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yu fen- 给我的感觉有些深藏不露的感觉，虽然牛高马大，但看过你文笔的人，应该都会觉得其实你是一个非常细腻的人吧！很对不起噢！这些年里好像没有可以和你聊到很多，就算有好像也很表面的聊吧了！其他的都被别人讲完了。还有，自己是怎样的，应该还是自己最清楚了吧！就酱了，在神的道路上继续坚持继续加油哦！

泗豪- 和你接触比较多时，应该是我第一年第二学期开始做司琴时吧，每个人多你都有同感，诶。。虽然有点伤，不好意思噢，我也一样。。很谢谢你过去的配搭和教导噢，那时其实蛮压力的，因为觉得自己很烂，而需要与这么多的expect配搭，非常谢谢能忍受我这样烂的司琴，记得那时我咬紧了牙根，还是压出了那些有缺陷的音符，谢谢你给了我这方面的勇气，在这一方面的事奉我一直很常感到压力的想要改进。哎，但还是停滞在原地了。。。还蛮怀念那时学习的压力的。。其他的也都被别人讲了。。勉励的话你平常都说了，所以，这里只愿神继续祝福你前面的路了！

伟念 - 给我的感觉好像平平的平平人，也许不特出，但这应该就是你特别的地方了吧，可能也不是很会表达自己或我想多了或本来就不是一个复杂的人吧，觉得你应该还能在发掘自己奇特的一面，也愿神继续保守你的心胜过保守一切（嘻嘻！我也非常喜欢这经文呢！）

沁梅 - 就不叫你大姐了，因我觉得你带着这“大姐”应都感到蛮压力的吧，所以我平时都不叫你大姐，就像其他人一样都讲了，非常棒的一个角色。。但。。还是觉得每个人都会有深藏着自己觉得很不足的地方或觉得压力，不容易让人看到自己的软弱的一面吧，你应该是酱的或则我想多了。和我同组有一年了，有些遗憾因还是觉得有些难与你有较深的交情，就好象蜻蜓点水一样，大家都好像有点怕怕对方的感觉。或许每个人身边都有着特定比较能谈心的对象吧！主里继续加油噢，继续用你生命的见证感染身边的每一个人。。。

谢谢你们！！！你们都非常非常地棒噢！！！！加油加油热烈加油噢！！！尽忠为主！！！

P/s:也不知道seniors们看不看得到，但这是我心底的话噢。。。^.^

不喜欢“女强人”这字眼。。。

2010-04-06T01:27:00.000-07:00

上一次难得可以抽空花很长时间与几位朋友聊天，
的确聊了很多平时所没有机会聊的。。
很意外发现一些人有些怕我，说我太强有些难以接近，
真是的，这是什么烂理由嘛。。。
常常被人冠上"女强人"这字眼，当有人说“你很强时”，
那时心里其实觉得蛮不是滋味的，很不喜欢被人这么讲。。
这也让我反复的思想当中的因素。。

那酱子说好了，我会做这个做那个不代表我很强，
只因为我懂得处理自己的生活需要吧，因这生活其实是很个人的，
你须要对自己的生活负责，要不然上帝为什么要给每一人都有自己的生命？
所以我很多事时也宁愿自己亲历亲为，
凡是靠神和自己，也因不想麻烦人。。（酱讲好像我很极端）
也因此我也显得孤僻，有些难与人相处，缺少沟通，
也因不晓得如何去表达自己的意思吧。。
熟我的人都应该蛮清楚我其实只要是熟的人都无话不聊，性格蛮直率的吧。。

当然，在生活很多时候，我们也需要与人配搭需要人的帮助也需要与人建立关系，
但不可过度依赖人。。。
人家的帮助当然我们要很懂得感恩咯，不可以take for granted的。。。
“收”的同时，一定也要甘心乐意把“需要”给出去噢，这才能回馈上帝和自己，
祝福不可以自己吝啬的收着罢了哦！
当然，讲得容易做的难。。。（因该大家都会应这句吧！）

曾经何时我就是这么样无忧无虑就算天塌下来也有父母顶着，
生活从来不需要我去想去担忧。。
如果可以选择，我也想像一般年龄的都可以被父母呵护受保护呀。。
什么事都勿需要我去操心，什么事都无需要自己亲力亲为靠自己。。
每次载家人特别是母亲时，心里总会想为何不是母亲载我而是我需要载母亲呢？
每次搬去一个新的暂居时，为何家人总不能像与我同龄的和我一起搬运东西？
甚至需要自己驾着整车的东西，整理收完搬进屋子，中六如此大学也如此
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

以上只是含有"羡慕“成分罢了+发些牢骚，
当然，我不是在怨天，反之感恩还是感恩。。。

继续。。。

但上帝好像和我开了个大玩笑，把这个不知天高地厚的丫头的“棒棒糖”拿去了，
然后，祂给了一个“工具箱”和“不倒翁”

祂要在“工具箱”里拿出很多法宝在不一样的时段,
做不一样的东西也要做给不一样的人做，酱不停不停的做着
酱子才会有“不倒翁”，“不倒翁”一下倒了，也可一下子起来，
继续努力的在那里忠心地守候主人。。

虽然我们有时以为我们可以掌握自己的生活，但我们真的不能！生活中有多少痛苦，惊吓，悲哀，令人失望的事情！这个星期，有没有这样的事发生在你的身上呢？对那些相信并顺服神的孩子，神应许说：所有这些不好的事情都互相效力，而成为好的事情！

罗马书第8章28节说：“我们晓得万事都互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处，就是按他旨意被召的人。

盼望孩子在主里继续忠心的走不倒翁。。
加油哦！朋友！！也要做一个”不倒翁“噢

get prepared ur heart to remember HIS crucified love...

2010-03-31T16:15:00.000-07:00

THE BELL
I KNOW WHO I AM
I am God's child (John 1:12)
I am Christ's friend (John 15:15 )
I am united with the Lord (1 Cor. 6:17)
I am bought with a price (1 Cor 6:19-20)
I am a saint (set apart for God). (Eph. 1:1)
I am a personal witness of Christ. (Acts 1:8)
I am the salt & light of the earth (Matt 5:13-14)
I am a member of the body of Christ (1 Cor 12:27)
I am free forever from condemnation ( Rom. 8: 1-2)
I am a citizen of Heaven. I am significant (Phil 3:20)
I am free from any charge against me (Rom. 8:31 -34)
I am a minister of reconciliation for God (2 Cor 5:17-21)
I have access to God through the Holy Spirit (Eph. 2:18)
I am seated with Christ in the heavenly realms (Eph. 2:6)
I cannot be separated from the love of God (Rom 8:35-39)
I am established, anointed, sealed by God (2 Cor 1:21-22 )
I am assured all things work together for good (Rom. 8:28 )
I have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit (John 15:16 )
I may approach God with freedom and confidence (Eph. 3: 12 )
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Phil. 4:13)
I am the branch of the true vine, a channel of His life (John 15: 1-5)
I am God's temple (1 Cor. 3: 16). I am complete in Christ (Col. 2: 10)
I am hidden with Christ in God (Col. 3:3).. I have been justified (Romans 5:1)
I am God's co-worker (1 Cor. 3:9; 2 Cor 6:1). I am God's workmanship (Eph. 2:10)
I am confident that the good works God has begun in me will be perfected. (Phil. 1: 5)
I have been redeemed and forgiven ( Col 1:14). I have been adopted as God's child (Eph 1:5)
I belong to God
Do you know
Who you are?
Keep this bell ringing...
'The LORD bless you and keep you;
The LORD make His face shine upon you
And be gracious to you;
The LORD turn His face toward you
And give you peace...
Numbers 6:24-26

i like this email so much..
P/s: it's original is in pretty bell shape, copying then bcum lik tis :P

HE has borned in this earth due to Father's great love...
LEts us put aside o d works, pray hard, thankful and remember every canes and shames HE has to bear for loving us.
instead, we shall be with him and feel thanksful for HIS great crucified love every moment..

Hebrews 6:6
If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.

O Father In Heaven,thanks lots n words unexpressable, thanks JESUS LORD...

Every1 get prepared urself for this great great meaningful Good Friday...

Poor?

2010-03-27T16:20:00.000-07:00

probably poor, then can be rich in term of heart,
poor, can treat people in true richly heart
as it's what u can offer

poor gift, but a true richly hard effort DIY present
rather then spend some $$ but unsincerely giving,
it may be valueless in price, but a true sincere blessing

probably poor entering a cinema or clubbing or shopping...
then enjoying free sorts of meaningful entertainments -
DIY things, repairings, cooking lessons, serving.......

probably poor, seems like unable to enjoy many fine things or places or food
indeed, it's been the wonderful things in seeing HIS creation and
enjoying it truthly with the richest heart, ...

poor, making u a humble person due 2 ur inability

poor, making u relying HIM strongly not matter what..

poor, making u a richly thoughtful person for others
probably poor in self but rich for others

poor, but felt the richest when seeing people smiled and laughed..

but poor in HIS words though u're the richest
yet, poorest ever u're in this world for not knowing the greatness of HIM

poor, then everyday's a thanksgiving day,

Personality test

2010-03-27T16:14:00.000-07:00

又是来自哈佛的测试题，大凡印着知名品牌的东西都会比较受欢迎，这个测试也因此沾上了光。就我个人做完的体会，也许并不适合我们中国人，测题有很多和生活习惯有比较大关联，而中西方在这方面的差别是比较大的。但不容否认，这还是一个上乘的测试，有兴趣的朋友不妨玩玩。

本来想做成自动计分的测试形式，看看现在时候不早，还是保持测题的原汁原味吧，也避免影响测试信度和效度。偷懒一下：）

麻烦大家准备记录工具，将每题你选择的答案..分数加起来…..

1. 早上起床之后通常吃什么当早点?
>蛋和吐司———-3
>麦片—————- 1
>汽水—————- 6
>什么都不吃——-2

2. 如果你可以选任何一样你想吃的东西当早点你会选择什么?
>蛋和吐司———-2
>其它别种东西—-1
>汽水—————–3
>蛋糕—————- 4

3. 午餐时?你会…
>不吃东西因为太忙或担心体重—2
>吃你想了一个早上想吃的东西—-1
>吃自己带来的食物——————–3
>问朋友要吃什么再一起去吃—— 4

4. 一位朋友请你吃一些她/他带来的食物你会…
>吃一小口因为实在太饿了———-3
>为了保持礼貌只吃一小口———- 1
>拒绝他/她的好意因为你正在减肥———- 2
>吃两口———-6

5. 你未来的男/女朋友请你吃一样东西你想那会是什么?
>一块蛋糕———- 1
>一颗苹果———- 2
>一片批萨———- 5
>一个胡萝卜——- 3

6. 你的狗对你奋力摇尾巴企图引起你的注意你会给他…
>给他一块狗饼干——————-3
>一些蛋糕 —————————-1
>什么都不给拍拍他就好———4
>什么都不给还把他赶开因为你认为不能让你的狗养成要什么有什么的坏习惯———- 2

7. 梦中你正在一家全世界最棒的餐厅里你想你会点…
>菜单上列的每道菜反正是做梦嘛!!——–2
>一个大盘里面什么东西都有的色拉 ——1
>牛排————————————————-3
>一个会让你多长很多肥油的点心———- 4

8. 在一个热带岛上你觉得什么食物是你一定要吃到的?
>水果和蔬蔡——————–4
>肉和马玲薯——————–3
>冰淇淋巧克力和蛋糕? —-2
>中国菜————————–5
9. 你现在是一个婴儿你妈妈正在喂你吃…
>婴儿麦片或婴儿食物—————–6
>肉和马玲薯——————————4
>绿色花椰菜——————————8
>什么都没有你妈正在做别的事—-2

10. 你现在是六岁的小孩你爸爸正在喂你吃…
>批萨————–7
>意大利面——- 5
>泡泡糖 ———-1
>胡萝卜———- 3

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得分12-20: 你是个害羞的人喔!

当处在人多的场合时 ,你便会感到不自在. 你常会觉得你的身心生得不是很一致或觉得你生错了时代. 你实际上比你看起来要聪明多了 ,但是你不想让别人知道这点. 大概是属于那种深藏不露的人你有一颗可以容纳很多想法的"心" , 可是也因为你有太多想法,所以常你的思绪塞车你拥有艺术方面的天份 , 你喜欢的音乐类型是:描写爱情为爱伤心失恋的歌 , 你喜欢的电影:铁达尼号 , 总有些时候你宁可待在家里享受一个人的自在 , 也不愿去面对一些讨厌的人们 , 看来邱比特曾经开你一场玩笑! 有人曾伤过你的心! , 在你童年的时候你的父母常吵架 , 你曾有过去刺青的念头

得分21-30: 尽管生活是有崎岖挫折, 但你总有办法克服顺利渡过!

你遭遇过的措折比一般人多 , 你曾经接触过一些难相处的人 , 没道理的规定和不和谐的人际关系你对爱情的态度就像太阳表面一般热情高温 , 当你被很多烦人的事困扰的时候 , 你要不就是非常镇定的静观其变 , 要不就是以领导者的姿态出现叫大家都闭嘴你觉得一个人去看电影没什么大不了的 , 反而想不通为什么有些人非要有人陪才肯去看电影 , 你感到自在不论是一个人独处或处在人群当中 , 你对你的父母不很满意但又无法改变他们你会是个很好的情人 , 如果你能在万人之中找到和你极为相配的人 , 不然的话你和恋人的关系总是不能持久或痛苦结束你可能已经和一个你并不爱的人在一起太久了 , 生活就像在坐云霄飞车一样 , 你总是想尽办法让生活过得更加如你所愿 , 你要不就是个运动迷 , 要不你就曾经尝试过禁药如果您对这篇文章感兴趣，相信你会对PSYTOPIC同样感兴趣，网址是psytopic.com ，这次点击不会浪费您的时间。这是Psytopic的指纹密码：aHR0cDovL3d3dy5wc3l0b3BpYy5jb20=，您可以凭这个指纹在google搜索到我们的网站。
得分31-42: 大致而言你算是一个冷静的人

会让你兴奋的情况有 , 1.当你爱的乐团或歌手要来举行演唱会 , 2.和情人约会 , 3.和朋友跳舞的时候对你来说朋友比什么都重要 , 你爱好艺术和喜欢诗词 , 你喜欢办party或帮朋友一齐筹划party , 通常你身旁不缺追求的人 , 但你总是三不五时碰到一些呆板不解风情的人 , 你喜欢户外活动 , 即使下雨天也影响不了你爱好户外活动的精神你有时候会嫉妒那些比你聪明或比你帅/美的人 , 但当你是个就事论事的人 , 不会因为私人情绪影响你正确公正的判断能力 , 你和你的父母关系良好 , 虽然有时你会觉得快被他们搞疯了 , 你曾不小心看过你父母间的亲密行为认识你的人都觉得你是一个 , 可依赖值得信赖的人 , 你爱动物

得分43-53: 你有太多想法和计划以致你总是觉得时间不够用.

如果你感到无聊你总是能够想出办法把场面炒热 , 你是那种会让人崇拜的人 , 你可以说是一个有能力让"心想事成"的人你通常不在乎别人的想法是个自我中心的人 , 你可以很自然的在大庭广众下亲吻你的男/女朋友 , "性"对你来说就像是一种充满热情的艺术品 , Sex for you is a passionate art， and you never have a , probleminbed，except for being a little too wild for your > > partner , (sorry…想了很久还是决定用英文) 你拥有过人的精力 , 你喜欢亲自下场运动胜过在场外观看 , 常有人嫉妒你的一切但这些都很难引起你的注意你有两位很活耀的父母 , 也因此你常觉得他们没有足够的时间陪你 , 你有刺青或是乐团成员 , 或有一头金发(好像不适用)或?O球队的队员 , 身为人们崇拜的偶像 , 人们喜欢跟随你的脚步 , 希望能变得像你一样即使有时候你也是一团糟 , 但你从不让自己颓废下去 , 你总有办法恢复成耀眼的星星 .

i got that in the range of 21-30, i think some part true.. How bout u guys??

laziness....

2010-03-14T06:07:00.000-07:00

Immediately after coming back fr CNY, rushing 2 handling 2 designs - steel and slope
Those days were endless, writing d designs sheet by copying blindly fr senior since no time at all to read and survey, work out without understanding much, and sleep after 6am++ continuously for 3 days for steel design, felt reli breathless, time was so packed. Though gt read bible, yet still.... Everyday so rush, brainless, mentally unaffordable.....

Afterwards, fortunately slope design was just a little bit better than steel. After handling both of d designs, felt wanna rest while to pick up my study then just feel so hard 2 lift my fingers 2 flip any academic pages then merged myself in the world of drama n movies... feeling lazy to interface ppl and to study...wanna shut myself down in a box and keep in hibernate mode... Felt far far left behind in my study. Not knowing where to pick up my step to study, feeling that so much things needed to be done--church, gp members, family, study bla bla.........
feeling helpless, feeling lost, feeling bit far away fr HIM

Afterwards... comings are d 2 more headache designs....

Lord, i'm here to plead that to retrieve myself in you n rest in YOU. Father, I'm feeling bit stressful in my services, study and family. Please lift YOUR hand and hold me tight in YOUR elbow and i shall once again come to YOUR front. Please place peaceful heart inside and let my eyes opened, my ear been ready 2 listen I know that YOU will restore me again with YOUR powerful words and love. Please deliver me strength and intelligence to manage my time and energy properly. In Jesus name i pray...

诗篇103：9-10

2010-02-20T14:00:00.000-08:00

诗篇103：9-10
祂不长久责备，也不永远怀怒。
祂没有按着我们的罪过待我们，也没有照着我们的罪孽报应我们。

这节经文昨晚在青团时背的。。
昨天在生气着，为什么她要这么急，为什么她不能等。。。
她兴高采烈地拿着回来，结果被我用力的训一顿。。。
一件小小事件竟然可以引爆我久久所没发的脾气。。。
训她做事从来就不会考虑清楚，不会为自己，家人着想，太不懂事，take things for granted。。。
我竟可以如此火爆，当着她好友面前训她。。。

昨晚一起青团之后，赌气地载她去阿姨家等12.30am去美里的巴士，塞了少少钱给她。。。
回家后，回想刚刚的经文，祂都不责备怀怒我们，若祂按着我们的罪过罪孽报我们，
我们大概每一个人都站立不住也不可能会在这里了，
那我有什么资格去责备其他人，对他人怀怒呢？
祂竟可以如此容易宽恕爱我们，难道我们就这么难地学祂的样式吗？

传道昨晚也提醒，若我们责备他人，或话语带刺压人，讽刺性，就是含有骄傲份子了，
勿要学习谦卑的人，时时刻刻不自夸，话语语气柔和像小孩子。。。
彼得前书5：5-6
照样，你们青年人要顺服年长的。就是你们各人也要彼此以谦卑为装束，因为“神敌挡骄傲的人，赐恩给谦卑的人。”
所以你们要谦卑，服在神大能的手下，到了时候，他必叫你们升高。

愿神饶恕孩子的过犯，反省每一次的说话语气是否柔和，让孩子时时刻刻都学习谦卑。。

HAPPY CNY..^.^

2010-02-15T14:28:00.000-08:00

Firstly, wanna wish every1 HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!!!!

Finally i reach home for CNY this year... lots of excited feelings... It means lots for me 2... Since previously it's the reunion for my family each year but i missed it two years already.. Thanks Lord for me to be able to celebrate at my hometown with my family this year.

CNY kinda an unexpressed thanksful feeling, meet with lots of relatives, friends after all.
Talking to the different ages person, sharing the excited experiences, expressing the missing, gathering moments, enjoying the preparations, fireworks, food...

Although there's lots of homeworks, still feeling excited upon going back to hometown and told myself that the most important is enjoying the season first. Together with Ee Ning and Johnny, we took flight from penang-KL, KL-Kuching then took bus from Kuching-Sibu, start from 10/2 4pm++, we reach by 3pm++ on the next day. What a long journey ya yet felt thanksful able to reach home.. ^.^

This year i volunteered myself in my family to make the CNY eateries since i'm here and most important is that able helping my mom to save lots of $$ and it's more meaningful as guests can enjoy homemade 1... hum... quite satisfied, 8 types of cookies n 5 types of cakes n other snacks in 2 days...

Meeting with my cousins and relatives, and unrealisedly that they all having todlers, own family, careers and some has own house and car. And, i'm here as 23 years old already yet owning nothing but thanksful got my family along with me throughout the years.

Thanks Lord that i was able to meet with my really old frens after many years...While meeting with old frens, surprised that a fren whose always look "play-play 1" at least 4 me suddenly sharing something so serious and doesn't look like him at all since he likes to play joke usually and never been serious, yet he's really quite a thoughtful and having own thinking person (probably i never noticed his serious side) exploring and motivating me lots of things also.. This showed that dun ever judge a book by its cover..
"Thanks, fren... Dun worry, i'm in fine condition.."
Happy CNY!!!
Yippi... flying home..^.^
Cookies-ing
Done cookies..
milky sesame+seaweed cookies... i like this so much...^.^
almond choc cookies..
melting custard cookies... n this 2...^.^
Failed makmor cookies..:(
choc, corn flakes-raisin coconut cookies..
choc topped milk cookies...
sesame peanut cookies..
peanut cookies..

done eateries.. ^.^
batik cake
san cha coffee cake
choc pepermint cake
4 flavor cake-yam,vanila,choc n pepermint
chilled biscuit cheese cake

seaweed snack..
floss spring roll
milky spring roll flakes..
My home simple dishes of CNY eve... done by my mom n elder sis.. ^.^
A full family pic upon dinner

sleepy miao miao..

church service...1st day of CNY

mY len lui sis
my len lui younger sis..

with all my younger sis...

hehe... nv ren guo here with full members...with the bigger boss at the middle...

Full member here^.^

my sis n me ^.^
secondary school gathering.. mostly r previous ISCF frens...

Hehe.. handmade wood craft ^.^

2010-01-24T04:35:00.000-08:00

Starting... stuffs needed..

In the progress... what a mess..
dlammm....Finished craft...

Haha... Finally, finished my planned making of wood crafts in a week using that left over balsa wood of "Bridging's period", i managed to make total of 10 gifts of 5 types to give away.. Aiya.. Got some more other differ type forgot to take a pic..

yeah yeah...finished^.^

我的妈妈。。。

2010-01-19T06:44:00.000-08:00

好久好久就想要分享这篇文章了，特别是我09年生日的那一天，第一个想到的就是她。。。

感恩上帝赐每一个人一年都有一天的纪念日，
那一刻，想要纪念是真正的生日主角，
那一刻，真正的主角不是自己，而是妈妈，
妈妈这么辛苦的怀胎生我，并辛苦的母兼父职把我们六个兄弟姐妹养育成长，何等不易呀。

她是一个非常非常传统的妇人，小时候的她因家庭背景的关系，受的教育也不高只到六年级，也不晓得如何关心孩子们的心灵需要，也是爱在心里口难开的类型。
虽然如此，但绝对是我心目中的超级妈妈噢！！！

她非常的特别，她身影瘦瘦的，只有43kg，164cm （苗条吧！），身为女儿的有些为自己身体惭愧 (不能遗传妈妈的，也遗憾不能把妈妈喂肥。）我对自己对妈妈说，以后一定要带她到她想去的中国及吃遍各处的美食。

她虽母兼父职，但她似乎没有所谓的刚硬刚强，仍有着非一般传统女性的柔弱且不像我有着倔强的性格，身体单薄的似乎很容易被风吹走，总是喜欢穿着裙子，而我这坏女儿还常说她怎么这么喜欢穿裙（不像我完全不喜欢穿裙子，很不像她，很怪胎）

她总是很随和，人家拜托她什么，她能做到的一定帮忙，而身为女的却怕她吃亏，叫她不要帮这么多，而她却每次都会说：“嗨呀，不要紧啦，能帮就帮咯，上帝还不是这样教导吗？”每次都自觉惭愧。所以，只要有风吹草动，姐姐和我一定第一时间挡在前面，不允许任何欺压在妈妈身上。我们会呵护妈妈如掌上明珠，深怕她受了哪怕是一点的伤害（有些角色颠倒的感觉）。

但是，她念功一流噢（讲到这，我的碎碎念应该从她来的，总算有遗传到她的了，呵呵），记得以前，每一次我们姐妹们只要没做家务，就会被她大大力念，到今天还是一样哦。以前，会很讨厌这感觉。长大了，因为少在家的关系，这种碎碎念似乎成了我的镇定剂，喜欢摇电话给她听她说话，喜欢对她的碎碎念一笑而过。写到这里，怀念她的碎碎念了。

她非常的知足，她口里也常常挂着“感谢主感谢主的”，每一次总喜欢在别人前提起她儿女们如何如何体贴她，而我们却有常常觉得丢脸（妈妈，对不起）。

她不会驾车也不会骑电单车，记得小时候，她带我们出街都是以巴士代步，直到我们长大有执照了，都由我和姐姐用单车载她，有时我们还会埋怨她为什么不要拿执照，一点也不体贴她（真是坏蛋）。以前有时候还会羡慕其他孩子，为什么她们父母可以在他们上学出街，而我们却需要载妈妈（一点也不会感恩可以载妈妈），他们可以有父母可以为他们遮风挡雨，一切的事物可以有父母来打点，从吃饭到穿衣服。

从小到大，妈妈从不像其他母亲一样严格的要求我们该做的事（家务例外），不知道她为何总是能放心我，不约束我的成长过程。而我一向来都是母亲心中的乖女儿，她从来不焦急我，我甚至超自由，不担心我去哪里，她安心我中学时期自己在外面住自己顾自己，或在死党家留宿，当然我也会有所交代。妈妈大概非常放心让上帝来管教我，偶而也因有太多弟兄姐妹的关系吧。

但是，现在更感恩一路走来，若不是上帝安排我在这个家，今天也许也不会有这样的我吧。
所以，万事互相效力，叫爱神的人得意处。也因着这家庭背景，也许自己比起其他同龄的孩子多了一些家庭负担，甚至自己对责任感这东西看得特别重，无论是对神，人，事物都好。很感恩神给我这个超级妈妈，我现在还可以打点自己和家里的事物，各方面都有些些生活技能。

可能也是遗传妈妈，爱在心里口难开，觉得很难当面开口说，可能妈妈也不会看到我所写的，虽然也不是什么特别纪念母亲的日子，可是我还是觉得每天都是妈妈纪念日。
我还是要在这里大大声说："妈妈，我爱女尔噢！！！"

圣经里也有超级妈妈噢，觉得妈妈有些像箴言31：10-31里才德的妇人（很享受这经文）：

31:10	才德的妇人谁能得著呢？她的价值远胜过珍珠。
31:11	她丈夫心里倚靠她，必不缺少利益。
31:12	她一生使丈夫有益无损。
31:13	她寻找羊□和麻，甘心用手做工。
31:14	她好像商船从远方运粮来，
31:15	未到黎明她就起来，把食物分给家中的人，将当做的工分派婢女。
31:16	她想得田地就买来，用手所得之利，栽种葡萄园。
31:17	她以能力束腰，使膀臂有力。
31:18	她觉得所经营的有利，她的灯终夜不灭。
31:19	她手拿捻线竿，手把纺线车。
31:20	她张手周济困苦人，伸手帮补穷乏人。
31:21	她不因下雪为家里的人担心，因为全家都穿著朱红衣服。
31:22	她为自己制作绣花毯子，她的衣服是细麻和紫色布做的。
31:23	她丈夫在城门口与本地的长老同坐，为众人所认识。
31:24	她做细麻布衣裳出卖，又将腰带卖与商家。
31:25	能力和威仪是她的衣服。她想到日后的景况就喜笑。
31:26	她开口就发智慧，她舌上有仁慈的法则。
31:27	她观察家务，并不吃闲饭。
31:28	她的儿女起来称她有福，她的丈夫也称赞她，
31:29	说：“才德的女子很多，惟独你超过一切！”
31:30	艳丽是虚假的，美容是虚浮的，惟敬畏耶和华的妇女必得称赞！
31:31	愿她享受操作所得的；愿她的工作，在城门口荣耀她。

Last semester cell group and fellowhip activities(refresh back)...

2010-01-17T02:15:00.000-08:00

Long time wanna update our gp here already and although now's a bit but still....
Wanna introduce our group here... hehe ^.^

耶和华罗希Jehovah Rohi

For our group, we had variety of gathering for the last semester like having prayers, devotions, bible study, disciples' trainings, visitations, birthday celebrations, dinner time and also movie sharing together.

We are here having the warm cg gathering due to the love of Lord as in the family of Christ.
In John 13:34 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another" and in Hebrews 10:25 said:"Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching."

In the cell group, we will learn from each other and helping out each other. Welcoming and hope that any1 who are interested could also join us ya...

Kevin's birthday
Happy 20th Bday, Kevin^.^

Dinner and prayer time together ^.^ That day... full members there lol..
From 1st row left side: Kevin, 小光, Richard, 仁豪, 国顺
From 2nd row left side: me^.^, 恭旭, 友富，俊贤，沁梅大姐，巧玲 and Emily. ^.^

Hehe.. My Bday...We are having a short bible sharing and visitation at aunty xue qing's home that day 2...
Thx 2 all my lovely cg members... Reli appreciate that lol...
That day, Xue Qing aunty specially made home pizza, red bean soup for us lol.. Thx much Xue Qing aunty...
My birthday presents lol... ^.^ Thx u thx u!!!

Since my bday near with mooncake festival, my bro bought me a mooncake as present lol.. thx bro...

And of course activity that satisfying our stomach ....

Hehe... I suggested a dinner after the exam for last sem since every1 so tense up ^.^
It was cooked by our own lol.. In that gathering, we worked as early as 8am to pasar pagi to buy ingredients and then start preparing, washing ingredients and cooked until 7pm. I had never been cooking for such a long time even in my home but thanksful to God i was able to try it for my very 1st time and we enjoyed lots 2 during that period, we chatted and laughed together..
And i really wish to thank all my great helpers that time lol... Nelly, 巧玲 and also 明忠... reli thanks u guys ya... They are so hardworking helping out to cut and prepare the ingredients.... ^.^ Luckily, i was able 2 invite 2 of my "zi mui" to enjoy together and then we having a movie together..
A sour sweet tofu dish...
A sour sweet hotdog, fishball dish.. grabbed till finish immediately...
dunno how to call this ... spicy,fried ikan bilis"shen" timun... but a bit "chao kui ta"...
Fried big onion, tomato and egg dish....
vege...
guess wat is this.. although it quite black.. it taste nt bad 2.. satisfied.. glutinuos pork rice.. lots of hard effort inside...
It's a left over unB chicken meat during BBQ then i managed 2 turn it over a pork chicken dish..
long bean fried egg .. specially cooked by Nelly lol.. ^.^

The full table of food that day.. almost 30++ having meals that nite lol ^.^|||
Cincau milky agar- made by nelly lol...
Longan Pudding -- made by Ming Chung lol.. ^.^
of course my favourite batik cake.. it's reli simple to be done de.. they also like it lol..
N finally green bean sweet potato soup.. ^.^

Thanksful to Lord... We been having a wonderful gathering that night..
Many more activities didn't take pics...

For this semester, we are going to have cg gathering 2, May God bless all of us and lead us through again.. ^.^

A personality test about me...

2010-01-11T04:19:00.000-08:00

Recently browsing around then take this personality test.....

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

And i not really sure whether these are my characters and i think tat some din suit me 2... How do u all think about me? Feel free to give comments ...

Holiday yet so called on duty (2)....side dish

2009-12-29T23:54:00.001-08:00

Memorable time with my family.......

Miri Trip

Fortunately got chance to walk around with d "lao yi bei" church senior and together with my youngest sister in Miri this coming bak. This is my 3rd time going to Miri after my primary school. It's change lots od compared 2 Sibu. Due to nothing can be developed in Sibu while Miri has its rich petroleum... No wonder... already heard that Sibu will become a city since 2008 yet now still haven't turn to be... but i still very much enjoy the easy life and slower paces in Sibu. Back to Miri, I enjoy the beach scenery there very much. 1st time i try so many "ye wei" all 1 2gether- turtle meat, bat, "4 leg snake", wild boar,..... n of course it had costed us almost RM30 each person leh... N Thanks to the evelyn, han chiong for their hospitality to guide us those days.
At the petroleum muzeum

Durian time with my family....
This coming back so gd can eat durian 2gether with my family after 2 yrs i think although i oso gt enjoy durian at PB n taiping there 2... But the feeling will never the same when u enjoy with family as compared to frens.. It's so memorable that we all having the "longgokan" durian during that time..

Three happily smiled sisters with smelly durian ^.^

This coming back noticed that all my sister really grow up already. They are quite understanding as compared to the teens now probably due to the need of relying on themselves. They will try to consider family at very 1st. They will try to save money for my mom and wouldn't ask to buy this and that like other kids..

Hair cutting....
Like: the funniest thing is that when i go to a hair saloon with my mum and sister that christmas afternoon from 1pm till 3pm++, all three of us were having hair cutting... My youngest sister complained to me that she never ever wanna go to hair saloon again due to the expensiveness.(Because my elder sister used to cut for her for free de..). Feel quite proud to have her as my sister.. Haha..

Compared to the daughters for the saloon " tau ke nio", they spent their mom just taking for granted as they buy RM150++ just for a white school shoes. Back to the hair cutting, wee had paid RM 49 during that time but it stated that RM5-7 for school or college students and RM8-12 for adults yet....... I never have a such an expensive hair cut before.. Feel being cheated... i told myself that i never go to that saloon again, Kimarie..
"Dan Zhang" of that saloon...

The Christmas Gift
My funny mom so excited to tell me that she get the 1st prize for the lucky draw at a supermarket near my home while she only buying a RM2++ dried mee that nite got "evangelistic night" outside the super there...
Our very 1st Christmas gift at the Christmas eve i told them...
See... she happily holding her hamper... ^.^

During free time this coming back...
Hehe... i managed to make some desserts for them 2...
Red bean soup...

Tan Yuan with peanut inside

Layer kuih....

and my favourite Batik Kek

The christmas time at Sanyan....

And at the end... Flying back to USM...
that time..still feel like dun wan to leave .. a bit down at that time cox knowing many more challenges in my services and studies wait for me... Hope that I can hold tightly Lord and through it...
Good bye my lovely hometown with sweet memories...
Will come back soon for CNY.....

Holiday yet so called on duty (1)....main course

2009-12-29T23:50:00.000-08:00

Let me refresh back what have i done in this hometown's Holiday....
Busy yet still very much enjoying in HIS duty...

Children camp, youth camps, Qin Shao Nian sunday service, fellowships, then flight delay, stay 1 more week in hometown with my lovely family, cancelling S'pore trip, Christmas nite then finally Steamboat gathering...

Firstly, Thanks Lord 4 delaying my flight then i spend 1 more week celebrating Christmas 2gether with my family after 2 years...

My hometown church life ^.^

Children camp
Soon after the trip, we have 3 days children camp. I'm been asked to help out as to lead a group for the camp. The title is "When Jesus coming back again..." We keep stressing to the children what will happen when Jesus 2nd time coming back and what they need and do that time. We keep asking them this question:[When Jesus ask :"Why should I letting you come into the gate of Heaven?"]How would u answer? “Because Jesus said:"I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6

Managed to have fun with the children in my SIB church. The children really naive, i still feel sweet when i thought of those memorable pictures --They all so good and close when they score high marks due to their team work in game, and yet "nao pi qi" and blaming each other when loss in a game" No wonder Jesus said let the children come to the front of HIM. Hopefully this camp can have impacts in them and me 2.. The title also refresh me lots that... How i can face Jesus at that time? Have i work hard enough for HIM? Will i regret? Confident enough?
Briefing...
Game time with hoop.. my tiny group... They r so exciting that time^.^
here's group pic....^.^

Qin Shao Nian Sunday Service“基督品牌”
Pastor Lau and Pastor Wong from the left side
I only involved in the choir part for the service. The pastor Lau telling us that our youth nowadays no longer as our forefather age. They doesn't have the words "青少年人" in the past and the word is invented this lately because they only call youth or teens as “青年人” wherelse a teens at around 1900 will know how to navigate a ship to rescue work, a teen at those years becoming a nurse better than an adult and becoming the chief of nurse at teens age, and another 1 able drawing out the map using his topo knowledges. While in this ages, parents seems doesn't have high expectation from their children as long as they score high marks and helping to do some house chores, their parent will be satisfy. This teens nowadays chasing for their nike, addidas latest hair styles, mobile .... He challenged us that what we can bring out as a Christ Brand, What we can show if not that materialistic stuffs only but through inner self as a christian? What the attitudes should we have towards this era？

Youth camp “别小看我” Esther：1-10

After that, following by a 3 days bible study camp more likely. This camp i incharge as a helper in group again, accomodation, and also in the daily meals. And we have the excellent camp leader - pastor Wu, speaker Pastor Wong, game master Jian Xiang, helpers-Xiu Zhi, Mei Qi, Allen n including me.. Hehe^.^

In this camp, i feel more exhausted because of incharging of too many things gua.. Most of the time i rushing here n there to ensure drinking water enough, cooking rice, preparing drinks for meals then rush back to my incharged group when i free. So, really unable to stick with them much.. The 1st day, i almost cry out with the half-cooked rice. N after all, pastor Wong teach the technique in cooking such a huge pot of rice then rice cooked smoothly the next day

(That is the SURELY COOKED RICE = SAME LEVEL OF RICE + SAME LEVEL OF POURING WATER...hehe).

At night, i sleep like a pig probably 2 tired without paying much attention to the gals in the room although i'm d "ah tao"..

Although i have read the Esther almost 4-5, i still not dare to say that i can memorise every elements inside already, so same things to the teens as some maybe only read 1 time. But i'm amazed by my younger sis on how she can memorise quite easily and can be considered good already.

If got chance, i wish i could also join as a camper in such a bible study camp to upgrade my bible knowledge..Saw lots of inadequate for my bible knowledges in this camp.. Regret that unable to equip myself well during my teen's time.... Yet, thanks Lord as 4 me 2 see it as to keep moving on more n more...
Pastor 吴秋梅 ... she's really geng lol.. i reli like bible study conducted by her lol...^.^
Pastor黄光开 A never old hearted pastor, he always join madly even in games with us...

Game master 建翔
秀枝
Youth group- sharing session with them
Game time 数豆豆
Game time- 多手多脚.. c.. they r so called so "united"...
Yeah...group pic...^.^

My Christmas night
During P&W

Cute naughty didi... i witness his growing since his birth.. that year my church got 5-6 babies..|||

Posing...

happy faces^.^
my younger sisters

Fortunately this year i managed to have Christmas celebration in my hometown. I need not to be involved in Christmas event at the beggining because my flight on 20 Dec de.. I told myself to rest a while after all the business from PB till Sibu.. Let them settle it... A fren of mines oso prefer at the beggining not to involved in that drama after 2 camps and a sunday service....

During that time, i see Xiu Zhi and my sis seens helpless arranging 4 drama.. Then, tired yet i feel that Lord have letting me 2 stay 1 more week here then i opt to do something 4 HIM although i also don't have any experiences in conducting a drama, then try to help out things i probably can do, then i try my very 1st time to rewrite again d skrip from an original skrip.

Then, probably due to my that fren's commitment to Lord, in the end he helping out us again to conduct the drama by adding more humurous elements and make it a successful messaging drama.. Joyful and Praise to our Lord!!!

Then, after rearranging characters, i become one of them. Surprisingly, found that 4 out of 6 of the characters holding by 4 siblings of us, my bro as pa, my elder sis as mom, my younger sis n me lo.. another 4 voicing d characters' dialogue n PA effects. Another thanksful to Lord as my family can serve together. Pastor Ling coming back from US also even ask that where is "Nian Mei" since all of us involved already where my Da Mei involved in 2 dances and only she didn't involve. Thanks Lord again that all my family members still can serve Lord faithfully and able to attend services and gathering together. Joyful to Lord!!!

Wanna really thanks for his helps athough he probably may grow more white hair after this (due to overuse of brain... haha...) and all do involving in this drama... He's really briliant in conducting ideas n humurous sense.. "Frenz, reli thanks u all ya.."

Long time our church didn't flourished by so many people liao after the incident. That night i think got 200++people attending. Thanks God!

Finally.....
Steamboat gathering
That time......

FOOD |||||
Guo Xiu & me ^.^

After all, we having big meal only d day b4 i'm leaving on satuday nite, we come as early as 4pm++ as to preparing, washing the ingredients to have big meal and gathering time together.
We didn't have such a huge combination for a long time already. And thanksful to Lord that again we have almost 40 youths including us the young adults joining.. I managed to chat with few youths there. Pastor hope that we can have such a gathering more offen as to foster our relationship...

This coming back home, i saw and exposed more to the insufficient of servers in christ ministry in my own hometown church. As almost all the young adults are the teachers and being posting to the others place then.. seens like church services come harder. As our church now still in the beggining of formation stage, we just can hand over all to Lord to help us and we need to pray harder and harder for the existing condition as nothing much can be done... And, really thanksful to Lord that he has sent us this two loyal and faithful pastors to reform our chhurch here... ^.^

有趣的姐妹。。。

2009-12-25T19:18:00.000-08:00

一天下午，有趣的听到我两个妹妹在对话，一个说：“Bi, 我明天要再少团分享圣经人物，啊呀！要分享什么leh？嗨呀！我不知道要分享什么leh。。。帮我想一下mo。。。”
另一个就拿出圣经来，“Haiyo。。。圣经里这样多人物，不可能没有一个你不会讲的吧！”，她就说出了一大堆圣经人物，到最后选了参孙，翻到士师记12章到16章里参孙的故事，就这样简单的读起来，从参孙的出生，与外邦腓力士女子结婚，头上的七条发辫，撕裂狮子，拿尸首的蜜给他父母，，与三个女子一起过，猜谜语，用驴腮骨杀人，到他眼瞎和死为止，后就一下子可以summarise仔仔细细整个故事的内容，把重点整理一下告诉那小的，小的也一下子就可以pick up 整个故事，然后再重复一遍给她听。。。

那时，心情有些复杂，在旁看着她们，有些暗笑着，心里欣慰的是两个妹妹在神话语方面可以如此的同心，小的时候很长看到她们俩常因东西或食物没有公平分配而吵架打架（家里很常好吃的食物都会一下子就完了），还有，在神的话语方面，这样的用心这样的容易吸收。感恩她们从生命堂一路走来从主日学升到少团都有受圣经上的装备，也感谢现任的两位非常非常注重圣经话语的传道人。。

惭愧的是，身为姐姐的，在圣经方面即还没有下足功夫，也许还差她们一载呢，也没有与妹妹们能一起好好的读经，也没能在幼小的年龄，在主日学或少团受足够的装备。记得，那时自己曾经有一段日子在地方召会，也没能固定在主日学及少团。。

感恩妹妹们及全家人都很努力的在跑神的道路。。。

Meeting with old friends... ^.^

2009-12-11T16:28:00.000-08:00

Yesterday fortunately able to meet with my close old friends, Ling Sing and Jici in Mana cafe in Sanyan building. They were my secondary school class mates. Jici and me always keep in touch although we were studying in different place, currently she is in Melaka Kuktem while Ling Sing is working currently in Sibu Municipal Council. We had not met for really a long time already.

Thankful to God for this gathering, We were there from 11am++ until almost 4pm. Kinda unbelieveable we still able to talk so much! We tried to catch up for whatever we had missed it before, it's really nice to be able to meet with old friends. It's the 1st time for such a gathering for this semester's holiday.

We chatted about how's everyone of our SES classmates, and "sampat" about everyone's characters, our current lives and situations, who's breaking up, where are them currently, temper of others, fierce experiences when they are being taken over advantages, our family, laughing over the huge changes for the faces in facebook, bla bla bla....

Really memorial moment for what we had go through in secondary.. ^.^
Time paced really fast, everyone of us got to in own situations, different responsibilities, demands, goals, minds, realities, no longer as daddy mummy gals...
Haiz... a bit regretful for forgetting to take a pic before leaving...

Sharing ^.^

落脚的第一天

火辣辣的犀鸟之乡的”选“。。。

Farewell。。。

原来。。。全球性的McDonald直到1993年在以色列才有。。。

做glue就好，不要做UHU

神爱我们爱到妒忌的地步。。。

恋爱观吗？？

祷告 因为我渺小

Tiring but enjoying cny 2011...^^

爱美需要付上代价。。。

Thx LOrd ...i'm fine

A must duty...

期待回家。。。

Bek tahan... = =

明白。。

I told my fren...

笑的艺术。。

Bat....

" I did it all right "

放话以先。。。

一首非常好的詩-孩子

=.=

平衡点？？？

It's all coming back to me now...

事奉动机重要还是装备？

说话时。。。

岁月逝去的感动。。。

义人

《圣经》中的义人

概述

《圣经》中的相关论述

一份家里的感动。。。

钓鱼

人间有情。。

可怜的家伙。。

my waffle days.. ^^

小小羊儿

一念之间

没讲完的营会（一）。。

still very much inadequate....

话说即成？

我的宝贝。。你千万别有事啊。。

一些朋友

Back to campus... o w o

simply smile.... ^^

Addtion to trial and temptation

试探，试炼differences and same time??

Finally...she's doing this...proud of ^^

端午节与22/6

A believer or a disciple?

hM.. my own real holiday...hike hike...

New cultural in malaysia...(squeezed all u can...)

Happy Mother's Day....

Working days' meals....

Start my new environment... @.@ + ^.^

Recently "little little"...^.^ (2)

罗希所负责之家庭祷告聚会。。。

小小礼物，大大心意

Farewell

不喜欢“女强人”这字眼。。。

get prepared ur heart to remember HIS crucified love...

Poor?

Personality test

laziness....

诗篇103：9-10

HAPPY CNY..^.^

Hehe.. handmade wood craft ^.^

我的妈妈。。。

Last semester cell group and fellowhip activities(refresh back)...

A personality test about me...

Holiday yet so called on duty (2)....side dish

Holiday yet so called on duty (1)....main course

有趣的姐妹。。。

Meeting with old friends... ^.^

祷告因为我渺小